Please give me strength. Just for today.
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Iām sure youāre missing a digit 
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You made me look twice , 3 timesā¦ hmmm that cannot be right 
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@Mephistopheles
Itās a strange bug in the view on a (Android) phone. Top screenshot is from my phone, bottom one is on my PC. The dot after the number does it as soon as there are four digits before it. Yes Iām bored, on the fourth day of covid isolation here.
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Day 1114 sober
Well covid is just so divineā¦ itās the gift that keeps on giving around here 
first my eldest daughter tested positive Monday, Iāve been sick since Tuesday but didnāt come up positive until yesterday and this morning, my youngest tested positive. So, 3 out of 5 at the moment.
My eldest has a sore throat though so no doubt he will become patient no. 4 soonā¦ canāt believe we managed to escape its clutches all this time but omg itās hit me hard. Iāve been really unwell, the fevers keep hitting me at night time and at 2am this morning I was shaking so bad it took 3 hours for them to stop, I could not.move from the bed and i had so many layers on me it was ridiculous but nothing helped. Yep. Play the violin, Iāve got the poor meās lol. Ahhh surely it will turn a corner soonā¦
Itās also reminded me of back when I was drinking and would get sick. It never stopped me from drinking. I would gulp that wine down no matter how much it burned my throat or turned my stomach. Pure insanity. I canāt imagine doing that now. Iām so glad Iām not in that place anymore, I really had doubts I would ever climb out from it but geez Iām SO grateful I never gve up trying.
Hope you all have a strong and sober weekend xx
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The shivers at night really are the worst 
! Followed by some crazy night sweating. Hoping for your fever to go down real quick friend. Iām not out of the woods yet but the fever seems to be gone for now. And yes to the memories of drinking (and smoking) while sick in the past. Thank god we donāt do that no more! Beterschap Becky!!! 
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Aaaah, sounds horrible for you all. Feel better soon. I had it back in early April and was so glad I had a couple of months sober by then to help me fight it. I also remember thinking that normally it wouldnāt have stopped me drinking. Complete madness!
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Bedankt, jij ook !
(I know we are sober twins but really, having this virus at the same time alsoā¦ 
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@JennyH it really is utter madness what we can put our bodies through.
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@Mno @Becsta Sending get well soon vibes 
Take care, friends.
Day 675
I am definitely going to have to make a sobriety plan for my free time during my daughterās dance class. I donāt know what it is - the fact itās on a Friday, the time (6 to 7), the length that means I donāt have time to go home or do anything in particular, I am just hanging around the station area with tonnes of bars and convenience stores. I thought last week was a one off, but definitely random thoughts of drinking again today. They say if you hang around barbers long enough you eventually get a hair cut, I donāt want to sleepwalk into taking a drink.
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Really tough one, well done for tackling it though. What is the rest of the area like? Could you do a circuit, and plan a walk in every week?
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Love Hampshire and that whole area. Had an amazing ploughmans and boat ride at Bucklers Hard once. Always wanted to go back.
Well done on not drinking. Enjoy the rest of your break
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Ridiculous isnāt it? I am already sitting in a room in the dark because the curtains are shut. Britain just canāt cope in any extreme weather!
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Whatās beautiful about these numbers are, they were earned! You did the work, you put in your time, youāre still doing it. You show up for yourself every day. Congratulations!
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You are Courageous and strong! Good job being on here 1 day after relapse, itāll help you. Think about what made you relapse and Iām sure you learned something.
I used to think Iām useless in social situations unless thereās alcohol there. Iād just sit there lost in my thoughts till thereād be alcohol or I could leave. Now Iāve actually learned alcohol didnāt make me social at all. It just made me think I was. Iām now slowly learning to improve my confidence in sobriety and I can tell itās already a little better.
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Day 7. One whole week. First weekend in a longtime. Give me strength 
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Day 138 AF
5PMO
Just decided in my mind Iām going to cancel safehouse. Iāve waited 8 weeks since the clinic for them to approve. And now itās around the corner I donāt want it anymore. Idc anymore, I was just going for my family anyways. Iāll be fine without. Iāll stay clean by myself but not alone.
Have a great day everyone, Iām enjoying the sun 
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No idea really. Nonno, Grandpa, Grumpyā¦
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Checking in day 2.
I feel that dull roar of am-I-doing-the-right-things all the time. Itās persistent, like an electrical charge humming in the background. You know that sound you can hear when you walk under high voltage power lines? Like that.
I donāt know where that comes from. I donāt know if this is a neurotypical human thing, or if itās an ADHD thing. I donāt know if itās related to mindset or mindfulness or exercise or diet. I donāt know if itās a problem or not, or if itās just one of those things you have to adapt to. I suspect it is 
Exercise helps, that I know. Probably the endorphins. I hurt my foot yesterday - nothing serious, I scraped it against some furniture, minor bleeding and a scab that will take a day or two before Iām comfortable running again - so today is a rest day from running. Iāll take a walk and do some stretches.
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Hey everyone! Here on day 6. This has been a brutal week with work and I just feel so tired today. These are the types of weeks where I would look forward to the weekend so I could start drinking early and pass out drunk early on. Not this weekend though. I have been planning out things to do and I have a list of a few things to do if the cravings and urges get really bad. Feeling good about my game plan for this weekend to avoid the alcohol. Just have to make it through this hard day at work and then I can spend some me time to enjoy. Hope everyone has a great day today!
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Hey all, checking in on day 733. I hope everybody has a good one!
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