How are you feeling today? I think yesterday you were feeling tired and empty. Are you feeling better today?
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A bit better, thanks! It always helps to remember that it will pass. Sometimes thatās hard to see when weāre in the thick of it. 
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Yes ur right!! It does pass. Every time we get thru hard times being clean and sober, it adds to our strength. Im really glad ur feeling more urself 
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Checking in. I have 16 days sober. 
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Thanks, Dana. And thanks for checking in on me. 
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Havenāt used this thread before but going to check in every so often for accountability. 35th day sober in the books when I close my eyes.
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Congratulations on ur 35th day of recovery! Welcome to the check in thread
Big moves, we have others here in the same situation. @anon53116147 and you may be able to support each other a bit. Stay hooked in with the forum, best thing about us is weāre always in your pocket. And in a situation like this a bit of fear is healthy. (just my opinion of course. )
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Checking in. Day 25 
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Huge congratulations 
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Checking in. 101 days AF
Finally had a productive day at home today! Iāve really been struggling with not having any motivation or focus these last few weeks. I took some advice from my therapist (thank God for her!) and started taking baby steps to getting back into a good mindset.
It has been so difficult for me to meditate and pray every morning. That had become something I did every single morning and it SO helped me have more control of my thoughts, emotions and just overall mental health really. Thinking back, when I went on vacation back in August I didnāt keep this routine. I also didnāt a couple of weeks ago when I had my surgery. Both times after not making time for centering myself every morning, when I tried to start back I felt so scattered. So I just stopped trying. Lesson learned! Me starting my day by getting centered and grounded is just not negotiable. I have to do it if I intend on staying soberā¦and also sane, if Iām honest. Cutting back on the negative or dark tv shows and books is helping also. It feels good to switch just a few things up and see it start paying off.
Iāve always thought that most people paid too much attention to their physical health, and they never think enough about their mental health. And self-care doesnāt always have to be physical. So getting myself back to putting my mind and spirit first feels pretty damn good.
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Day 219
I am so tired. I ate an entire bag of frozen onion rings and watched a tv show that was weird.
I dont want to tidy. I want to lay in bed. If i write this down here, maybe i will force myself to do the steps: open the timer on my phone. Reset it. And press start. Even if all i do is ten random things in 15 minutes. Better patterns. Ok. Readyā¦go.
Ok. I took my plate up. And my chips. And did a laundry basket.
In theory, this helps both short term to keep the rooms clutter managable, and long term to keep clutter managable and also reparent myself to take this kind of responsibility when my brain tells me āno, lay in bed. Just, lay in bed foreverā a lot of the time it does help to do it while writing hereā¦saying im going to here makes it easier to set the timer.
I stopped right after 15 min this time. But it looks noticably better and im grateful.
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Checking in on day 10
Itās a not so good morning, trains are late again or donāt show up at all. So Iāll be late to work. Thanks God no problem bc the company I work for is fair. As long as I donāt come 1h late multiple times a week itās all fine.
Iām feeling so so tired ugh, itās too early for me. And I canāt even have coffee bc of my gastritis 
Please let this day pass fast, I already miss my bed 
Have a beautiful sober day friends 
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Day 22
Just checking in to check in on everyone!
Had a good day at work today, summer is on its way
for sure.
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Good evening all. Checking in on day 416. Been resting the knee as much as possible. Call from ortho today, VA never sent the authorization so waiting for that now. Picked up a few new songs on the guitar today and passed my first quiz in my new class with a 93. Been struggling for three weeks now, luckily other grades are holding up the GPA. Hope everyone stays safe and takes care.
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Day #49
Feeling rather irritable this morning, and Iām not too sure why. I slept ok thankfully, but I simply have a sense of a mood brewing. Iām glad that Iāll be heading to a CrossFit class in less than an hour; Iāve found that exercise really helps me to channel my emotions in a productive manner.
At the same time, Iām feeling reflective. Iām grateful that in the last couple of years, Iāve been able to turn to exercise, and in particular, running, to help with my mood. However, in recent times, the desire & motivation to get out there and run has been dwindling; I just feel like I donāt want to do it anymore, and the love and passion for it isnāt there like it used to be. Iāve been fortunate enough to run all over Europe, and Iām just shy of having ran 50 official Half Marathon races, but as time goes by, thereās less and less races, and less and less challenges that I seem to want to achieve/set myself.
Iād say Iām a goal-orientated person, and when those goals start to dry up, I feel like going: āWell, whatās the point?ā. I feel like in the next few years as I begin to wind-down with it all, Iāll just treat it as a social experiment as opposed to seemingly forcing myself to get out and run 4-5 times a week in order to āmaintainā a certain level; who knowsā¦
Apologies about the longwindedness of my post today; I just felt like I needed to get it all off my chest. Thanks.
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Day 81 AF
Day 62 toxfree & cultivating positive energy
Wowā¦ I made it until hereā¦ 
You experienced people hereā¦ were right ā¦ 
Cravings pass, itās nearly just a short few minutes once a week.
I choosed a gift for my 90 days Milestone coming soon. Still considering as itās very expensive from my point of view. Itās a very luxury pillowcase and sleeping mask made of mulberry silk by brand āSlipā. It prevents sleep wrinkles and twisted hair and ensures a good nightās sleep. My aunt has had one for six months and is very happy with it.
As i love napping and my sleep quality could be improvedā¦ And itās one of my fundamentals despite of eating and sports/moving, I think it would be a nice gift. 
My life is changing so much at the momentā¦
External and especially internalā¦
My energy, point of view, Selflove.
Life is giving us so many possibilities to practice, reflectā¦ And repeat.
That is where development is possible.
Big playground of life.
It was so helpful to block contact to my toxic on.off friendship plus bullshit relationship 60 days ago andā¦ Furthermore quit with the friend who always spoke to me in a bad and not appropriate way. The contact is at zero, too.
Yesā¦ I am alone sometimes!
But I finally understood that I deserve better. Healthy relationships, positive people.
And I continue to work on my patterns causing all that shit in the past. Daily. Itās hard work but itās worth it!
Because of my new perspective, I make more positive encounters!
A few days ago, while feelings of being alone came up, I just thoughtā¦ Yes, but I have the honor to be with MEā¦ Just enjoy your own society! Itās a feeling of full commitment to myself. 
Take care and stay sober all you guys and girls out there!
Hugs 
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Day 2
I slept very well last night and have woken up knowing I wonāt drink today. I can go buy milk and not have that walk of shame to the check out with a bottle under my arm too, for the second day in a row.
I have an exercise class this evening too so something to focus on.
Hope you have good days 
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