Thank you! Congrats on 208 days!
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40 days no weed! 32 days of no bottom lines!
I need to learn how to slow down when doing things in life. I get anxiety doing simple tasks and it’s doing me no good. I’m not sure if I’m still in withdrawal from my qualifier…i ask the universe for strength to help with my anxiety and patience
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Good morning! Just checking in still struggling to set a fixed routine but saying hi is a must. I love the pictures from different parts in Europe, the candles in a vending machine was odd but if it works it’s cool. Weekend is approaching so let’s get our minds right stay safe and smile we are still here so let’s make the most of it. (I say that while still laying in bed lol,)
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Checking in on Day 445
Early morning workout complete. Just having coffee and then will head out with my son to get him soms summer clothes and sandals 
have a great addiction free day everyone!
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Day 369, the goose drank wine, except no wine or any alcohol for me in that time.
I was feeling really shaky earlier and I ended up getting in touch with my GP although the earliest appointment is tomorrow. I took myself through some grounding exercises and when I felt a little calmer I took a walk, got some fresh air and took plenty of photos. I also bought some valerian extract to see if that would help.
I’m suddenly feeling very hungry so I’m going to get something to eat and then it’ll be time to collect my daughter from school.
I’ve just worked out that the last time I had proper child free time was June last year so I probably just need a spa weekend or something.
Can I just add, you guys are helping me stay sane today
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I feel for you with the migraines… i havnt shared this yet but i also suffer from cluster headaches, which i mean no offense by this but i would trade my clusters for migraines any day of the week. Im episodic and have been in a cycle for going on 8 months now which is twice the time of my usual cycles. I also usually only go in cycle every 2 years and only in the summer. This time i was only in remission for a year and my cycle started in the early fall and im still not out of it yet. Neurologist started me on emgality 300mg cluster dose 3 months ago but i don’t think its working like it should. I also take verapamil and sumatriptan injections. I dont tell alot of people about my condition because people always say. Yea… i know what thats like… i get headaches… or yea ive had migraines… let me tell you, if you dont know…THEY ARE NOT EVEN COMPARABLE!!! Im sharing a link for those who dont know what it is… its of a guy suffering through an attack on video, i praise him for this because i know i could never record myself going through an attack… i usually suffer in silence because most people cant relate or just chalk it up as just a " headache" anyways… this isnt about me, i was just sharing that head pain is the absolute worse and i wish you all pain free days!!!
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Day 7
Sober from:
- alcohol
- toxic relationships
- eating drama
Tonight it’s yoga live class and it’s triggering for me, to drink wine afterwards. Will give my best to come back home safe and sober!
I am not sure, if I am realy sober from toxic relationships and eating drama.
Need to loose some weight and I know how… I am an expert as I lost 60 pounds and hold it for years. But my mindset is shit! Struggling and destructive thoughts shifting through my mind!!!
I am clean from toxic ex relationship since a one night relaps in January. But I have obsessive thoughts about another guy. And obsession is shit!
Much love 
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Oh my goodness- no offense taken. Appreciate your wishes. Thank you for taking the time to share.
I was not aware of cluster headaches- so many ailments out there. Sorry your injections arents working the way they should. I know how hard it is do daily routine when in pain. I do get migraines but not like most so i should be grateful- pain is extreme but my vision isnt blurry and i feel sick but dont throw up. I have had a mild headache since my early teens that no one has been able to figure out…its really just become a part of me now but the slightest thing can set of a full blown migraine. I am now out of migraine territory and just have an intense headache at the moment.
Have you tried any alternative medicines to help with the headaches? Would acupuncture help?
Sending healing vibes my friend 
Edit - just doing some reading on cluster headaches. I am so sorry you go through this and more sorry that this last one has lasted so long (since fall- wtf!). I do hope you get some relief soon.
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It’s called suicide headache. This is the worst pain a human can get.
Wishing you strength and I really wish you from all my heart that one day soon your headache calms down.
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I just noticed my numbers were all over the place
The real number are 21 days no marijuana
And 6 months no alcohol
No relapse in 21 days. I didn’t take days off because I used
I just read my counter wrong
Sorry about that
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All good…happy for your numbers and a great big congrats on the 6 months!!! Very impressive 
Keep up the amazing work
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Juli, if this class with drinking after has made you relapse, why go back? Why put yourself in that situation where you are “hoping” to not drink?
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Because I love yoga… Especially live.
It was a bad habbit to drink wine afterwards … Over the years.
And it is the point of being relaxed…
But stopping yoga? Hm!
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Is it just this class or yoga in general that brings on the urge to drink?
Could you do morning classes?
Its a matter of rewiring our brains and not associating a glass of wine with relaxation-- this is something im working on too.
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@Catmama23 well done for upholding your boundary, I’m sorry you were made to feel like this
@Alycia congrats on 400 days 
@Butterflymoonwoman bless you and your son, I’m sorry you had to go through that again, I do remember it from last year too. I hope you feel more grounded today and managed to sleep okay last night. 🩵
@Deelzebub @FeelingBetter I’m struggling with sleep alongside you both this week, it’s nothing new for me but this week is particularly bad, so solidarity and I hope we all get atleast some good sleep ASAP 
@Noshame congrats on both milestones
@mewmcmew congrats on 40 days
@Billy85 I’m so sorry you’re going through this sending strength 🩵
@Juli1 congrats on your week take the sober exit after your class
997 days no alcohol.
462 days no cocaine.
5 months no cigarillos.
84 days no vape.
Didn’t get to sleep until 3:30am, but managed to sleep until Wolfie managed to wake me up at 8am, I’m still tired though.
I’ve done both walks, meditations, reading on here.
I watched TV last night, and this afternoon, but both times I binged crisps and mango. I’ll keep trying until I manage to do it without eating though.
Tomorrow, after hopefully managing to sleep at my usual time, I plan to be at the gym for 8:30am. I’ve got reminders set for every 3 days at 8:15am, indefinitely. Hoping I can stick to that.
🩵
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Mid afternoon day 117. I still have so much work to do today but I’m really struggling to get through it. My anxiety is awful. Nothing is helping. I want to scream.
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Im sorry that the anxiety is getting so out of hand. Do a little scream session…that may help. Hope
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@Deelzebub glad you can get in tomorrow and hope you will be able to rest some if not have a good sleep tonight. Sorry you are being challenged. Glad you recognize it and will talk to the GP. Looks like a beautiful walk you had. If you have intrusive thoughts, try putting your self, your mind, in the beauty of this photo you have posted. Immerse yourself in the beauty, the calmness, the serenity of it. Hopefully it can replace some of the not so good. Sleep well. xoxo
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I feel like I’ve been on the verge of a full blown panic attack all day. Totally freaking out for no reason. It’s triggering intense cravings. I got ice cream again instead. But that’s not helping. I should still try to get some more work done - I’m way behind. But I feel awful. Trying to focus on slower deeper breathing. But still mostly hyperventilating. I don’t know what to do so I’m posting here.
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Karen, I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling. Unfortunately the reality is that you stand a high chance of relapse if you can’t find some peace and joy in sobriety. I got that from participating here, ice cream and meetings with others in recovery communities who were struggling with anxiety and intense cravings as well. Yes, that’s a common topic in early recovery. You aren’t alone. Just not drinking will not work for most in the long term. Just an observation and what worked for me.
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