Hope the toilet gets sorted soon. You have my complete empathy on trying to get estate agents to fix things. Hope you get to decompress soon. I know what it is like when you can’t relax in your own home waiting for people to come and fix things as if they are doing you a huge favour!
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Thank you 
Your so supportive of everyone, your appreciated so much.
I do hope tomorrow is a smoother day for you.
I used the nicotine patches, I was on the higher dose for longer than usual. The Dr recommended that I didn’t stop whilst going through major changes.
Your already mentioning getting back on the patches tomorrow and that’s strength. It may not feel like it but I’m telling you it is 
Thank you again 
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Just checking in.
6 months 20 days sober.
I’ve had a tough week, 4 days in particular where the wheels came off emotionally and all I wanted to do is drink. The great thing is, that even though that craving was so so strong, I knew I wouldn’t give in to it, and I didn’t.
I hope you are all doing well. Sending love and strength to every one of you 
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Checking in at 107 days. On my way home from work. I will work from home tomorrow and have monday off for a holiday.
Have a great evening everyone!
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@Amy30 it makes me so happy to hear how the day went with your friend and husband!
@Noshame im glad you found your cat! 
27 days AF. Today was actually not a bad day. Maybe even a good day. I woke up and my headache wasn’t nearly as bad as it’s been all week. Then I went to a meeting which always uplifts me. Then I got some stuff sorted with work and hated it slightly less than usual 
Then when I was feeling a little down my sponsor called me and our convo left me feeling good and on track. It’s crazy how every time I think I’m so unique I realize I have so much I can relate to with other addicts… I love not being special!!! really! My whole life I thought I was broken and damaged and not worthy.
Now I’m relaxing and looking forward to bedtime. I’m just gonna keep doing the next right thing. Hugs all
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Ah man the whole bit sucks – NHS being slow, your referral getting lost and you having to deal with the not knowing when you will get relief from the surgery. I am glad today was better and hoping that you get this sorted soon.
Hopefully your other health issues are also being addressed. 
My career change was a a crazy path. I wanted my brother to eat sweets and such while he was in college studying (I didn’t have a traditional college life as I was working 3 jobs so just showed up for classes – I wanted him to sit at the coffee shop in a study group and enjoy a cookie and hot chocolate for instance – he didn’t eat eggs or anything with eggs so I decided that I would tackle baking (never done so before this mind you) – well the cookies and muffins and breads turned out great so my parents started selling them at the restaurant too. Slowly I was able to make contacts with local places that I could sell too and with the support of my family who really wanted me out of my job (which wass a very toxic environment) I was able to start the bakery and get enough clientele to quit my job (that year was extremely hard as I was starting the bakery and still keeping my insane 90-120 hours at work and my ocd kept me wanting to keep my house looking perfect inside and out) Sorry – was trying to keep this short.
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@JazzyS I love this! I started as a lawyer but ended up owning and running a gluten free cafe/bakery. I had to go gluten free before there were many options, so learned how to bake everything from scratch. I also did custom orders for people with additional food allergies. Sadly the business didn’t work out, but I still love to bake and cook.
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Oooh that’s awesome (what brought on your change?) - sorry your bakery didn’t work out but you’ve learned a lot from it and can use for yourself. Mine is also a allergy friendly bakery - everything is vegan but I do have a dedicated area for making gluten free, nut free, sugar free…etc It’s been a learning experience which I love. I was doing special orders for folks, wedding cakes as well as the wholesale but am only doing wholesale now since I became ill (I am trying not to over tax my body as it is already taking its sweet time in healing 
)
Who knows - if you move closer to your mom you could possibly start your own thing again? 
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I hated being a lawyer. I started doing custom orders and catering and always wanted my own place. I understand your struggles with your health and needing to scale back. That’s what happened to me - I was diagnosed with breast cancer 3 months after we opened. I stuck it out for over a year but was never able to put in the time it needed. (Fortunately cancer free for 10 years now!)
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184 
chilling watching supernatural again
Pain has been bad 
Happy sober Friday everyone
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OH wow - congrats on being Cancer free - Thank goodness for that
I can imagine not enjoying the ins and outs of being a lawyer – worked 3 years at a law firm and it was a very depressing atmosphere.
