Checking in 332 days.
My brain is being a bit of a dick again. I’m not sleeping well, my brain won’t shut off in the evenings. I can’t stop thinking about work, and it’s effecting my sleep. Once I start not sleeping, it snowballs for me and effects my mental health really poorly.
I tried having a relaxing bath last night which was nice but didn’t seem to help my sleep much.
I’m listening to some podcasts at the moment, which have been really great. The imperfects podcast on emotions and relationships was really helpful. I’m going to start actively seeking some help in my marriage. I’ve started by acknowledging I need to work on it more. Ive never been in a relationship with anyone for over a decade so it’s all learning for me. Trying to keep it alive, nurturing it. I was never really modelled that growing up, so I’m just figuring all this life shit out as I go. Anyway, thanks for reading and allowing me the space to be heard here. Much love to you all
Im still sober…but not happy. 18 days so far. I live in mn. Im trying to walk…and read more. I dont want to complain. Bottom line…im still sober today😀
Checking in sober, was easy as I have been incredibly ill for a few weeks. Some awful hybrid virus of sorts that nearly took me down! Prayers for anyone struggling with illness right now and sending healing vibes. Being sick sux!
Checking in day 48. It’s been a rough day all around. I’m trying to focus on what I can control and let go of what I can’t control. I’m glad it’s the weekend.
Wrapping up day 50. Just returned from a mini vacation with my husband and son. It was hard being pulled from the routines I’ve established at home to stay on track, but I did my best to welcome the challenge and to enjoy being fully present for our little family. I know I’m a better mom now, and that more than anything keeps me moving ever forward.
I have let two close friends know that I had been drinking and actually got a sponsor last night to start meeting with so I am hoping that this is the beginning of a lifetime of sobriety.
#Day 1621
Quick check in before getting breakfast at our B&B. Did a great long walk yesterday.
Today? Finding another B&B and walk somewhere else. Not much plans and I like it that way.
Yesterday the guests from to room next to us where arguing loud. A man left slamming to door cursing. I was wondering if alcohol was involved. Glad I do not drink anymore
Pic is me walking to my Friday morning therapy appointment in Utrecht. I’m back to work today. Late weekend shifts usually are less busy as the early weekday ones. I like the variation. Enjoy your weekends friends. X