Day 1,078 clean and sober today. My heart is heavy as it always is but especially on this day. Corey would have been celebrating his 25th birthday today and I miss him so fucking much.
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I light my candle for you all.
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Day 545
Feeling good today.
80 days until Iām back on the competition mats and Iām well on track.
Changing the lazy dad bod for a fit, healthy fatherly figure.
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Wow nice transformation!!
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Checking inā¦day 110. Still going strong. Been really busy with work and training my dog. Not to mention moving as wellā¦ finally putting everything in the past and moving to a new place thats not been tainted with bad memories. It was emotional packing up my old place finding stuff from the kids and herā¦ actually almost broke down and couldnāt do itā¦ but something gave me strength and by the time i was done i felt very accomplished and proud of myself. Now im in my new place, spent my fisrt night here last nightā¦ heres to new memories, peace, and happinessā¦ hope you all are doing well. Hey @JazzyS hope youre doing well my friend. Sorrt i havnt been on here as much but things shoukd start to settle down a bit in my life now. Still sober thoughā¦ODAAT!
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@XXIX so glad that everything went better than expected. Have a wonderful Friday!
@GenG sending comfort in dealing with the doctorās appointment ā hope everything goes well.
@JennyH thank you! Fingers crossed that you get some good rest and gain energy on your time off. Devon? ā Oh, Iām jealous ā Have a marvelous time ā I absolutely adore that area and all the pebble beaches.
@Wakikki I am so sorry my friend ā sounds absolutely awful and I can relate. Are you able to take something to help manage the pain? I do hope that you find relief soon. For the anxiety are you able to do meditations to calm your thoughts and the butterflies inside? Do let yourself cry ā with that much pain you do need to acknowledge it and release it. 512 days of sobriety ā you are an inspiration. Doing great and I do hope the benefits of sobriety start showing for you.
@Sabrina80 Not an idiot love ā you just wanted to get back into your normal routine. Iām sorry that your body was not fully healed and ready for it. I do hope the meds and some rest help today
@Rockstar24777 Iām so sorry friend ā Sending you comfort ā thing of all the good memories and hold them dear (in a way our loved ones never leave us ā with us on our earthly journey).
@BrOKenWolf looking good ā sobriety suits you!
@Billy85 Congrats on new beginnings ā Iām sure the packing up and going through things was very emotional and tiring ā Glad that you didnāt let it break you! Cheers on getting settled in your new placeāThis year has truly been a growing / learning experience for you thus far and I hope that it continues for you. Iām still sober and fighting the good fight ā keeping busy with daily stuff and hoping that I will venture out to meeting friends again soon.
Friday Morning check in ā Ran outta 
's as i was catching up on this thread. Itās again a whatever day as far as emotions but I am not letting myself get sucked in. Iām moving forward with determination and have made a realistic list of things to get done today. I will chisel away at the list one by one and see how far I get. The coffee is not doing itās thing so maybe I need a cold refreshing glass of waterā¦ Itās Friday ā itās sunny ā another day living without my DOCās ā life is good! Have a great sober day my friends ā Sending much love
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I hope to, what I take now help sometimes, a bit. And then when the pain is not there for a while, a day or so I think ahh finally. But then again, pain somewhere and scares the hell of me, sure this is something really bad and I will die or have a sickness that will kill me.
Im very happy Im sober, and not even thinking of drinking. I cant imagine what drinking would do on top of this. All the sobertime from day 1 til where Im now have given me so much!
Thank you
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Checking in on day 714. Today this is my office:
Wishing everyone this kind of placid tranquility today.
Hey @Rockstar24777 sending you love on this day, man.
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Checking in sober
C all your checkins, so I want to say Hi too!
I am still struggling.
But I am sober now.
Itās hard to believe myself right now,
as I had some fallbacks again.
I just had one idea todayā¦
As i felt physical and mental very happy and freeā¦
Coming home from Physio, a 2200 outdoor swim, laughing, fun, brilliant pictures and another massageā¦
I have to take things easier! For real!
It fits for so many parts of my life.
I am thinking so much and so detailed about several topics ā¦ That it doesnāt make anymore sence in the end.
Being more alive and taking things easier!
This is something I donāt want to say lying down to die in the end of my life!
I wish, I hadā¦ No - I will!
Love 
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doing way better since surgery. was in a lot of pain the first 2 days, on day 4 now and doing way better. i have pain for sure but itās more this soreness and pulling pain I feel when I move (I believe itās just scar tissue) and Iām eating a little bit more everyday. finally able to lay down flat in bed too so I can sleep
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Only 8 more hours to go at work today.
Iām sleepy 
Hope everyone has a happy Friday
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Checking in
Day 467
Missed my workout this morning as i would have needed to get up at 530am to get one in. But i needed the rest i think.
Now in full on baking mode with my son. We have chocolate brownies in the oven now, while we are preparing chocolate chip muffins to go in afterwards. I have a 3 hour zoom mtg for work in the afternoon and then will find another activity for me and my boy to do. Feeling blessed today! 
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Omg girl, u work such long shifts. I can totally understand why youd be tired. Hope u have a chance to rest.
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What an incredible painting. The Van Gogh musuem was the absolute highlight of a visit to Amsterdam a few years ago. Your post reminded me of how thrilling it felt to stand in front of his work.
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Iām working 8am - 9pm today. Tomorrow i think I only work 5 hours though 
Have fun baking with your son!
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Day 19 of checking in. Thanks everyone for your support and well wishes yesterday. I was successful in the interview, so all that stressing for nothing. I am pleased about staying on, as its close enough for me to walk to work, which has just been really good for my mental wellbeing over the past year
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Thatās an interesting tidbit, Karen. There is a gluten free/vegan bakery opening up next to me. Excited about it.
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@Mno Thanks for taking the time to post that beautiful art and share the background info. Beautiful.
@Cjp I had to start inviting individuals to coffee or for walks or any other activity of mutual interest. And definitely try other groups as there are so many different dynamics.
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@JennyH theyāre a nightmare arenāt they!
@Twizzlers thank you š©µ
@Noshame congrats on the job offer 
@GenG good luck at the doctors 
@Rockstar24777 sending love š©µ
1019 days no alcohol.
484 days no cocaine.
I woke early, did my morning routine, showered, then drove to my hometown to get my shot and collect meds, except the prescription for my nicotine products hadnāt been received by the pharmacy. 
Called my GP surgery and they said it hadnāt been signed off by a doctor, but that they would send it again today. So Iām going to call the pharmacy first thing tomorrow to see if they received it and whether the products are in stock. I really hope I can collect them tomorrow.
Then I went to my dadās wifeās shop, to help my eldest step-brother complete his form, he used text-to-speech and we got through it much faster than I was expecting, so that was a bonus.
I came home, the fatigue was already present but I pushed myself to do my morning walk, then came home and fell asleep for 2 hours.
I didnāt binge last night, for the first time in quite a while, so thatās something, Iām going to avoid starting a new show for the time being.
Iām hoping for an early night, so that I can call the pharmacy first thing and drive to collect my meds before they close at midday.
I hope you all have wonderful sober weekends.
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