Glad you are back Mark!
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Checking in on day 74. Just woke up.
Got to get some coffee. 
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Happy Saturday! Have an awesome day my friends
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chilling still grinding codChecking in Day 569 
Today has been calm and peaceful until I took a 40 minutes afternoon nap. The trauma nightmare OMG. Why is it weirdest and at its worst in the day time ?
Maybe because Iām actually only half asleep and controlling them/more awake in my subconscious? and what is in my mind comes out.
The pain is real, itās deep.
At night ā¦ Itās easier most of the time to shake it off and hopefully forget it by the morning.
First day time nap in months I wonāt be doing that again.
Iām okay just breathing easy.
Just shocked it came up and is sitting with me, the feelings are sitting on my shoulder, the realness of the situation is sitting on my shoulders. Iāl try to shake it off.
Wow I almost called the crisis line. In my nap I did call them. But Iām okay Iām breathing easy im safe.
I just needed to get it out and share it so it doesnāt consume me.
Right positive thinking hat onā¦
Some good TV and nice dinner tonight to look forward to.
Thank you for reading 
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Thank you, and congrats on 17 days!! Ice cream is far better than booze. Chocolate and caffeine are my new besties lol. Yes, Saturdays are hard for me, too so Iām also planning on staying busy. We got this! 
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I love your description of meditation: āBroccoli for the brainā 
. Thatās so priceless and so very true.
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Checking in Saturday afternoon. Back at work today, few more hours to go. We got family coming in from out of state to stay for a night or two, so weāll probably take them to dinner somewhere and catch up for a while. I gotta be up by 4 tomorrow morning so Iāll hang out as late as I can, and the wife can finish entertaining after that. I also got a small rotator cuff tear thatās starting to make work/sleep life miserable. I already had a shot for it, so the surgeon said itās probably gonna have to get fixed at some point depending how much worse it gets. She did the other one a few years back, and itās good as new, but I just aināt looking forward to the rehab if it comes to that. Iāll deal with it as long as I can.
Have a great day guys enjoy your weekend, stay safe. 
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Brilliant huge congratulations 
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Day 16 AF. Feeling good. Not really having any cravings, but feeling restless. Husband and I have been out to eat a couple of times and didnāt order any drinks. Next hurdle will be a family celebration with alcohol present. I know we can do it, but itās going to be weird.
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Late afternoon check in. Feeling not great but definitely better than this morning. Checking in here helped. Taking a long bike drive to get dairy and veggies at my favourite out of town places helped. Having coffee with a friend helped. Listening to a podcast helped. You all helped (with a special mention to @Twizzlers @SoberWalker @Misokatsu and @anon74766472). Itās about connection. It all is and itās all it is. Thanks. Love you all.
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Thatās so great to see Stella! Huge congrats friend. Hugs and love your way, each and every day.
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Congratulations on 433 days. That aināt easy but totally worth it
I think dreams can be a way of our minds doing something that we are afraid of in a bad way in this case because it was a bad dream. When we feel uncomfortable about something we might dream it.
I havenāt been to AA in a long time and havenāt done the steps but Iāve read about step 1 constantly.
I brought up step one to remind you that we are powerless over our drug of choice.
Can I ask if you have been feeling like you might be , not healed but better? Like if you can use without going down that bad path?
Us addict and alcoholics are powerless over our drug of choice. Addiction is a life long illness. And then then to make it worse, I believe our addiction can progress worse over time, sober or not.
Maybe try to reassure that you donāt ever need to feel that way you felt be4, you donāt need to feel that ever again. Your safe and loved and those drugs and alcohol donāt need to be apart of your life
I hope this can help friend
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Hi. Woke up to day 75 of being sober. About to enjoy some coffee. Honestlyā¦im kind of lonelyā¦worried about my health and wish my grown kids would drop in to visit.
Im really glad that we all have each other here in talking sober.
Odaat everyone!!
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Oh my!! 
2 years SH free. You are totally amazing Twinnie. OFDAAT
Iām so happy for ya.
Great job.
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