I am so glad i set the timer last night. Something about how low pressure 15 minutes of literally any cleaning is calming and makes me feel like more of a person. Woke up without much sleep but was able to make it to work on time with breakfast and lunch packed. Sorted all the recycling in my car…something smells terrible and im determined to find it!
Day off tomorrow for doctors appointment and also therapy. Work again friday. We are painting the walls of this office…the same exact depressing colors . If it was me id use the opportunity to change the colors to something more modern and clean than this dingy yellow. But i am not paid to consult so it is what it is.
Morning Check In Day 191
Woke up really “off” bcuz of constant using dreams last night. It was like it was on repeat… the same scene over n over. I didn’t use in it but I do remember my mind debating it tho. I woke up freaked out trying to analyze what I dreamt. I’m taking it as a warning sign to keep on my toes bcuz the creature of addiction is literally doing push ups out in the alley waiting for a “weak” moment to attack.
I didn’t feel like exercising or basically doing anything today bcuz I was in a funk. But I promised myself to be consistent. Basically… even tho I don’t feel like doing something thats healthy for me, I still do it. The quality may not be there but I showed up and tried. And u know what?.. I literally had one of the best workouts in a while. I felt so grounded and in the moment. When my mind would wander, I’d bring my mind back to mind-muscle connection. It was exactly what I needed!
I did my hygiene and got dressed. Now I’m at the coffee shop to work on my workout routine for next week. Gonna clean the apartment later and do another meditation. Honestly feeling really good! The change we wanna see in ourselves, is directly related to our daily choices. Hugs TS fam!
Checking in at a big milestone for me! 4 months sober from my best friend and worst enemy alcohol! As I sit here on lunch at work I can’t help but to reflect on my journey so far. There’s been great days there’s been bad days. With alcohol there would have been many worse days and lost days. I’m proud of my accomplishment but it’s no where near the end for me. This is the beginning of a beautiful new story! In just 2 months I marry the love of my life and it makes me anxious that this will be my first sober wedding and I’m the main focus but all my close friends and family will be there and very supportive of my sobriety! I’m truly glad things happened the way they did for me to turn this page and start a new chapter in life I finally like who I am and pushing myself for greater things in life! Thanks everyone for you all just being real on here and wearing your heart on a sleeve! Stay motivated and as always one day at a time!
The days seem to be crawling lately. After battling with myself all day, I finally had a bath and brushed my teeth. Feeling much better and relieved that battle is over for now. I’m going crazy in these four walls so I’m thinking of getting out the house tomorrow. Wish me luck
I’m reading everyone’s posts but not commenting much as I’ve only got energy for basic needs at the minute, not being ignorant x
Thank you so much! I do struggle tho with figuring out if what I need to do is push myself or if I actually need to listen to my body and rest bcuz I’m tired etc. I feel like if it’s a mental thing (like feeling down or anxious or blah) I can push myself which usually ends up with me feeling better. But if it’s a physical thing (like I’m too sore from a workout or legitimately tired) than I think I should rest. I’m trying to figure that out still lol I’m not sure yet if what I said it correct lol but I’m learning
I’ve struggled with life at times over the years. But for some reason now I can look back at where I was and where I’ve come. I’m like if I left life at all those points I would have missed out on this and that. Now I’m more curious as to where I can get to in life, even when it feels hopeless, I’m reminded of how far I’ve come. I believe God got me through more than I know.
Anyways not sure that helps, but keep on keepin on
. If it was me id use the opportunity to change the colors to something more modern and clean than this dingy yellow. But i am not paid to consult so it is what it is.
flowers for you!!!
Morning Check In 
huge congratulations to u on 4 whole freakin months!!!
