Day 213
I am wilting and deeply overwhelmed.
Need to leave my car at the shop, get out, and walk 20 minutes to the library.
Even if i do one thing, thats better than nothing.
Yesterday i nearly completed a mini zine. Im always doing things like art and motivated there. But i did skip tidying (bc i deep cleaned sunday)
So there are dishes and things to deal with back home.
Ok. 5 hours in a library should get Something done.
Day 18, today matches my personal best for sobriety in 21 years or so of drinking. Looking forward to blowing this out of the water. Feeling really good. Been working out 3-4 times a week with tons of cardio. Lost 10 pounds or so and sleeping the best Iāve ever slept in my life. I couldnāt have gotten this far without reading stories and sharing here daily so I thank every single person here for helping me on my journey. I hope you all have a wonderful sobriety filled day. God bless.
day 149, checking in.
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,531.
God Bless!
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Checking in. 47 days. One day at a time. Getting it right today. Reminding myself that my problems will pass. They are just for now, not forever.
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Day 232
Well we are STILL here at the hospital. His dental cleaning under anesthetic was obviously a no go, like I figured it would be. We came back down to the oncology unit only to find out that they are keeping us here longer so that another clinic can came see him. His white blood cell count is higher meaning that he is trying to fight something off. We still have no results yet of what. Anyway, i manage to grab food from the cafeteria but im running on almost 24 hours of no sleep. And honestly this no sleep thing is not my thing at all. It triggers me honestly of how id feel when i didnt sleep when using. I DONT LIKE IT! Not a good feeling. Just doing my best to stay present. I do need rest thoā¦ badly.
Day 3 is going a little better than the previous days! Iām in full clean modeā¦
Dishes/kitchen 
Bathroom
Hardwood floors
And Iām not stopping anytime soon. I have 6 people in my household so that means laundry is never ending 
But dirty laundry means I am blessed with a husband and 4 beautiful babies under the same roof!
Saying a couple prayers for youā¦ strength for you while exhausted, recovery for who is in the hospital, and just overall calm and positivity 
Thank you its cool
40 days AF. 
keeping myself busy today by crocheting my fingers off. Iām trying to get a blanket finished for my in-laws before we head off on the road Sunday. Oh! Iām also getting a haircut. I LOOOOOVE haircut day. Hope everyoneās doing something they also love today. 
Checking in day 161 af
Happy to be alive and free!
Much love!
Fucking yessir!
I find the legs disturbingly realistic. Humanlike, except for the straw 
Bet that was loads of fun to do @HappyDays good luck in the competition!
Nice to see ya 
Day 213
Tempted. If you didnt guess from my last few posts i finally got fired from that job i hated.
I feel many ways about it, mostly bad. I liked the 4 day work week and health insurance. Its embarassing. Reviewing my many failures. My coworkers were mostly nice about it. It wasnt something obvious. Better than the other times i got fired.
So applying for a bunch of jobs today. Could go to the old tobacco shop i used to go to around here and get some edibles. But i know i wont. I dont need to.
Part of how much that job drove me to use got me sober. And I did learn some. My (extremely successful) sister is being supportive. Im trying to not be petty and think myself into a spiral of doom.
Its hard not to feel totally worthless.
Nice one Les! Wonderful news.
Hope you are doing something to treat yourself!
