Hi guys,
Checking in on day 68. For the first time in several weeks I had several hours of pretty bad anxiety again yesterday, but I’m grateful that I didn’t think of purchasing alcohol to get rid of the bad and uncomfortable feelings 
Encouragement and blessings to all 
Checking in on day 350 of being alcohol free.
Had a longer sleep than usual - not complaining, i definitely needed it. My day will probably consist of a couple of hours of gym work, some sport on the TV and then cooking Sunday dinner.
Hope you all enjoy the rest of your weekend.
1590
Yesterday I did a long bike ride to work to work and had a busy shift with some patients having physical problems, while at the same times ‘my’ group was rather busy and needed quite some attention. But we all made it through. Sober and clean.
Will repeat working a late shift today, just hoping for some calm. And it will be the 
for my commute, as it’s windy, wet and cold. I had a long sleep which was very welcome. Otherwise not too much to say except wishing you al as good a Sunday as you all can friends. Love from my commute.
@Ashley_luvz_starz Huge congrats on 200 days of freedom lady!
@Alycia I couldn’t agree more on sober festivals and other social events! Love them so much and who would have thought that when I was still under the influence. Not me anyway. Got to work on my social anxiety too since I quit drinking and it’s getting ever less. X
Me too, I’ve red our speedy dialogue 
those where the times.
Sounds great, admitting the fact that you’re not the conductor of your life when using, the substance is. That is crucial 
Moi Olivia! Kiitos paljon. En tuona päivänä muuta kuin tarjosin kakkua laumalle teinejä, joita luuhaa nurkissa. Ensi viikolla on parit kakkukestit luvassa päihdeklinikalla ja aa-ryhmässä.
Miten itse voit? Kuulin että menit naimisiin, onnittelut tuoreelle rouvalle ja kaikkea hyvää yhteiselle matkalle
Yes, tomppa has left the building.
Paavo kiittää (sillä on kaikki hyvin) 
Ok, that’ll do 
Always great to see you Hanna! And your kitties of course. Just a quick reminder that we have a rule that any post in a thread has to be in the language of the first post in it. I do understand you Finns (this goes for you too @Olivia) need to show the uniqueness of your language sometimes -and yes it is unique- so I’ll let this one pass.Take care up there! 
I was asleep by 9pm last night 
up again at 6am and did the chores like washing up (we were too tired last night to do it, slobs lol) and sorting the pills and vitamins for the next two weeks into little dispenser pots for us (this is the most boring task that we fight over )… It’s gone cold and was super chilly as I drank my 
. Enjoyed the seven 
powder in it today, I don’t always love it.
The cat was a baby arse from about 5am think she was hinting at breakfast. Feels so good to be up early and to feel energised and fresh and alive. Even when tired, it’s just not bad like hangover.
I’m grateful for that as I was having using thoughts last night. Not serious ones, almost speculative flirting ones. But I run the tape and stuck to tea. I run the tape and went to bed. To be honest I was exhausted anyway and felt safe and warm and happy when I went to bed.
Sometimes I get so fed up fighting this disease, this want in me. I think about my mom who I assume is still losing the fight against herself, deep into her alcoholism. It’s a sad drug and so disgraceful that so many people and businesses make so much money from this damaging and evil poison.
Anyway, I’ve rambled on. Lots of football on today, we got a super lovely spatchcocked lemon garlic and rosemary chicken from the butchers yesterday and plan a roast with all the delicious things: taters, parsnips, 
, 
, 
, stuffing and Yorkies. That’s always a treat and something to indulge yourself in.
Thanks for this message Eric. I feel that I’m through the worst of it now thankfully. I’ve been keeping an eye on the loved ones thread but not taking part as I have nothing much to add, no answers. But I’m repeating the mantra of ODAAT like crazy recently.
Day 133 AF.
I got a good sleep last night and woke feeling fairly good. I’ve had my coffee and some leftover plum crumble for breakfast and then I’m going to a menopause yoga session at midday. This evening I have a poetry reading to go to with a friend who’s been really looking out for me recently. Schools out for the October break this coming week so I’ll just have to wait and see how I deal with that. Recently my mood has dipped the most on the days I have the responsibility of the kids. To be honest I’ve been letting them fend for themselves and they have been coping really well and being very independent.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
I love this!!! And yes I second that, Im going another round of sobriety here but I was sober from 20 to 30 yrs old and I had so much fun 
Happy to be on this road, I know we’re meant to be on. Xo
Hahahaha, brilliant!
I will let @Tragicfarinelli explain. I think I am the only British person who doesn’t like yorkies (not the dog!) I do love veggie stuffing though 
Hello ya’ll 90 days today
I am feeling a bit down, but you know what…this happebs sometimes and Im just in a place in my life where irs like. Hm youre down? That makes sense. Get through today best you can, may be better then you thibk or it may not be a great day. We cannot and will not escape days where we do not feel good or bad things will not happen.
Look forward to tackling the resentments. Especially those that are justified.
If you are runninf the sober track the first time and in the 3-6 month and feeling off and like wtf I am sober why do I feel like SHIT its pretty nornal. For me its an indicator I gotta dive in to why I drink, and I believe its because the part of me that needs the dribk to cope (or think it does) is struggling without it, especially if Im not addressing why she was drowning in the first place. So if you feel that, know its normal and may be time to dive in…whichever way you choose. Xo.
