48 days. My life feels like it’s in the toilet. Anxiety maxed out. Pills don’t feel like they’re working. Nothing is going right. And it’s all so overwhelming.
While all of that is true, I’m also fighting hard to see the good things in my life. 48 days of prioritizing my health. A wonderful partner. A good job. And the slightest bit of hope that this too shall pass… right?
Kind of delayed bc I’ve been away but thank you so much! It’s been a wild introspective ride so far and I’m happy with seeing what comes next
A bit delayed as life’s been packed but thank you so much! It’s hard to believe it’s been half a year already!
I know it’s a little late but just wanted to say thanks so much for the support and understanding! You’re always such a bright light around here; here’s to another 6 months and more!
Checking in
Day 233
Well today has been spending it with my boy. I have completely lost my voice and am still feeling under the weather.
Today is also about making finacial amends too. I wish I could say that I initiated the amends (I had intentions to pay this person back but have been paying other things back this whole time and put them on the backburner… which wasnt good). They contacted me today and asked about the money and i was upfront and honest with them about my repayment plan. It felt good to chat and get a plan in place. Now the key is action and followthru. I wasnt even mad that that they asked for it back. It is their money that they worked hard for. I knew the time was coming. Just was postponing it i guess. Bills and rent and everything is caught up. I have this person and 1 other person to pay back (the 2nd person is a smaller amount). Then my maxed out credit card, overdraft and then the HUGE loan I have to pay back my parents (I make payments every month on this already). But i cant wait to feel that freedom of not owing people money anymore. Its been a cloud over me for awhile. And i have felt bad about not taking care of this sooner.
Hope everyone is having an addiction free day!
A little late but just wanted to say thanks so much for the really awesome supportive reply! I couldn’t have put it better myself and will definitely just be continuing to work on strengthening those acceptance muscles, just doing what i have to do despite myself sometimes i think lol!
Day 75 AF
Day 56 toxfree
Just checking in shortly.
Gradually most of the time, I think:
Sobriety is my greatest gift and such a powerful life changer to me 
Had a live Yoga class trial in a new studio today, that was really nice, warm, friendly and peaceful atmosphere.
I will enjoy a 90 minutes lesson once a week
Won’t write to long as I want to reduce screen time before bed.
I have eaten halfway regular.
Hugs and take care 
Thank you!
Congratulations, Sabrina! Keep rockin’ your sobriety!
Thank you!
Hey, thanks for responding 
it’s a bit of a difficult situation as she lives in another city so it’s hard to be involved in day to day things. I also feel that she’s angry at me for not always being there for her during heavy addictions. It’s going to take a lot of time and patience so I can show that I’m safe and reliable now. I have to live with that and I don’t want to apply to much pressure. I’m hopeful it will get better in time. I would love to just chill with her and run errands and I think we will in time. I also want to say that my daughter is good to me but she wants her own space at the minute so I’m just going to keep working on myself and keep reassuring her that she is so precious and I love her very much 
Thanks again
Thank you, I’m enjoying it so far 
Comfy’s are the best. One of the good things about lockdown was always in cosies 
enjoy your book 
Yeah my friend and I drive but they’re not that far away and thank you I’m excited!!!
Slipknot puts on one of the best live shows I’ve ever seen. Now I’m jealous. Have a great time 
Im proud of you @HeyImKris for trying to stay positive and uou keep adding sober days. Keep up the good fight friend
Thank you bro and hell yeah they kill it!!! 
Day 214
Alright, well Ive been eating…and eating…and eating. 
Not really a binge, just lots of little meals over the day. Emotional.
I did not get everything done like I wanted to, but I did laundry, showered, cleaned the kitchen faucets, applied to 3 more jobs, and am halfway through a novel that promises to be soul crushing.
I want to read, and eat. What I should do is put music on and set a timer. I can set myself up well for tomorrow! Im going to edit this post when ive done that.
Edit: dont be fooled there is a lot of extremely important stuff i pretended didnt exist today. But i did just finish a little over 15 min after setting the timer. I was so ready to not. And should probably do one last push.
Ok, I actually set the timer again just to deal with the things that were making me anxious to look at and that wound up being another 15 min. Sometimes self care is forcing yourself to take care of things that need to be done. Clear floor and better shelves and desk.
I feel that ive been a zombie since 1 week ago. I havent read all the posts before posting. which i dont think is imperative to do really, so many posts. But i do care and am glad this space exists. If you are exhausted and overwhelmed reading this you are not alone. Goodnight
Hey everybody! Congratulations to @Minatasha for 7 months!
Day 59
Things are starting to look up. I was hired on the spot yesterday. Don’t actually start until the background thing comes back. So I got a much needed haircut, got a $15 Walmart gift card for taking a survey. Still feeling a little anxious but that’s just my nature I guess. Hope everyone is having a great sober evening! 
Congratulations on seven months! Great work!
Seems you achieved a decent amount to me!
