Sorry to hear about your back Brian, hopefully all the walking you are doing will help. I have a bad back that plays up sometimes and walking is one of the things that helps me the most.
120 days is an amazing achievement.
On the anxiety I have been listening to a podcast called “Owning it, the Anxiety Podcast”. It’s been really useful, especially in helping to identify when your mind is going through anxiety based thought patterns.
I would definitely recommend it.
1 month and 5 h AF
12 days toxfree
AF Tracker says 1 month today, yesterday it said 30 days… I am a bit confused. Can I set the tracker into showing days always (didn’t find that). Or are you calculating the days everyday you are checking in? 
12 days freed from toxic guy 
(what the hell WAS that!)
Not thinking a lot about both of the toxins!!! Feeling free 
Did a lot of meditation, resting, sports, eating good and healthy on the weekend. Having a few tasks for the new week but trying not to put to much pressure on myself.
Woke up with a hard hangover feeling, cold shower was helpful! 
Sending love 
Take care and make your day sober 
You are absolutely not a fuck up. You’re using your support system, and you’ve made it what? Almost six months now, isn’t it? You’re doing great even if you struggle from time to time.
@maxwell You’re back! Yay!! 
Liberating, isn’t it? I cancelled Facebook and Medium, and very rarely look at Quora. My life is better for it.
@Mno Love the way you start your posts with your days, followed by “Coffee”. That’s exactly what I’m going to do now.
I can relate; I approach everything with overthinking and catastrophizing. Glad you’re getting the help you need. While Topeka has a great many MH resources, it’s surprisingly difficult to just get a therapist.
@BrianP Sorry to hear about your back; I’m a walker myself. It’s the only exercise I can’t get, and it’s like a meditative experience, too.
@Staringupfromthewell Thanks for the podcast, I’m definately going to check it out. If it’s not on YouTube where would I find it?
Day 13½
Almost two weeks. Party starts around 5pm tonight! Had a rough night of sleep. Tried using Insight Timer last night, but my headphones are too bulky and my earbuds keep falling out. The whole experience was more frustrating than relaxing. Still, got coffee and breakfast, so I’m going to make this a good day. Not sure what exactly I’m doing; I have multiple objectives and no real idea how to accomplish them. In other words: business as usual. I’ll check in again later in the day, everybody have a great sober morning (or afternoon)! 
This is my first time in therapy, and he said something I liked a lot in the first session; “ if we’re not functioning as a team, you should look for a different therapist, this is a essential”
Obviously I would do so, but for the moment I feel comfortable speaking to him, so I’m really happy about that!
Now you can relax and stop calculating every day!
#Day 1434 
Just a quick check in to say hi!
On holiday in Turkey and it is GOOD! Traveling around so seeing a lot. Yesterday and today as well we got up at 4.45 in the morning to see the balloons in the sunrise. It was so lovely!
I loved visiting Turkey, including Kapadokya, though I didn’t get to do the balloon thing, getting up at 4:00 was too early for us at the time! enjoy your holidays, Claudia! 
Thank you Jenny!
We found a “secret” spot to watch at 45 minutes walking from our B&B. So not standing in the crowd. It was soooo worth it!
Tonight we have a night bus to Antalya, a 8 hour drive 
Hey all, checking in on day 799. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 114 and feeling good.
There seem to be some timetable issues at my son’s school which has resulted in me getting messages that he’s absent when he’s not. It has been pretty annoying for me as there is always that feeling of panic that he has gone missing. It took an hour before I was able to speak to him on the phone and establish that he was where he was supposed to be and that the system was at fault.
I’m feeling much more rested today after a nice sleep overnight.
Not much else to report really, which is the way I like it!
Thank you very much Eric!!! 
Thank you so much Stella!!!
Day 801 clean and sober. Today is my Saturday yay!!! Not sure what I’m going to do yet but I think I’ll start off with a sunrise hike, I’ve really been enjoying those. I hope everyone has an amazing day today, love you guys!!!
And thank you @Twizzlers it wouldn’t allow me to make another separate post!!!
Nicely done! One whole week! 
Well it’s been a while since I posted on this forum.
My addiction is pmo.
This time I really want to leave this lifestyle behind. I can’t keep fooling myself.
I know I am living a lie. Porn and random sex with girls won’t ever satisfy my real desire…that is to love and be loved.
I know it is a lie, what I’m really doing is looking for a short dopamine boost.
The thing is … I see it messing with my nervous system. I get angry at my family for no reason, yesterday I got into a fight with a guy simply because he had a different opinion on a subject.
I have to keep track on my progress otherwise I can’t keep do it.
No more. For real.
Inside I feel like I can’t do it but thats my addict brain messing with me.
Anyways, I’m here again. Desperate and angry. Feeling trapped. But I’m doing this.
My first hour into this journey. 
I’ve been accessing it through an App called “Podbean” on my Android phone. I suspect it would be on other podcast apps as well.
This made me laugh so hard for some reason lol oh my… hope ur Monday is fabulous lady!
