Oh my goodness Dana
I am so sorry to hear of your day. You and your son are champs! Thank goodness you were already at the hospital so support was near. I want to give you a hug to help console your shaking and panic. 
I do hope your grounding techniqueās work for you. Here if you want to talk this out further. Sending you love and comfort my friend.
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Checking in. Day 208
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Ur are absolutely the sweetest and i appreicate u sending virtual hugs thank u for being a support to me friend. My son been thru alot since the age of 2. Hes almost 7 now. I am feeling better since i washed the dishes and talked it out on here. Im grateful we were at the hospital also 
I asked for support for next months trach change also just in case.
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Evening of day 116. Dinner out was good. Probably only my 3rd time eating out since getting sober. Didnāt miss drinking. Good to see my friend. Now home watching the Celtics game. Cravings arenāt as bad today. But really struggled with work today. Couldnāt focus.
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Wow - didnāt realize you have been dealing with this for so long. Iām so sorry love - i do hope that these trachās are helpful. Good call on having support on hand for the next visit.
SO glad you are feeling better. Hope you have a lovely relaxed evening.
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Much admiration for you Dana and big big hugs. Iām glad that everything is okay now and you are able to understand whatās happening to you at those awful times and rein it in some. Your coping skills are learned and effective.
Never feel like youāre failing at all but continue to have confidence in what you know you can do to help yourself cope and feel better.
Really really proud of you.
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Sending you a hug and your little guy too! Iām glad you were at the hospital this time and didnāt need to wait on an ambulance!
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Sounds great, and weāre always here when you need to vent about stuff like this.
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If it helps, share whenever you need. I have so much respect for you dealing with your sonās medical needs. Sounds like you handled it the best that you could (and your son) and are now processing by doing all the right things.
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Thank you friend 
Ur incredibly sweet to offer ur support even when ur going thru alot urself right now. I appreciate you!! Hugs back to you also!
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Thank you so much friend for the virtual hugs and thank u for being proud of me bcuz honestly i sometimes dont notice these things in myself or see improvement in certain areas. So im grateful for u that u were able to see that 
thank u for shining some light on this situation
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Day 33. I had my weekly counselor appointment this morning, and after that, walked doggos. Beautiful weather today, after some spring rain last couple days.
On the flip side, this afternoon, I heard some disappointing news about a friendās current circumstances. I feel pretty powerless and down. My instinct in situations like this is to drink. Thankfully, the support/accountability I have with everyone on TS, my counselor, friends and family is keeping me from picking up. Drinking really wouldnāt solve a damn thing. And I know I can be a much more supportive friend sober.
Say strong everyone 
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Thanks my friend Hugs to you!!! I did my best during that situation. I appreciate ur support
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Checking in again today as I canāt sleep again. Tomorrow I will take something to help me sleep as I only got 3 hours yesterday and less that 2 overnight so far. I have a busy Thursday evening but may be able to nap in the mid afternoon but weāll see.
Yesterday was a full day. Normal getting the kids to school but then I had my 3rd AlAnon meeting which was really great. The sense of humour within the room was palpable. It is held in a convent and ther was one point that one of the sisters came in to give us a stern talking to about using the fancy wooden chairs instead of the plastic ones. It was like a comic sketch honestly!
Then home for lunch and right back out to meet my son to take him for a hospital appointment, I knew Iād not be home for my daughter returning from school so she had her keys and let herself in which is the first time sheās ever done that herself. Sheās doing a photography workshop at the moment so I was hearing all about that.
The cherry blossom is out in the local park so I may take some photos on my way back from school drop off today.
Itās still three hours until I need to get up but Iām just feeling so alert. Iām listening to my favourite playlist as I type. Spotify
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Sucks when you canāt get a good nights rest. Have you tried a full body scan as you lie in bed alo g with deep breathing. Sometimes if in luckly, i only get as far as my stomach and im knocked out.
Hope you get a restful 3 hours in 
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Not totally rested, but better than @Deelzebub. Sorry Delia. Another day at the office coming up. Supposed to be warm today too. Hope Iāll get work done in time and I can enjoy the 
a bit. But will take it as it comes. Pic is my favourite plant in the neighbourhood. Been there for years, just coming out of that wall.
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I know the insomnia game well. I hope you can at least rest your body enough because that really helps.
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I second this!
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Checking in with 64 days AF. My insomnia is likely my number one reason I got into this drinking mess in the first place. So, yeah, I can empathize. And to be honest, every time I read about someone sleeping through the night, feeling well rested, happy for their bed, taking a nap, I get not only jealous, but downright unhappy. For me. Not for them. Hoping for a miracle tonight?
Take care all!
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