Hope you are having a better day!!! 
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@Marc3 wishing you a good nights rest and positive outlook in the morning – best of luck with the interview tomorrow 
@Noshame Any word my friend?
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you so much for saying so. I sometimes have doubts myself – I have allowed negativity to take over and almost rule me in the past and I am determined to not allow that to happen again. I am amazed sometimes when someone else thinks of me as a positive person (lord knows I am trying to be) glad it is working to some degree
@Venga030 well done on day 4 Marco – sorry that today had a lot of triggering and uncomfortable moments – You persevered and held onto your sobriety so you should be proud.
@Twizzlers WOW that is a beautiful sentence – thank you for sharing
@Soberbilly WOW – you are just flying by with your sobriety – congrats on 13 months!!! Hell of an achievement. 
@CATMANCAM I do hope that social care team can still in some way help you. I know you are waiting to hear back about your therapies and hopefully that will be soon so that possibly the healing can begin. Do not want you to feel unwell in any way! Well – you do have your appointment tomorrow and sounds like a really busy day to boot so be gentle with yourself – you will give up the vape too (just don’t’ force too much at once). You know that you will be back on the higher dose and then it may lead to you not needing the vapes anymore. Try to find time to breathe as you didn’t really have an easy day today. Best of luck with getting your toilet fixed !
@KarenKW you are absolutely right – nothing is life or death and nothing will get done if you are not well so take care of yourself (hope the migraine does not last long)
@Catmama23 27 days girl you are on fire – I love it. Coming on this site really was an eye opener for me in the sense that I knew many people battled with different things but I didn’t realize just how many — The vast amount is astonishing and yeah I feel good knowing I’m not alone in this but at the same time like WTF – why are so many of us suffering. Keep doing what you are doing and have an amazing sober evening
@Bones_80 So sorry that you pain is so bad today. 184 days is awesome!!! Are you able to do anything for the pain? Painkillers, PT, alternative medications…etc?
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
155 days Alcohol and weed free
570 days cigarette free
Well it’s been an interesting day for sure but all in all i can’t complain – I put my health test in the mail today and to my surprise I had it for pick up from mailbox but it is for UPS so didn’t get pick up - will go to UPS store to drop off tomorrow. I feel like all these set backs means that i’m going to get some answers finally 
Oh well - i’m sober and DOC free now and will remain this way tonight… one more day in the books!
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Under pain management got SIBO test in July wating for a date to get a NG tube fitted hopefully that helps a bit with the pain thanks
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WOW - I’m so sorry love - July isn’t so far away but must feel like eons when you are in such pain. Hang in there - i hope it gets better for you soon.
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Evening of day 14
@JazzyS
Crossing your toes and fingers for good luck for me worked. The store gave me a job offer. I’m going to be maintenance/janitor at the store!! I can’t wait for my first day
I’ll be working from 2in the afternoon till 11at night
I can’t wait to get my behind back to work full time
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Hell yeah to day 14 – aka 2 weeks!
I am so damn excited for you and a huge congrats my friend. Now you and the misses get on with the celebrations! I’m sure your moves are better than this
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Omg im sooo excited for you!!! Hige congratulations 
ur perseverance paid off!!! Way to go on the job!!!
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Checking in on day 713. Everyone is soo loud in this house! Sometimes I wish I could lock myself away in a soundproof room. Feeling kind of dizzy today hope I’m not coming down with something…
I’m way behind here but catching up. Congratulations on all the milestones. Have a good day friends.
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My feelings are kinda hurt. I kinda feel left out because i dont get invited to events people are talking about right in front of my at aa meetings.
Soooo i ask myself…would i go if i was invited? The answers prolly no. BUT i still wanna be asked. Maybe id go 50% of the time
Can anyone relate?
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Is it possible that you put off a vibe, like maybe you’re not interested? The only reason I ask is because I know I absolutely put that vibe out there unknowingly. Not being ignorant, but I’m just not really that outgoing when it comes to that kind of thing. If that makes any sense. And I think sometimes people pick up on that.
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