Day #15 Sober very thankful
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Happy Wednesday! Lots of rain here. At least the ice missed me by about a mile.
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Yay Dani. 
Iāve missed you!
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tonight will be day 358 of no self harm
work has been exhausting. five kids that were in a different classroom just turned three so they moved to my classroom since I teach the 3-year-olds. most if not all of them have severe behavioral issues. I have to write a report every time somebody gets hurt and thereās a visible Mark and I also have to write a report for the child who has hurt them. today I wrote 12 reports, four were for one student. the parents also have to sign every report so itās not easy to tell them that your kid is hitting children several times a day or that your kid is being hit several times a day.
itās really hard to approach the parents about it because we are not allowed to say "I think they might have some behavior issue"but itās really hard to recommend that they seek help when I canāt even say hey I think thereās a problem. but I also have no idea what is normal with these kids. Iāve never taught before I donāt know what is normal.
Iām getting really behind on lesson plans Iām supposed to have them two weeks in advance and Iām ending up barely getting ones done for the current week. I was recently told im not allowed to have my tablet when the kids are awake which is fine but the new kids donāt really take naps. so nap time used to be my plan time and I canāt really use that now. however I refuse to do it at home because I will not do work Iām not being paid for. I donāt get paid enough for the job I already do Iām not going to do more.
tomorrow I take my CDA exam. itās basically a license that allows me to be a lead teacher anywhere I go instead of having to work my way up. itās really the first official credential ill have for teaching. then Friday I have an academic advising appointment so I can schedule my college classes for March. Iām going to get an associates in teaching.
I love my job Iām just really tired and it feels like it follows me home and thereās not really a time where Iām not thinking about work or these kids.
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@Wilf182 Congratulations 
Day 926
Both kids got flu. It hit my daughter quite hard, son bounced back pretty well. Husband and I didnāt get it.
Tonight I am meeting some colleagues for light food and drinks. I was surprised my husband felt the need to confirm āYou wonāt be drinking right?ā. No, and I am surprised you feel the need to ask. I have been a bit down and irritable lately, so maybe he is worried. But if he is, maybe he could show concern in a way that doesnāt also show he doesnāt trust me. But it is what it is.
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#Day 1618 
Quick check in. Today? Off from work and going treasure hunting in a few triftshops in another province with a co worker.
Picture from the pastries I bought to celebrate our wedding. But then my youngest tested positive for Covid and my to eldest children decide not to come home. We understood, they do not want to get sick.
Another time, we can always celebrate.
See you!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my neighbourhood.
Anybody seen the sun? Sheās been MIA here for a while now. We could do seeing her again.
@emi Great to see you & massive congrats on your sober days!
@SoberWalker More pastry for you
. Congrats on your wedding day friend.@Misokatsu Enjoy your night out Flo.
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Excellent, 100 days!!!
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Checking in day 172! Finally starting to feel settled in the new place. Hung up some thick blackout/sound muffling curtains which was a good last step to make it feel like home. They arenāt perfect on the sound part (which I didnāt expect), but definitely make a difference.
Iām trying to find new routines, despite being so busy. I signed up for a kickball league that starts in about a month and half. Iām excited, but also nervous because I wonāt know anyone. But Iām wanting to build more connections and love staying active, so it felt like a good fit.
Today I have therapy, a meeting, and then work, so a long day. Going to try to squeeze in the gym between it all. Hope you all have a beautiful sober Thursday!!
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Hey all, checking in on day 984. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in on day one, woke up yesterday morning & made my decision. Iāve been sober for stretches of 5 years, 10 years, a year here & there in the past & am so grateful to find myself on this path again. Those stretches of sobriety are still mine. Itās exhausting to try to control it & feels like such a relief. Very grateful to have found this community.
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Day 268. Good morning, really learning some valuable lessons about being honest right from the very start. There was a gentleman who lived at the half way house and moved, we both tattoo and I gsve this guy pretty much all my stuff for free bc I was easily manipulated and ppl pleasing. He took advantage of me everyday, always asking to print stuff for him or draw his designs on my iPad for him. I eventually just started ignoring him or making up excuses rather then saying sorry I donāt want to do that. He would of made me feel guilty either way. Well last week he asked me again to draw a design for him and I told him I sold my I pad.
Well yesterday I actually posted my iPad for sale, I get a message from him this morning showing me a screen shot of my for sale post with him saying hmmm, then sending me a thumbs up. I really donāt know if should say anything, but Iām just baffled in how he thinks itās ok to just step over my boundaries the way he isā¦
Otherwise Iām up and having a good morning, some crappy weather today but still grateful much love
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Ugh, Mike. Lots of people take advantage. You have no responsibility to respond at all.
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Heck yeah! Welcome to TS. Great community. Glad you are here.
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Everyday is a learning day.
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Sup yāall,
Hey how do i block threads. I really cant stand all the social media distraction of this app. Idk what half of it has to even do with recoveryā¦ but anyway, how do i block each individual thread?
Thanks!
Keep on workin, keep on livin!
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When I was first in recovery I got signed up for assertiveness classes and your interaction with this guy has reminded me of some of the stuff we covered. When you know that someone wonāt take no for an answer (from past experience) it can seem like a good idea to give a reason or excuse for your ānoā. But you really donāt have to. A wee while back a friend asked me for a favour and initially I agreed to help but then he became a bit rude which made me change my mind about helping him. When I told him Iād changed my mind he actually became very abusive and insulting calling me fickle amongst other things. I was so upset, but I made sure I got myself calm and then sent him a message to say that I was entitled to say no and I was also entitled to change my mind. Then I blocked him because as far as Iām concerned thatās the end of the conversation.
This guy youāre dealing with is either trying to make you change your mind or to make you feel bad about not being completely honest with him. I mean, if you can be bothered you could tell him that you find him manipulative and didnāt want to hurt his feelings hence the white lie but you really donāt owe him that. I can understand why you feel awkward but try not to. You did what felt safest for you at the time.
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You can mute these threads. There is a drop-down menu below the posts where you can select this.
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Just another case of ābetter off without youā. You donāt owe this guy anything, you know that. He is a predator and saw you as someone to prey on. You donāt owe him an explanation, apology, or sympathy. If this is how he treats people, the half way house is just a brief pause between jail time. Slay the day.
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Happy Thursday! Have an awesome day my friends.
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