ALSO, one more thought for the day and this is not a poonted comment about medication specirically in pill form, as Im not a doctor and to each their own but I think of this place, of talk therapy of the ways we cope in healthy ways . Taking my “medicine” for me is like the ways I take care of my heart, mind, spirit and body (cominf on here, therapy, etc.). Its the shit I need to do to heal.
Someone I love very much told me the other day they have never taken medication (meaning pharma), and as someone who is within their family and seen the damage that this person not taking medication for something they need but instead self-medicating and causing all kinds of damage I can say, whether those meds were pharma or therapy, this person needs medication. THERE IS NO PRIDE in never getting help. THERE IS NO PRIDE in not working on yourself. THERE IS NO PRIDE in going it alone. There is no pride in self medicating. And I feel its my fucking responsibility to take my “medicine”, in whatever form, so that I can be “better” in whatever form and not fuck up the lofe of my family and those around me.
I understand the mentality for generations before is very anti-medication, therapy and getting help, particularly for men so this is not resentment against this person but it was a real momebt between us. They felt more pride that they had never recieved help, enough so to tell someone they have deeply effected by their dysfunction and substance abuse that they had never got help, not able to see who they were talking to or understand what that means. Its just a different time, and that is okay. But it made me sad, and made me of all these things. So therws my thought: Its our responsibility to get better so we not out here drowning those around us. Take your “medicine” (again, not talking about medication per se just like whatever it is u using to help you) xo.
Is that a good dog flop @Mno hope so as they are the food of the gods.
Stuffing is bread crumbs and onion and sage soaked in some milk and butter then baked. It makes a great accompaniment to chicken. It’s delicious, stodgey, Herby…
Yorkshire’s are kind of batter put in hell fire hot oil and left to rise like a paddling pool. Then, the correct way to address dinner is to put as much on your plate as desired and coat in gravy.
@JennyH thank you 
I too have extra aches and pains today, but not any feverishness like I’ve experienced with the previous vaccines. I did feel unwell on my walk though so I’m not going to go to the country park for the super long walk today, that can wait for another day. I hope your symptoms subside asap 
🩵 and congrats on your month 
@AyBee sunRISES 
definitely worth waking-up/walking for.
@Penguin hey and welcome back congrats on 910 days sorry about the vulnerability trigger I’m glad you reached out here rather than the alternative. I hope you are able to talk things through with the person you’ve fallen in love with. 🩵
@JazzyS thank you it went fairly smoothly. I hope you can get some rest in after all the work you’re doing, it takes it’s toll when you keep pushing through, especially as you say it’s triggering. 🩵
@DanaM56 ugh, I’m so sorry about that director. I hope you don’t have to deal with her regularly. 🩵
@Hidden enjoy Frightmares tomorrow 
@Brian1965uk congrats on 11 months
@HolySquid congrats on all the 2s grateful for your indifference 
@Mno so pleased you got to see a success story but I’m sorry you’re not feeling comfortable in your group therapy, I had the same experience when I did group DBT in 2020, and I didn’t find it beneficial at all. 🩵
@Mbwoman congrats to your son 
@Amy30 that made me smile, I’m the same way with my cats 
congrats on 9 months
@Marlowe congrats on 2 weeks
@Noshame congrats on your week and your others counters too of course
@SleeplessMoonlight congrats on your week it’s good to see you 🩵
@Ashley_luvz_starz congrats on 200 days
@Tragicfarinelli sorry about the cravings keep playing that tape. Enjoy your roast, it sounds delicious. 
@Mira_D congrats on 90 days
1160 days no alcohol.
625 days no cocaine.
140 days no vape.
Typed this late night, but fell asleep before my tagging…
Slept quite well last night. Woke up before my alarms, did my morning routine, then drove to my hometown for my Covid and Flu shots. The queue was already long when I got there, and there were still 10mins until it opened. My back hurt a lot standing there waiting but I breathed through it. The queue moved quickly once they did open, and I was done after another 10mins.
I came home, then attended the Survivors Trans, NB, and GQ support group, that I wasn’t able to attend for a few months due to going to the drumming workshops over Summer. It was a wholesome experience, and it always helps me to feel less alone. I’m so glad I pushed through my anxiety to attend it today.
There were a lot of younger people outside when it was time for my lake walk, so I waited a while before giving myself a second attempt, and then I did manage it. I nearly passed out in the final quarter, which does happen occasionally and has been happening for around 10 years. I used to think I needed to eat a load of sugary stuff to feel better, and it did used to work, but I didnt do that today. I took my jacket off to finish the walk, then I came home and drank some squash with a bit of salt in, then had a shake when it was time.
It’s offically cold, 8’C, so I have just closed my bedroom window and put my heater on for the first time since last winter, because my cat’s ears felt cold. He’s so much more content now, next to me snoring, bless him.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
44 yeahi
I will eat homemade Lasagne now
Pleased you are not too bad, although sounds like you need to take it easy. I managed a walk earlier thanks to the paracetamol, but have crashed hard again. Nap time My husband took one look at me and told me I needed to. My face tends to show when I am not well!
Love the image of your cat, all cosy x
