@Twizzlers oh yeah, I’ve been so focused on getting past day 459 that I hadn’t noticed the upcoming quadruple digits! Thank you 
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@JazzyS thank you 🩵 and congrats on getting through your craving 
sorry about having to spend time around someone you find toxic, keep your boundaries tight 
@KarenKW way to go on denying your cravings proud of you 🩵 I hope you were able to sleep 
@Scorpn sending strength 🩵 I’m sorry it’s so heavy right now
@zzz congrats on your smoke-free week
@FeelingBetter keep sharing about those darker thoughts, ‘secrets keep you sick’, if your results are good, I’d imagine it’s because you’ve had 2.5 months of sobriety, so no reason to return to drink, else you’d be heading back towards bad results.
@Kareness I’m sorry about the work stress but congrats on your new sponsee
@SoberWalker such bright blue sky, looks lovely, enjoy 
@Amy30 I hope you can get your work done sending strength 🩵
@Starlight14 wishing you some nice weather to enjoy while you complete your gardening project
@Bomdhil welcome back now you know you need to find other ways to work through your feelings
@RosaCanDo this is incredible news, all of it, congrats!
@Markx congrats on 60 days keep trying with the smoking
@Bones_80 I hope your pain improves
Thank you Binx. Right!! Good points!! I will need to be direct with them when i need help.
Thanks so much @CATMANCAM we got great weather today… my parents came to help and weve cut and moved 2 van loads of branches and bushes…heres a before and a so far…
I do hope you and everyone else on here are doing well and if not, im sending love and strength to all my sober family 
Midday checkin day 116. Checking in a bit more often while I’m struggling. Had bad, stressful dreams all night and woke up with a bad headache. PT was okay, but I didn’t like this therapist as much. Started getting frustrated with my bf as soon as he got up today. I’m trying to be patient and supportive while he sorts his life out, but I’m close to losing my shit. Instead, I went for a long walk on my lunch break. That helped a little. I’m supposed to meet a friend for dinner tonight. I want to hibernate at home, but I know it will be good for me to get out of the house. I still just feel so down and exhausted.
Looking good Kelly. Can’t wait to see the finished project.
Day 1,055 clean and sober today. So glad it’s my Friday for real for real… looking to making the jump to camp in my jeep starting next month. Scary but I will stay focused on my goals, love you guys 
Thank you Eric, me too i never bothered with it alot when i was drinking but this year i want to make it a lovely space for my daughter, Reggie and i to enjoy, hope your well
15 hrs into my 17th day! I’m sleeping like a rock and I can’t even really explain how awesome it is to have an incredible night sleep and to wake up with a bounce in my step and ready to go vs wondering how I’m going to make it through the morning at work.
Second Check in
It was a good day. After the work was done I had a nice walk home. My plan was to take the long route near river rhine but it was too full. So many people! I went through the city center. Got a blister on my left foot because I was wearing the wrong shoes for a longer walk.
It’s difficult to dress right at the moment. In the morning it’s +2C° and at 5pm it was +20C° ! Nice 
It’s going to be a little warmer every day now. And soon the whole city will cry about the heat and humidity again haha. Every year the same. I’ll cry too 
Now a little surfing in the web, then shower and then bed.
See you tomorrow!
@JazzyS thank you 🩵 I hope your symptoms calmed down and you managed to get some sleep
@mewmcmew congrats on 30 days free from SLAA
@Salkasvan welcome congrats on 30 days
@Markjackson sending strength 🩵🫂
@Noshame I’m glad you and your wife have each other’s support
@SoberWalker that is a really lovely pendant 
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on all the 4s
@Time2Live84 congrats on 2 weeks
@anon53116147 good luck with your application 
it’s great that you’ll have a job lined up in your future 
@Starlight14 wow, an Incredible transformation! 
you’ve worked really hard, well done 
996 days no alcohol.
461 days no cocaine.
83 days no vape.
2 days no binge-eating.
Wow, I slept like a log last night, all the way through, without waking up, until after 11am! I felt so bad for the cats, but they were quickly fed and napping happily.
I walked to the shopping centre to collect my reward trainers, they look really nice, but I haven’t tried them on yet, I’m waiting for my inserts to arrive, due Friday, for my plantar fasciitis.
I have a big burst blister on the back of my heel, which is very sore and stingy, I was limping 3/4 of the way on my morning walk, but I managed to get a plaster and some thicker socks for my PM walk that I’ve just done, and I wasn’t in too much pain with the blister, but I did have to collapse on a bench to use my heart spray due to chest pains, it’s been a while since that has happened, I was worried the rest of the way round incase it happened again, but thankfully I made it home safe.
Tonight, I am going to try again, to watch TV on my phone, in bed, without eating crisps.
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Day 6
Safe and sober back homie…
Evening checkin!
I got 2 new sleeping dresses 
Even got them on sale by a very good quality german brand. Sooo cozy and nice material! Hope my new evening routine gives me some peace and ease for better sleep. 
Had a good swim workout, good food and just a little nap of 10 minutes. But better a short nap then no nap at all.
