Checking in daily to maintain focus #54

Idk im pretty outgoing and usually trying to make plans with these people. I dont want to invite myself ya know what i mean. Meh

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I totally relate. Iā€™m kind of an introvert, and I think (like @Jasty2 said) it comes across as being uninterested, which is usually not true. I donā€™t really have any good advice, but I think I know what you mean.

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Yep! I was always told not to ask to go/invite myself. If they wanted me to join, theyā€™d have asked. But it is hurtful to know of things that youā€™re not being invited to! If they arenā€™t going to extend an invitation, why talk about it in front of you ? :weary:

Advice is to make a plan and invite these people a few times, and then if they continue to leave you out when they make plans, then itā€™s just not the right group of people for you. :people_hugging: Iā€™d 100% grab a coffee with you if I were nearby!

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I dont understand why they would be discussing an outing in front of you abd not include you. From your posts you do come of as someone full if life and outgoing
To feel exclusion at an aa meeting seems so awful. This is a place we gather to feel like we belong in the world (like our doc is not just our personal issue - others suffer from same hell).

Im sorry love - i donā€™t have any advice just that i would also be hurt in a similar situation. :people_hugging:

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Thank you so much. Today went way better than I expected.

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1,334 Days of Recovery

Thank you so, so much to everyone who was so kind & supportive. Nothing bad happened to me today. :purple_heart:

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Checking in on day 391. Iā€™m not even going to try to catch on this thread, thereā€™s just too much there :joy:
I have some dental pain but it turns out Iā€™m still registered with my old dentist so Iā€™ll hopefully be getting that sorted at my appointment on Tuesday. Other than that Iā€™m just keeping on.


Early morning baking session this morning

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Hi Bill, youā€™re almost a year ahead of me in clean time, well done!!
And thx for being a guiding light for me to, connected with my sponsor today and it felt really good . I felt the sincerity, I appreciate that :white_check_mark:
Have a great 24 Bill & fam :pray:
Now for :zzz::zzz:

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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.

Windy and coldish outside. A long road bike ride is off for today. Might do some shopping at the dairy farm. And visit the Stedelijk Museum, next to Van Gogh Museum where I was yesterday, to see a huge Keith Haring work he did when he was in residence here in 1986. As itā€™s a brittle paper work, this might be the only chance ever to see it for real. At 38 m / 125 ft, itā€™s been compared to the Bayeux Tapestry.

Now all this might have nothing to do with sobriety per se, but for me itā€™s an integral part of my journey of Discovery. Doing nice stuff that has nothing to do with (ab)using substances or addiction. One day at a time. Have a good one all. X
Pic is the church in Auvers, painted by Van Gogh in 1890. Never have I been so moved by an exhibition as the one I saw yesterday. X
@Deelzebub Happy baking Delia. Always good to see you.

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Day 55
Iā€™m a little nervous about a Dr. Appointment tomorrow, since I havenā€™t been since 2020. But heyā€¦at least I can tell her Iā€™m doing this sober thing!
Off to sleep now :zzz::smiling_face::zzz:

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Checking in sober hope everyone has a great day

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That painting is stunning, thanks so much for sharing. I want it as my new screensaver. I have a nerdy interest in churches and churchyards and that painting captures that beautifully :heart_eyes:

I know exactly what you mean about these things being an integral part of your journey. You are discovering the person you were meant to be and enjoying those interests that make up part of you. I have been reading the more academic books in my ā€˜to readā€™ pile in the evenings as I am able to concentrate and take them in. I feel like my whole life is being enriched by removing the wine.

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422 days :heartpulse:
New meds started today, work was understanding, I took a half day working from home this morning. I got some work finished up for the week and now Iā€™m resting in bed, feeling a bit wonky.
I have a rescue dog thatā€™s on medication, turns out now weā€™re both on Prozac. Made me chuckle a bit. Hopefully my brain settles down a little after some time.
Still have some really intense cravings for booze, I canā€™t seem to knock them on the head. But Iā€™m sober and I intend to stay that way!

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Amazing story @JazzyS You are such a great sister!

Checking in on Day 11, counter ticked over to 10 days last night. Quite tired today, been a long week. Nearly the long weekend though, and mine is even longer as taking Tuesday to Thursday off too for half term. I am hoping to use the energy I save from being off work to get out and about on walks. We are off to Devon for a few nights and the views are spectacular. Canā€™t wait to walk the cliffs.

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Checking in on 512 days sober from alcohol. Its the only easy thing to keep going at the moment. My pains are so hard, it change place, I get scared and it really is pain. I get some medince for nervepain because this is what they think it is. I dont know. My anxiety are so high at the time, every day now. I even get anxiety attacks, and its so scary, Im so tired. Whats wrong with me. I cry every day.

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So sorry to hear your pain is persisting and worse. I hope you find a helpful treatment soon. Thank goodness you got on top of your sobriety so you can get the best course of action on this. Sending hugs :people_hugging:

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Good morning and happy Friday!
Iā€™m checking in here this morning so say thank you!
This sober journey is amazing and amazingly hard some days. All your sharing and support is so very helpful.

Peace!

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Day 237

Iā€™m such an idiot :weary: Yesterday I thought itā€™s okay to start training 100% again after the pain I had in my lower back was almost completely gone.
No it wasnā€™t a good ideaā€¦
Iā€™m back on the couch again today after picking up the meds I need for the pain.
I have problems with my sacroiliac joint since forever and it gets worse when I donā€™t move enough, so training with weights IS my thingā€¦but this time I didnā€™t wait long enough for the joint to heal.
Besides that everything is fine :blush:
Work was good, Iā€™m so grateful to have such a great team. Only the boss behaves like a witch sometimes but you canā€™t have it all right?

No off to the pharmacy :pill:

Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong :muscle::kissing_heart:

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Good day SoberBilly : ) Four thirty am here in the same province as Itā€™s me Stella, West Coast.
Thx for the lovely words and message. I am not a very good communicator but this just means any words I can muster is a step forward :fast_forward::fast_forward:.

I met my sponsor at a mental health support group, Recovery International. After years of looking through several peer support groups , a few different 12 steps incl. Still battling with the idea that Iā€™m special and not just average. But middle of the road and being average is where it is at says this group RI.

I can hear birds outside 2, beautiful in the early morning isnā€™t it ?
Thank Q for connecting with us new to the spiritual mountain and leaving addiction in the dust.
Peace be with you :peace_symbol::heart::sunny::sunny::sunny:

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Hey all, checking in on day 1,076. I hope everybody has a good one!

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