I feel for you with the migraines… i havnt shared this yet but i also suffer from cluster headaches, which i mean no offense by this but i would trade my clusters for migraines any day of the week. Im episodic and have been in a cycle for going on 8 months now which is twice the time of my usual cycles. I also usually only go in cycle every 2 years and only in the summer. This time i was only in remission for a year and my cycle started in the early fall and im still not out of it yet. Neurologist started me on emgality 300mg cluster dose 3 months ago but i don’t think its working like it should. I also take verapamil and sumatriptan injections. I dont tell alot of people about my condition because people always say. Yea… i know what thats like… i get headaches… or yea ive had migraines… let me tell you, if you dont know…THEY ARE NOT EVEN COMPARABLE!!! Im sharing a link for those who dont know what it is… its of a guy suffering through an attack on video, i praise him for this because i know i could never record myself going through an attack… i usually suffer in silence because most people cant relate or just chalk it up as just a " headache" anyways… this isnt about me, i was just sharing that head pain is the absolute worse and i wish you all pain free days!!!
Tonight it’s yoga live class and it’s triggering for me, to drink wine afterwards. Will give my best to come back home safe and sober!
I am not sure, if I am realy sober from toxic relationships and eating drama.
Need to loose some weight and I know how… I am an expert as I lost 60 pounds and hold it for years. But my mindset is shit! Struggling and destructive thoughts shifting through my mind!!!
I am clean from toxic ex relationship since a one night relaps in January. But I have obsessive thoughts about another guy. And obsession is shit!
Oh my goodness- no offense taken. Appreciate your wishes. Thank you for taking the time to share.
I was not aware of cluster headaches- so many ailments out there. Sorry your injections arents working the way they should. I know how hard it is do daily routine when in pain. I do get migraines but not like most so i should be grateful- pain is extreme but my vision isnt blurry and i feel sick but dont throw up. I have had a mild headache since my early teens that no one has been able to figure out…its really just become a part of me now but the slightest thing can set of a full blown migraine. I am now out of migraine territory and just have an intense headache at the moment.
Have you tried any alternative medicines to help with the headaches? Would acupuncture help?
Sending healing vibes my friend
Edit - just doing some reading on cluster headaches. I am so sorry you go through this and more sorry that this last one has lasted so long (since fall- wtf!). I do hope you get some relief soon.
It’s called suicide headache. This is the worst pain a human can get.
Wishing you strength and I really wish you from all my heart that one day soon your headache calms down.
Is it just this class or yoga in general that brings on the urge to drink?
Could you do morning classes?
Its a matter of rewiring our brains and not associating a glass of wine with relaxation-- this is something im working on too.
@Catmama23 well done for upholding your boundary, I’m sorry you were made to feel like this @Alycia congrats on 400 days @Butterflymoonwoman bless you and your son, I’m sorry you had to go through that again, I do remember it from last year too. I hope you feel more grounded today and managed to sleep okay last night. 🩵 @Deelzebub@FeelingBetter I’m struggling with sleep alongside you both this week, it’s nothing new for me but this week is particularly bad, so solidarity and I hope we all get atleast some good sleep ASAP @Noshame congrats on both milestones @mewmcmew congrats on 40 days @Billy85 I’m so sorry you’re going through this sending strength 🩵 @Juli1 congrats on your week take the sober exit after your class
997 days no alcohol.
462 days no cocaine.
5 months no cigarillos.
84 days no vape.
Didn’t get to sleep until 3:30am, but managed to sleep until Wolfie managed to wake me up at 8am, I’m still tired though.
I’ve done both walks, meditations, reading on here.
I watched TV last night, and this afternoon, but both times I binged crisps and mango. I’ll keep trying until I manage to do it without eating though.
Tomorrow, after hopefully managing to sleep at my usual time, I plan to be at the gym for 8:30am. I’ve got reminders set for every 3 days at 8:15am, indefinitely. Hoping I can stick to that.
Mid afternoon day 117. I still have so much work to do today but I’m really struggling to get through it. My anxiety is awful. Nothing is helping. I want to scream.
@Deelzebub glad you can get in tomorrow and hope you will be able to rest some if not have a good sleep tonight. Sorry you are being challenged. Glad you recognize it and will talk to the GP. Looks like a beautiful walk you had. If you have intrusive thoughts, try putting your self, your mind, in the beauty of this photo you have posted. Immerse yourself in the beauty, the calmness, the serenity of it. Hopefully it can replace some of the not so good. Sleep well. xoxo
I feel like I’ve been on the verge of a full blown panic attack all day. Totally freaking out for no reason. It’s triggering intense cravings. I got ice cream again instead. But that’s not helping. I should still try to get some more work done - I’m way behind. But I feel awful. Trying to focus on slower deeper breathing. But still mostly hyperventilating. I don’t know what to do so I’m posting here.
Karen, I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling. Unfortunately the reality is that you stand a high chance of relapse if you can’t find some peace and joy in sobriety. I got that from participating here, ice cream and meetings with others in recovery communities who were struggling with anxiety and intense cravings as well. Yes, that’s a common topic in early recovery. You aren’t alone. Just not drinking will not work for most in the long term. Just an observation and what worked for me.
I’m sorry that the anxiety turned to panic.
Dovyou have lavender oil at home? I find a dab on my temples or nape of neck or even just my shirt helos calm me.
As @LeeHawk ment- you are orine to relapse if you cant calm your body and mind because the addict will convince you that drinking is your only solution-- it is not!!!
You are strong my friend. Try muscle relaxation techniques, deep breathing, close and relax your eyes, play soothing musuc. Take a break and get some fresh air…just a few ideas to soothe your panic /anxiety.
I get what you’re saying. Right now I’m struggling with a depressive episode so don’t find joy in anything. Current life circumstances are triggering the anxiety. The anxiety had been better since getting sober until recently. I see my therapist Monday and my psychiatrist the following week. I’m trying to work on it.
I would often drink in the train on the way home from work. I wanted the change of feeling, enjoyed watching the scenery go by while catching the buzz. Obviously I had to still go to work, so I had to break that association. I would smell aromatherapy oils, eat mints, drink sweet tea while on the train. Although smaller than an alcoholic buzz, I tried to really focus on the feeling of relaxation that they brought. It took a while, but drinking on the train almost never occurs to me now.
@SoberWalker glad you are enjoying your vaca. A candle from a machine – very interesting @Dolse71 Weekend sounds like a blast and great sober time. I love how your harsh truth. Hold onto this my friend and have a wonderful time. We can still have all the fun in the world and hey we will actually remember it @mewmcmew How are you doing? Try not to think of all the tasks at once. Rather – start with one while mentally saying to yourself that you only need to do this one and then see where that leads. Often times I find that I complete everything and they weren’t as hard as I had initially imagined. Hoping you do find your strength @Deelzeub that is a fantastic photo – what a magical tree. Hope you get some rest tonight and hopefully can get yourself to a spa day / weekend soon
My daily check in
134 days no alcohol or weed
549 days no cigarettes
Another hard day but I do have faith that I’ll get better. I was weeping for most of today and now trying to soothe my puffy eyes. The pain and other symptoms were somewhat manageable but the fatigue was on another level. I do know that going back to my any of my addictions for a moment of relief is not the answer. I need to keep reminding myself of such – grateful for all of you and all the love oozing from the TS threads. Really do help me stay on the sober path.