Much love 
162 
chilling binge watching superman and Louis
Happy sober Wednesday everyone
5 days AF. Feeling disappointed and frustrated. On Monday I met someone in a meeting who I had recognized from another meeting and we got to chatting. She’s early in recovery like me and is also new to town, so it seemed like the perfect chance to connect with somebody (not as a sponsor but just as a AA connection). So we started texting back and forth. Today she got very pushy out of the blue about getting me to go with her to a meeting tonight. Initially, she said “I know someone who’s looking to be a sponsor, come to the meeting tonight to meet her” (she knows I’m looking for one). I said thanks but I’d rather find someone on my own who I know resonates with me or says something I can relate to. Then she says “what can I do to get you to go to the meeting tonight?” (I already went to a meeting this morning and she knew that.) I said that after busy days I need the evening to wind down or I can’t sleep. (This is so true - I need a few hours before bedtime by myself/just with my partner to decompress. I’m very introverted.) Then she says “I won’t go by myself. We’ll leave at 6:30 and be home by 8.” At this point I’m pissed because who is this person to be violating my boundaries? I shouldnt even have to give a reason, no is enough. Anyway I just wrote back saying she should still go, reach out to someone else in AA if you’re nervous, etc. she just wrote back “ok.”
I’m annoyed because I was so hopeful about this and now I’m made to feel violated but also like I’m letting her down, which is silly because I can’t be the reason she goes or doesn’t go to a meeting. I’m probably going to have to stop texting her because this is the last reason I should be in a bad mood. But I’m sure she’ll text me again (well maybe) and I’ll probably see her around. Very disappointing.
Still grateful to be sober. Got my big book and more numbers today. If anyone has advice on this issue please let me know. Hugs for a good sober day 
I’m so happy to hear that you are at day 5 and going to meetings regularly now. So sorry that the AA connection turned out to be so pushy and caused you anxiety and all around discomfort / violation.
You really do not have to explain yourself to anyone at all. Once you say no - that is all that’s needed. No is enough.
It’s possible that this person was having a very bad day and is not usually this pushy? Still not on you to feel responsible if she does or doesn’t go to a meeting. You really do need to concentrate on your sobriety and save it at all costs.
I absolutely love this!!!
I’m sure you may run into her in meetings - do not let this get to you. (i know its easier said than done) - you will have other AA connections. Set your boundaries and remember it is not selfish to concentrate on you alone and protect your sobriety.
Hey guys 
I cracked 400 days today! Feeling proud of my progress.
I’m not gonna lie, the cravings have been popping up a little bit lately, but I’ve been talking them out with my husband, talking about how easy it will escalate and how much we can’t afford to throw our money and health and progress away. It’s still tough at times even with 400 days under my belt.
Just gotta keep reminding myself, I’ve seen the outcome of my poor attempts at moderation, I can’t keep doing the same thing and expecting a different result, I have to be that change I want to see.
Big love to you all, I’m a still reading here just a bit exhausted from work and my kids. Stay sober friends 
Way to go Alycia - you are rocking it. 400 days of sobriety is remarkable.
Unfortunately, i’m not sure if the desire/ urges ever really go away. I am only on 133 days but from talking with some lifers I hear that this is a life long journey. I think its easier to forget our bad days the longer we are sober. Keep those times in mind and know that you are living a healthier life now. Our addict brain will creep up unexpectedly and tell us stories that we can have just one or are better now and can handle moderation. You are stronger and healthier now - keep up the great work.
Checking in day 85 sober.
Beautiful day. Went to work today and then got off early. Worked outside on my chicken’s
Coop. Put some new wheels on it to be able to move it around so that they have fresh grass.
Came to my Bible study early and am setting outside listening to the birds sing until time to start.
Have a great evening everyone!
Thanks @JazzyS it helps to be validated. Im definitely going to be more cautious and I’m looking at this as an opportunity to work on my boundaries and getting comfortable just saying “no”. The universe sends us what we need, not necessarily what we want. I do hope that we can work around this because I’m sure I’ll be seeing her around. One thing for sure, I ain’t gonna be drinking over it!
Checking in
Day 444
Its been a hard day. Im sort of just trying to process things and unwind now. My son had a medical appt today in the clinic at the hospital to do a tracheostomy change. He gets them monthly so its not new to us. But today didnt go well 
It was very similar to the situation that happened last year (some of u may remember this) where we needed to call an ambulance for our son bcuz he needs the trach to breathe and we couldnt get the new one in, therefore leaving a hole in his neck. Thankfully… we were at the hospital for this appt so there was support. But my ptsd flared up and i just did everything in my power to stay calm for my son. We had to go down a trach size so that it could go in. He was a super champ thru it all. Strong boy he is. But my heart was racing, hands were shaking, I felt panicked. Once home, I ended up eating out of emotion and overeating on my afternoon snack bcuz of how I was feeling. I didnt go over my calorie limit for my meal thankfully but eating out of emotions is not a good behavior for me. I am giving myself some grace tho bcuz i stopped myself when i realized what i was doing. Im feeling very weak and vulnerable right now. Just feeling hurt and sad that my son has gone thru as much as he has had to in his life. Its hard to see. I actually find this medical ptsd worse than my cptsd from my past. Will do a grounding technique now and do mindfulness while washing the dishes. Thanks for letting me just talk this out