Not necessarily with addiction specifically but I can relate to that feeling of spinning, bouncing in and out of feelings of stability and fragility. As time goes by I find myself getting used to the turbulence and getting less caught up in it when it comes.
Glad you are checking in and reaching out. You are not alone! 
Checking in.
Had a good enough Christmas although it was a bit topsy turvy. Usually see friends and family Christmas Eve to boxing day then head home for a few quiet days. Instead we had Christmas at home with my parents, we sorted the food and it seemed a bit less stressful that way. Now we are at their house and planning to see a couple of people while weāre here. It has meant less really chilled out time overall which I have missed, but itās still been nice.
Have felt quite disappointed with a couple of my friends this year. This is the third time Iāve been at my parentsā and the third time it looks like I wonāt see them. I guess our lives have just drifted which is sad cos we used to be so tight, Iāve lived out of the area for 10 years and weāve stayed in touch pretty well. But equally I am not prepared to keep on trying to connect with people who donāt want to make a couple of hours for me when Iām here. If they want to see me I would love it and would take them up on it. But itās up to them if they want to.
Still, I am all the more grateful for the people who have made the effort as a result. And got a few nice things planned over the next couple of days.
I have been struggling a bit recently as I start thinking about the future, I do have some decisions that I feel I need to make but donāt quite have theā¦ Confidence? Something like that anywayā¦ To make them. Here and now in the present moment though things are OK. So my priority is to be here now and deal with the rest when I need to!
Checking in. Day 82
Day 54
Never felt stronger
Good music is key today
Stay strong
Today I feelā¦ Optimistic! Before getting sober I didnāt realize how much life has to offer. From simply the birds chirping to the rain that provides us water.
Check in Day 10 AF
Having an annoying day. About to go somewhere and Joe shows up to talk āfor 5 minutesā. Iāll write more when he leaves.
day 101
Thank you to everyone who celebrated tripple digits with men yesterday been an interesting time thats for sure.
Its going to be rather warm here today 32c/89f so not sure as to what the we are doing yet.
No matter your plans today stay safe team!
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,615 sober.
Day 2 out of TS Jail.
24 days since I went fishingā¦Lordy what am I to doā¦
Checking in day 115! Had a great phone call with a friend, had one meeting, and went out on a nice walk. Otherwise been taking it easy and feeling good.
81 days tobacco free. The urge was great today. STRESSā¦i owed my self some tobacco because of stress at work. Truth be toldā¦there will always be an excuse for this addicted brain to justify usingā¦today was a win.
Did you quit cigs or E-pen?
Great job TM!!
Day 438 AF
Had a hard time during the holidays this time around. Not sure what hit me. Iām glad I have people on this forum to chat with. I appreciate you all.
Wife went out to the store with our eldest son. I stayed home with the lil man. Did laundry, cleaned the apartment, and gonna go for a walk later this evening.
Hope everyoneās doing well. Hang in there, gang.
Take care.
Hard time or not you made it through sober and that is what counts!
Day 4. So far so good but itās a little easier right now cause Iām out of town for the time being. Dunno why but thatās all I can chalk it up to right now
Seriously between having to type out his CV for him, and today he is sick from the vaccine and unable to move from a horizontal position apparently, he is on my last fucking nerve rn.
Maybe tell him to type his own CV?
Day 3
Hi all! Day started off good. Woke up well rested and immediately got out of bed instead of rolling over to hide from the world. Prayer, meditation, breakfast (bacon & cheese/tomato omelet).
But I noticed walking to the bus stop that my breathing problem seems to be getting worse. I recently went to the hospital (for a nosebleed, of all things). They said my oxygen saturation was normal (95%) as was my blood pressure. I figured āI have a lung function test coming up, theyāll tell me whatās wrongā.
Then the phone call came from Disability Services. They relocated the test site from the clinic half mile away to a clinic in Lawrence, about 25 miles away. I have to have this test done, but I got no way to get there.
And I finally got a text from my case mgr, she apologized for being out of touch (on vacation) but didnāt respond to any other text.
Brian called to check on me, which was nice, but that was the highlight of my day. Iām still sober though. 
Phew. We call that the man flu.
I can tell you I would not be typing that CV. Iād be watching LotR with the kidz cos Iād be on holidays.
xx