Day number 199, hitting near record temps in Vegas and we are still playing baseball! So thankful these state tournaments I am in charge of are almost done. Sat outside yesterday from 0600 to 1800, came home had two slices of pizza, 3 NA beverages and took my happy ass to bed! Thankful to wake up without a hangover and to go and serve the youth in my community by providing quality baseball for them to participate in 
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Day 7 checking in. This has been rough I have had moments where I felt good but I have felt terrible through alot of it aswell. Yesterday was one of the days I felt like shit. I had a migraine all day and slept most of the day. I was convinced all I needed was a beer so I got one and cracked it open. Then I just let it sit there nevet even took a drink ended up drinking two powerades instead and dumping the beer out
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Something does seem to happen to women around 40, massive transition time. Be kind to yourself and take it easy.
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Day 28 checking in. vacation has been a lot easier to manage than I thought it would be, going paddle boarding for the first time today, which Iām really looking forward to!
Have a good day everyone!
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Thank you! Thatās true!
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Checking in day 448 free from weed and alcohol.
Just got back from a cousinās funeral. He was barely into his 50s. Gone too soon. Theres something about death that puts life into perspective. We have this day to make the most of my friends
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Hi 
I am missing you, and everyone here too.
So much has happened I wouldnāt even know where to begin.
Itās really difficult at the moment, so many huge life changes all at the same time.
Iām still sober which is good.
I think of relapsing alot. So much is happening. But I know it will not help.
I think I need to maybe just check in daily and stick to some of the fun threads to get out of this isolation Iv got myself into.
Silly isnāt it, knowing your all here and I still need to learn not to suffer in silence.
Iām going to the shops for a walk, and to get some bits and Iām going to snuggle up in bed with some films.
I keep meaning to but dont - Iām going to just read and hang out in some of the fun threads.
Tbh I am lonely and trying deal with everything and I know not being here is kind of setting myself up for failure.
Thank you for thinking of me.
I am okay, Iām not going to relapse. I think I just need to climb out this hole and be present here because I know it works being surrounded by people who also are going through stuff, and we all lean on eachother and hold eachother up and care about eachother.
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Glad to see you Twizzle. Hang with us friend. It helps!!! 
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Thank you 
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Definitely missing you too Twizzle.
You are always a ray of sunshine around her.
I hope you and your furry family are settled in a bit. Do what you can when you can.
Happy you checked in.
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Thank you I do need to prioritise some time here.
I know in my heart itās needed.
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Iāve been trying to learn when I know I got to do things. Or a boundary. If I donāt follow through right away. I try not to beat myself up over it. Itās ok. As long as Iām sober. TS is always here.
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Day 60. Things were ok I guess, I really have a hard time camping with my mom and step dad, it feels toxic. Step dad got drunk last night how fun, Im fine with it itās not triggering but he turns into an ass and makes a fool of him self, he went over to pet some dogs all hammered and they were barking at him in front of all these people and my momās just screaming at are dog bc heās barking and Iām like seriously everything is fine you donāt need to yell dude, yelling for some reason makes my hair on the back of my neck stand up and feel instantly triggered. I went over to are dog and calmed him down without yelling. I was grouchy a little but I did keep my composure much better with my girls. I got stiff armed in the face a couple times by my oldest bc I was snoring lol and then she was like daddy. Daddy, daddy every two seconds and I was sleeping so I donāt even realize whatās really going on and I snapped at her. This morning went ok getting home tho so Iām grateful for that and I am grateful for everything my mom and step dad do, I just wish things would be smoother and I get that itās not always going to be. On my way walking the girls up theyāre motherās house they were telling me how mommy and her husband were fighting and apparently he got in my oldest face and told her that her daddy is a drunk. I wanted to say something but I didnāt because I want my girls to feel safe coming to me with these things. If I tell on them then it just gets them in trouble and theyāre mother calls them liars. Much love everything was a good time tho for the most part. I should focus on the positive rather than any of the negative. much love everyone
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Oh boy; you deserve a medal for dealing with step dad. I hate that sh#$ too.
