Checking in daily to maintain focus #55

[anon15828629]

Checking in day 15

Hi all

Just a day over 2 weeks completely clean and sober feeling great so far and currently making lots of plans for going forward hope everybody is doing ok

[Rob11]

Day 911,

Woke up and had a call with my sponsor. Talked about my best friends visit yesterday evening. Which was though, tried to talk a bit on my recovery. But it proofs to me it’s hard to do with “normies”. Made his recipe without some white wine, even needed to explain again why that’s a no go for me……. He left early because he was tired, my fear is rejection currently, it hit that cord. My head is still full, but feel better. My son is visiting for Father’s Day. Gonna visit my parents and this evening catch a movie (Flash).

Greetz, Rob

[CATMANCAM]

@Wakikki sending strength 🩵
@Alycia congrats on all the 4s
@Sabrina80 sending strength 🩵 I hope you have some things that bring you comfort.
@XXIX I hope your headache has lifted by now, sending strength 🩵
@Scorpn congrats on 250 days no substances and all of your other numbers too
@2JTravNZ sorry for your loss stunning photos
@Juli1 congrats on double digits
@Butterflymoonwoman I’m so happy that you took a moment to feel proud of yourself. I’m proud of you too. 🩵
@nastya_is_fighting I feel very sad when I see dead animals too, it really hurts my heart, even to hear about it. I hope giving it a safer place to rest helps ease your sadness
@Catmama23 I’m sorry about things with your wife I hope the bookstore helped, sending strength 🩵 just seen you newer posts, I’m glad you’re feeling better

[CATMANCAM]

@Dolse71 congrats on quadruple digits
@DMak welcome
@AyBee congrats on 1500 days
@anon15828629 congrats on 2+ weeks

1041 days no alcohol.
506 days no cocaine.
21 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.

Ugh. It started because I was craving real food, so after my first walk Friday, I bought the items to make a salad, ate it, all fine, but I think that giving in to the real food craving was the trigger for what happened later in the evening…So when I went to the shopping centre Friday, I also bought some healthy food items from the clearance section I saw on my way to the section where I was getting my dad some items from. I also bought some bananas, a bag of the more healthier crisps, and a bag of these crisp-type sweet and salted things. At 9pm I ate one main meal, then immediately afterwards, I physically felt my self-control slip away, and I ate the rest. Although individually the items were healthy, it was the loss of self-control I felt, the amount I ate, and the way that I ate it all, that ended in a reset. I didn’t binge yesterday, I don’t go in my local shops anymore, and I won’t need to go to the big shopping centre until mid-Agusut, when 2 family members have birthdays. So I think I’ll be okay again, will see this as a brief learning experience.

Yesterday, after the binge Friday night, I didn’t wake until 6:30am, to feed the cats and take my morning meds, then went back to sleep and didn’t wake until 3pm! No real surprise, it’s happened before. I took a rest day from my walks, and did a few meditations and relaxed to decompress from the week. I feel at peace now. Going to shower soon, ready to see my family later.

I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.

🩵

[BrOKenWolf]

Day 568

I feel so angry! In in my last 60 days of preparation for my tournament and yesterday I have torn my quadriceps and groin muscles playing with my kids.

Thankfully it’s not torn from the bone so surgery isn’t needed but it means I have to miss at least 6 weeks of my final 8 weeks and I may not be 100% for the tournament which is really upsetting. I’ve prepared and worked hard for this for 5 months, lost close to 35kg and transformed my body and mind to prepare myself to be ready and one little freak coincidence has possibly cost me the opportunity to win back my European Championship.

Feeling gutted and in a lot of pain, however the hard work is going to continue. God saw fit to grace me with 2 legs and an able body and mind, so I’ll keep the rest of it working hard, allow the injured leg time to recover and hit it hard when I can.

If I’m not ready or able to compete when the time comes at least I can say in myself that I did all I could. Anything more than 60% and I’m competing, the adrenalin and my competitive spirit will give me everything else I need!

