Checking in daily to maintain focus #56

Already 2 weeks + 2 days clean from benzos. :heart: So checking in sobriety.
How are you all? :blush:

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Absolutely love LGBTQIA+ flags in that street. :heart:

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Congrats!!

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Hey all, checking in on day 1136. I hope everybody has a good one!

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572 days alcohol free days. Feeling a urge today, not a huge, but still.

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Day 9 checking in. Maybe I am on a cloud thats going to bust soon but I have been feeling great. I did some yoga again last night before bed and agin this morning before work. Yoga sucks by the way but I have beaten my body up real bad over the years so I need it. Other than that my sleep was great last night and my head feels like a fog has been lifted. I haven’t had a craving in a day or two I am sure that wont last but I am trying to not worry about what might or will happen just dealing with today. Hope everyone has a great day. Odaat

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Not even just a work in progress, but you are human. Its okay to go off sometimes! Im not saying go off all the time, but hey…sometimes there is more to learn from going off then just the fact that you need to work on your emotions/reactions. I believe that.

And getting caught in a storm after storming off. Might not be a negative thing, might simply be fitting and cleansing. Good on you for beinf human, good on you for standing up for yourself and setting boundaries - its not easy, and being gaslit is a hard thing to know how to respond to. Hope youre being gentle on yourself!

Xo.

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Checking in Day 15 :two_hearts: Vacation is over and it was wonderful and I remember everything!! I am checking in because something bizarre happened yesterday. I was in a cave in Missouri that has a wine cellar and scotch bar on the way out to a gorgeous look out. When I passed by the scotch drinkers I COULD SMELL IT perfectly :sob::broken_heart: I instantaneously said ooh and wanted a drink to celebrate 2 weeks of sobriety!!! I wanted to celebrate my sobriety with a drink :sob::sob::sob: my flight is soon and I have the urge. Airports are my drinking spots. I used to bring shooters in my bag and I’m feeling antsy right now. It’s around 7:45am and my flight is at 1pm. Gonna get on a zoom meeting at 9am and stay on top of my craving. @Starlight14 can you believe this :pensive: I’m NOT going to drink but the craving is ridiculously strong this morning and to be honest since yesterday. The longest I’ve been sober is 15 days… and that’s where I’m at now.

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25 days sober.
Super happy I’m spending my kids first summer vacation with no hangovers, no crazy mood swings, not spending money on beer/wine and some stuff we didnt need that I was buying just because it look better than buying just alco…
I also feel like my beer belly is getting smaller, hiep hiep hurra! :wink:

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Hey Roxanne, i rekon the cravings are normal…your in places seeing people drink and in situations where you usually would have drank so makes sense right? Also u might find as milestones come up u find cravings getting worse…thats normal too…let them come, they dont mean u have to drink its just your alco brain remembering and trying to lure you back in…use the distractions again and maybe once your home keep yourself away from alcohol again until you feel stronger…the meetings are a great idea too, 15 days is amazing lady :blush: xx

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I just downloaded Stutz to watch on the plane and bought some benadryl in case I just need to sleep through it. And I agree, I gotta stay away from the smell. If I see it, nothing. I feel nothing. If I SMELL it, ohh man :broken_heart::sob: I just needed to say it out loud. I don’t want to go back to that place ever again but my brain is still wired to our 20 year addiction :rage:

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I hear ya…its a physical thing apparently…our brains build actual neurological pathways for certain behaviours making us set to often going back to the same shit, the good side of that though is the fact you can also build new pathways which is why im really interested in positive psychology. Stutz will give you some good insight and some great life tools to use…i had to watch it twice and on the second one i took notes. Im thinking maybe theres also an element of you coming home back to reality? Dont let how things were before you left drag u down…think of it as coming home back to a new life your now making for yourself, maybe make a few changes at home so it feels that way too? Xx

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I fly out to Portugal on 15th, weigh in is 18th and comp starts 20th, quarter final, semi final and Final are 21st. Fly back to UK on 22nd before jumping on a flight to Tenerife for 10 days on 23rd so I get some relaxation and holiday time to look forward to as well. :grin:

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Day 62. Woke up and feeling good, I will say I’m not sure how I’m feeling about this new medicine, haven’t really noticed anything I think. But yeah I’m doing well, got dinner cook and whipping up some Tacos tonight, should be tasty.much love

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Checking in at one month today. while I’m excited and proud of myself, I want this to be the last time I reach this milestone. I’ve relapsed around 4 times this year, so there’s some disappoint in myself today, but grateful nonetheless. OFDAAT :heart:

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@katiee Well done on your 30 days! Hope you were able to settle the anxiety!
@bomdhil you are doing so well my friend – I can’t even express how happy it makes me to see you stacking on the days. Keep faith and keep doing all that you are doing and you will see higher numbers too!
@icebear Seems you’ve got a busy schedule with the kids – summertime fun activities? I know you are doing so well with your DOC – are you able to talk with anyone irl about what’s causing you to feel empty? Its best to address this feeling now rather than letting it consume you. We are also here if you want to talk or vent. Sending you strength and support!
@pagan so glad to hear that your ankle is healing. Wow – you are making good progress with the bike – upload pics when you are ready for your adventure :blush:

Your post was lovely to read – especially this part! A very happy belated birthday to your daughter.
@mewmcmew WOW! Congrats on your 4 months clean from marijuana! Well done Crystal – keep strong!
@Dee134 Welcome back to the community and congrats on your day 1! Smart to have a plan in place and attend the zoom meetings. I also found it super helpful to be very active here (mostly reading at first and soaking in all the stories and great advice). Wishing you the best on your journey -hope to see you around.
@danam56 Glad to see you still sober – I know that I replaced my addiction with ice cream at the beginning and now after 7 months I am finding I don’t need that either… glad you are not beating yourself up about the shopping. Be mindful of it (don’t’ let it ruin you financially) and I know that this crutch will pass as you become stronger.
@sco thanks for sharing that – I had not heard before and I did resonate with me and made me think. :heart:

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@rainy7 Well done on having a lovely sober vacation. Many of us have had the urge to celebrate our sobriety milestones with a drink- as crazy as that sounds and feels its just our brains training — we associate celebrations with drinking. Learning to re-train the brain is essential in sobriety. Vacations, airports, celebrations, times of grief etc -we have to figure out new outlets of how to enjoy / go through these moments. So very proud of how well you are doing. Glad you are able to jump onto a zoom call – I do hope that and this site are helpful in getting rid of the urges. Deep breathes my friend – you are kicking addictions ass!
@mischa84 WOW – Look at all those smiles and you are glowing! So very happy for you!
@brokenwolf Thank you for sharing your schedule. Are you feeling well prepped for it? Glad that you do have some holiday time booked afterwards – what a lovely thing to look forward to.

Checking in on Tuesday morning
Breathing deeply and hoping to make the most of today. I am keeping myself active and trying to find the positive lining in everything around me. Wishing everyone an absolutely amazing addiction free day! Sending much love :heart: :heart:

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Thank you!! I’m glad to hear you’re staying positive and keeping active! Hope you have an incredible day! :heart:

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Checking in.
Day 1300 Clean & Sober.
Alcohol Free AF!!!
And I’m fucking lovin it!!!

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Hell yeah - life is so much better sober and clean!

Hell of a job with your 1300 days! Appreciate being on this journey with you and gaining from your inspiration.
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