Day 596! Had a productive and fun weekend! Now doing a little self care with a face mask, planning out my week and off to bed early (hopefully 
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Huge congratulations on ur 1 week!!! Really proud of you 
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That sounds like a wonderful day! So happy for you two!
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Evening Check In
Day 188
Basically Iām trying right now to pull myself out of a sad state. Every Saturday and Sunday when I come home from work, my husband is cranky. Barely even looks at me when I come thru the door or asks me about my day. Nothing. He doesnāt do anything to tidy up. He watches our son and cares for him but nothing else. I donāt nitpick about it bcuz he works all week with long hours out in the hot sun. He says he never gets a break. He got frustrated with me and I asked why he was so grumpy. And he said that he never gets a break (bcuz I work on the weekends and he is constantly doing something). I basically told him that if he doesnāt want me to work to try and help with bills, Iāll quit and he can take care of everything himseld. Today and yesterday I felt like I was a nuisance to him and that Iām more in the way then helpful. Heās been snappy and just rude with how he talks to me. I offered to go to the store for him bcuz he was tired and since I was already out, I thought Iād help him out. I get there and he was upset and rude with me over the phone about the price. I told him I had no control over the price and to not get mad at me for it. So he etransfers me $$. I buy it. Get home and its the wrong brand. I offered to go back and fix it. He was just sighing and frustrated with me. Iām trying to not take it personally. But every weekend itās like this. Itās like I shouldnāt have come home or something. Like me being here is pissing him off. So I made supper, took out garbage, did laundry, and then gave our son a bath for school tmrw. I have this sadness in my chest. And Iām trying not to sink into it. He did end up doing the dishes so thatās good. Just getting lots of cuddles from my boy as Iām putting him to bed I also got an email about the permanent weekend position that I applied for and basically itās not looking good bcuz I donāt drive. So Iāll continue to be relief anyway on the weekends. Just kind of wishing this day would end. Blah lol
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So awesome Rob! Congratulations!
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I love this!!! How beautiful are these moments!!! Hugs girl! That sounds wonderful!
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@WillHarry Congratulations on your week!
Same here brother, same here. 
@Butterflymoonwoman Hey, Dana. Iām sorry your weekend was so miserable. Try to get a good nightās sleep; tomorrow will be better. 
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Itās been a pretty relaxing day, relaxing weekend actually. Still anxious about the upcoming week because I have to start making progress. No point worrying about it tonight I suppose.
I was trying to catch up on my reading since my Netflix got suspended. I changed to YouTube channel to some relaxing music. It was relaxing for about half and hour and suddenly it was really annoying. 
Has this happened to anyone else? Still managed to read a few more chapters in āWhen Things Fall Apartā. I highly recommend it. Anyway, Iām gonna finish this movie, find something on Insight Timer, and call it a night. Gānite, fam! 
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Awwwww Iām sorry Dana big hugs!!! 
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Thank you @DryIn785 and @Rockstar24777 That means alot u guys! My mental health has sort of been in a funk lately so Iāve been working hard on just being grateful and positve and I try not to predict a crappy welcome home lol in case itās actually good but I dread coming home every sat and sun. I love seeing my family and my son loves seeing me. But hubby wellā¦ idk heās just cranky I guess on the weekends
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Hi Dana,
Iām sorry youāre going through that, that is a rough situation to be in. Remember itās not you, itās him. Maybe when heās in a better mood during the week you can try to talk and find out what you guys can do to better the situation. Sounds like he is overwhelmed, but it hurts that heās taking it out on you. We always hurt the ones closest to us. Hang in there my friend, Iām praying it gets better soon for you. 
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800 days clean and sober.
Great job Rob!!
You da man!!!
Enjoy your weekend.
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Update/random ramble before bed day 169
Glad to have not checked social media. Exceot tiktok, where the pasta was great. My roommate said āeverything you cook always smells amazingā and im riding that high.
Didnt do the timer but finished dishes and will have tidied for 15 minutes. Put away paint and dangerous open paint water, chips, laundry.
The new shelf is the right size for my room. Its coming together.
Dreading work ofc but only 3 days in a row this week. I need to use my pto.
Writing and visual art are both hard and slow going. My cats are sweet. Im waking up early tomorrow and packing lunch. Going to deal with my car and my shit.
Glad I am sober now. Wistful thought āoh i could have a glass of wine socially now and then,ā but why. Its already decided to be not worth it.
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Thank you. Really needed to read that. Piano is okay, slow progress but progress. Just enjoying the sound quality if nothing else
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Not going to self harm but kind of in the middle of a mental breakdown. And I donāt really care enough to type out why. Itās just about work and feeling like Iām a fuck up and canāt do anything on my own. I just want to reach out to hold myself accountable because Iām really fucking struggling right now
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Coffee. New workweek. In a bit of a hurry. Getting up in the dark takes some getting used to again. I am sober and clean, one day at a time and expect the same from all of you. Without that our lives would be impossible. Have as good a week as you all can friends. Love from my little square.
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Wooohooooo Rob!!!
Welcome to the 800 club!!!
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Morning check in on day 23
Just got out of my appointment with my therapist. I was very nervous about going today, and almost cancelled, but in the end it wasnāt that bad, of courseā¦ Just made myself crazy for nothing!
Im glad and proud that after years of not getting external help, I finally found the courage to do so.
Now Iām gonna have a well deserved breakfast!! 
Kicking off day 23 sober, and Iāll keep it this way! 
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Huge congrats on 800 days 
thatās amazing and so inspiring!! So nice to be here to see this
Thank you for all your support and encouragement toward others including myself.
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