Have a blessed day everyone

[2JTravNZ]

Day 272

Thank you every one who has passed on condolences, its nice to be away but tough on my wife and our friends, I have been through this more than i’d like to have been my coping skills are good.
My wife is a very epathetic person so shes hurting deeply.

This shows me how far forward I’ve come come also have not even wanted to pick up and hit the bottle.

This will continue as we have a funeral to attend friday and catching up with a lot of people we havent seen for a long time.

Heres a few more pics of this beautiful place, I’m very thankful I get to call Aotearoa/New Zealand home, I’ve been in the South Island 10 years this year

[nastya_is_fighting]

20 days being clean from self-harm.

Morning check in.

Ah yeah, russophobes again attacked me with not nice messages. I almost had anxiety attack. Why people are like that… Why they hate each other for so not important things like gender, sexuality, race, nationality… I will never get it.
Anyways my mood is now better because I had drums lesson, which a lot help me to control my anxiety or angry issues. So yay!

I hope everyone are okay.

[SoberWalker]

Kaboom!
Congratulations Paul!

[SoberWalker]

And my favorite sober happy dance for you and your 1500 days milestone:

Congratulations!

[SoberWalker]

#Day 1734
It’s stupid…having a stress day because of going to a concert
This is the first time ever that I experience this. Not the being anxious, but having it before going to a concert.
It’s a huge concert because going to see Beyoncé.
50.000 people! Going to park outside Amsterdam and walk to the crowded area. Glad we love walking But beside I think it’s going to be just fine I’m still anxious about the “what if’s”
I hate it, It’s annoying.

So this above I have to tattoo on my forehead!
But then I can’t read it
Have a good sunday all!

[Mno]

Park in Abcoude or Ouderkerk? Duivendrecht maybe? Enjoy anyway Claudia. BTW do the tattoo in mirror writing!

[SoberWalker]

Thank you Menno! We are going to park at Ouderkerker plas. I hope that’s a good spot
And that tattoo, maybe not

[Jasty2]

Morning check in. Happy Father’s Day to all of you and to your father’s. It’s beautiful out here today, me and the pups were already at the park for a run, now home and everyone else is still sleeping. So sitting outside with more coffee, enjoying another nice clear headed hangover free morning. Hope you all have a great day

[Alisa]

Have fun @SoberWalker … study the drinkers should you wish and be glad you’re not partaking! Have fun. I can’t see you really drinking a beer or wine. It’s just your junkie messing w you. Tell it to FRO.

[Mno]

It’s normally a bit desolate at night but you won’t be the only ones having that idea.

[SoberWalker]

We are leaving in about half an hour so I guess we are early enough

[Mno]

You can have a swim first!

[LeeHawk]

I’m so sorry man! Can I ask what the heck were you doing with the kids to cause this. Wow! Hope you have a great Father’s Day!

[Rockstar24777]

Thank @Alisa!!!

[Catmama23]

Thank you @Scorpn and @CATMANCAM… it is such a new strange experience to go through an argument sober. Normally it would have started while I was drinking or it would have been an “excuse” to drink (as if I needed one!). Since I didn’t drink:

• the argument didn’t escalate
• I was able to get perspective and realize I was overreacting
• I was able to identify why I was triggered
• we were able to talk through it

As a result, I woke up today sober and with a limited “emotional hangover”

This might sound silly but this is a whole new experience for me!!

@Scorpn sadly it was just a big chain, but I want to explore some of the independent bookstores around here too! I love everything about books and bookstores, that’s my happy place I bought a ton of books too, stress shopping

@BrOKenWolf your attitude is amazing! That is real strength I’m sorry to hear about your injury though!

@2JTravNZ these pics are jaw dropping… I’m sorry you and your partner have to go through this

@Cjp how did the concert go? That can be so stressful when alcohol is everywhere

Grateful for this sober community!