Maybe you can explain to your daughter about your past (cleaned up, of course!) and how you took responsibility and addressed it. So yes, I was a drunk but Iām not anymore.
Hugs sweetie
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Say āhiā any time you need any of us. I can actually try to be funny if that might help 
. Youāre not alone. We are all here.
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Day 1 : no grazing
Day 1 : no shopping spree
Day 33: no credit cards
Day 721: no pills
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@jennyh love that you are dragging (lol) your kids around and making happy memories that will last a lifetime ā hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. Sorry your knees are still acting up but grateful that you are seeing some relief from the fatigue
@catmama23 love your daily recovery practices ā good to see you doing so well with handling your alcohol addiction and 47 days under your belt. Hang in there my friend ā I do think it starts getting easier and you start feeling lighter / happier as you loosen the grip the addiction had on you. Sending you strength. Super proud of how far you have come.
@amy30 I do hope you are feeling better today and were able to get out and see Barbie ā what did you think? I am also struggling to keep to a daily schedule but have listed out what I want to accomplish each day and as of today I am going to work on keeping making sure I check off all the items. We can and will find a sustainable livable routine ā I have faith in us.
Hold onto this thought ā Nothing good comes from putting chemicals into our bodies. We want to live a long and healthy life where we are not dependent on others ā leaving these addictions behind is the first step. Well done on now 5 days vape free and 13 days AF ā keep showing up for yourself!
@sabrina80 YUM ā I do hope you enjoyed your warm gf banana bread ā I used to set my bread and coffee maker so I would wake up to fresh coffee and banana nut bread ā havenāt done this in years (may need to revisit 
@icebear sorry that you are feeling so shitty Drew ā great job on checking in (I hope writing it out helped some). I do hope the tapering off gets easier for you ā are you able to message your psychiatrist prior to Wednesday? I do hope that you are able to do something fun and carefree to help with your mood. We are here if you just want to chat some more ā sending you strength my friend.
@thewaterdog Well done Lucy on your 4+ years of sobriety. Thank you for being an inspiration and I did appreciate seeing your story / post and the lovely transformationā¦ Keep strong my friend.
@chase.e.u well done on dumping that beer ā you are at your 1 week milestone ā it does start to get easier my friend. I do hope you ae having a much better day today.
@Twizzlers I am so sorry that you are going through so much and doing so alone. The ājust for funā threads are an enormous life saver and I do hope that they help you too. We are here for you my friend so please do not suffer in silence ā reach out when you feel comfortable.
@anon53116147 YEAH to your 60 days! Well done my friend. So sorry that you had to deal with the toxicity of a drunk step dad acting up ā glad that you did have good moments to remember and cherish from your trip.
Checking in on Sunday afternoon
I was able to visit with my mom for a few hours this morning. relax and enjoy a few cups of coffee, watch some cartoos, get in a 25 min walk with meditation (indoors with some stairs) and now off to take a shower and see what else i can do for today. Trying to stay active and light hearted and not focus on my head/ body aches and pains or any of the other crap. Thanks CJ - will work on making the most of this day! Sending much loveā¦
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Was up at 7am this morning to see another sunny day. Decided to go out a walk and ended up doing 5 miles just walking and enjoying the sun. Had a lazy day reading my book and listening to the music for the rest of it and Iām so happy that I know I donāt need to dread possibly feeling hungover tomorrow for work.
Setting my alarm early so I can get up and hopefully go another quick walk before I start, really sets me up for the day if I get active early on
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Proud of you Mike. You did excellent. See it as a learning opportunity in how to deal with hard stuff sober, an opportunity you took with both hands and passed with flying colors. Good days and less good ones friend. We march on. Sober.
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Checking in: 23 days sober.
Itās getting tricky cause my husband starts his 2 weeks holidays so we gonna spend most of time together. Which is not necessary good.
But
Iām so happy and proud! My 4,5 yo boy got his first real bike and since heās not very adventurous (doesnāt really like slides etc) I was worry he wonāt even try. Before he was using this walking type bike without pedals. He was super excited about his new bike, he hoped on and ride almost immediately 
Woohoo my big boy!
(Sorry for bad quality foto, i think my phone is dying slowly)
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