I used to think it was impossible to not, not drink. In the beginning it took asking daily. Eventually the desire left, which id heard others talk about. Early in my sobrity i thought there is no way that’ll happen to me. And here i am. However, i know its important to know where i have come from, and all it takes is one to be back where i left off.
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Day 244
Finally the weekend is here 
Witnessed some major drama going on with some of our Doctors. They’re all grown up, did study, know how to behave and yet they sometimes act like little kids having a temper tantrum.
It’s beautiful outside but cold and I definitely wear the wrong stuff today to have a walk near my river 
So I’m heading home now, going to relax and maybe clean or do the laundry. Or I’ll simply do nothing and be lazy 
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 9. I’ve had a good morning still sticking to routine wake up at 530 take meds stay up and just focus on the day ahead. Little bit of a happy sad morning, I started looking through some pictures of my girls and came across some from this last weekend pass and I just started crying…my girls are so special and so amazing and such beautiful little inspirational intelligent little girls. And then they face timed me and we had a nice beautiful little chat before school. I signed up for some parenting classes yesterday so that will be nice. Doing some reflecting and you know it’s crazy to think had I not messed up my first little stint at sobriety I’d have about 4 years now I think? But I’m of course not beating myself up over it, just looking through the old pics and seeing how serious I was with the bike rides and weight loss was very inspiring,what’s nice Is even with some of my relapses I’ve still been sober more then not In these last 4 years. I’m just grateful to get another chance to keep changing and being the best me that i can be. Much love everyone hope you all have a beautiful Friday
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Huge congrats on your sober time Brandon! Awesome numbers. Thanks for stopping by. And thanks for the reminder. ODAAT for all of us.
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Congrats on 30 days and glad you are here and healing 
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Day 895,
Feeling bit better today, still lay down a lot. But feel a bit less depressed. Send my ex an email yesterday. Maybe impulsive but on the other side was avoidance and procrastination. It’s a thin line. Not really approved by my sponsor so have to become honest about that when I meet him. I don’t expect an answer back, the last conversation we had months ago kept bothering me. So know send a calm email that I need time and might come back to her when it’s time whenever that might be. In her last e-mail there was her need for amends noticeable, I reacted very impulsive responding her mail, there were a lot of triggers in there as well but I should have held my composure. I wasn’t working the steps at the time. There is the doubt whether I did the right thing sending her, but it is done. 
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Hey!! Congrats on 30 days!!! What a crazy story! I’m so glad you are okay!!
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Checking in… day 117 ODAAT!!! Still just trying to do the next right thing. I have to finish moving this weekend and work so nothing special planned but being productive! Hope everyone is doing well!
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Exactly.
Also thank you. 
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Awh man, sending a lot of hugs. I exactly know how you feel. You’re not alone.
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Good morning, everyone.
Day 594 AF
I’ve been busy with work and the munchkins. Been working OT. My vacay starts today. I’ll be off for a couple of weeks. Much needed. It’s my eldest son last day of school today, and we’re going to my nephew’s High School graduation. These kids grow up fast.
I’m still battling acid reflux. I’m 33 days without caffeine, soda, junk food, and spicy foods. I made a list of foods that trigger my heartburn 
. Shit sucks. I’ve lost 6 pounds. I have a doctor’s appointment on Monday.
I haven’t had any urges to drink. Though I’ve had some dreams about drinking. I don’t think those dreams will ever stop. They don’t bother me as much as they did before. It’s just another day. Gotta keep pushing. Feeling pretty good about sobriety.
I hope everyone’s doing well. Take care. I’ll try to jump on here more often.
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100 days, it feels like a miracle. I’m probably more surprised than anyone that I have made it so far.
My life in February was profoundly dark after years of daily drinking. The cracks were widening beyond repair.
But, somehow I am here. My days are lighter. There is hope. There is actually the whole range of emotions, and it’s surprisingly ok to ride them out without being blacked out.
If you are just beginning, we all know the exhaustion, fear, desperation, and shame. But, also the hope and the possibility of change. Keep going. Keep trying. The only one who will save you is you yourself. 
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@anon53116147 your post is inspiring and full of hope. You’re back on the path and you can do this!!!
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Welcome to the triple digits!! Congratulations 
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Really good idea making a list of food that messes with you. If you can’t narrow it down think about ingredients in packaged food too. 
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Checking in
Day 474
Goooood morrrrrning TS! Hope everyone is doing well! Im FINALLY starting to feel like this head cold is going away. My plans was to hit the gym this morning but that didnt happen. So i will restart my workouts on Monday (weekends i work and dont have the time).
My son and i have a busy day. He has an appt at one of the hospital clinics this morning, then we will play at the accessible park there, and then pick up his formula. Then this afternoon im going to be cleaning the apartment and getting it freshened up. Not much else to the day.
Hope everyone is doing well 
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Let’s go, 100 days! I’m so proud of you. 
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Sometimes giving yourself a bit relax time is fine. I hope from Monday you will be full of energy in gym.
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Short check in.
Maybe in terms of socialising I failed big time today.
There was a farewell party organised after work for some people I don’t really know. I mean outside my team there is no-one I know and it’s already enough to have lunch with 10 people. But small talk in french with idk how many people was too overwhelming and having to wait for my group to go there while I didn’t want to start a new project before my vacation starting right now. I felt a strong urge to run away. Well, I ran away. I don’t feel comfortable in situations of too many people. 
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