@jennyh thanks love – didn’t get a nap but luckily due to circumstances I was not able to do much work today so it was not a strenuous day (will have to wait a few more days to get house on market but hey that is how it goes). Hope you are feeling better
@tragicfarinelli Thank you – will check this out – huh using in soups and stews that’s a great idea
I am battling severe inflammation right now. Can you share which supplements you are using? Grateful that you have found something that is working for you.
@juli1 double 4’s – hope you enjoyed a chilled night at home
@karenkw double digits is awesome Karen – hope you have a wonderful time in the mountains. Hope its for a fun trip.
@butterflymoonwoman ugh – hate working through tired feeling. Were you able to get some rest?
@hidden so grateful for your lovely day at Frightmares. Beautiful to hear your story – still kind hearted people in this world So sorry that you have come down with Covid – I do hope the symptoms are not severe and you recover quickly.
This was beautiful to read love - grateful that you and your son had a lovely Sunday
Checking in on Sunday evening
Didnkl’t go as planned but i’m grateful that i don’t mind when my planned days go awry. I actually needed a day of rest. Did some work but then made some great meals and watched some movies.
Hope you are all doing well and enjoying a addiction free day / night. Much love to you all
Moving forward officially marks my longest stretch sober since 2001. Last time was bc I found out I was pregnant. Luckily I was taking good care of myself at that time(2013), and only drank 2-3 times during her first month.
It’s crazy to me how easy this has been. I guess it was finally just time. I haven’t had any cravings at all. I feel for those of you who seem to really struggle with them. I don’t crave what will undoubtedly ruin my life. When an alcoholic thought passes through my mind, I make sure to put a negative spin on it. There will never be any reminiscing of the good times I had while drinking. I don’t think those exist anyway. Of course I will stay vigil as I’m moving into unknown sobriety territory. I will immediately admit if my desire to drink returns. But I pray it never does. I’m grateful to know I always have this space to turn to. Thank you everyone for always being here
I’ve been suffering an on and off headache most of the day (probably due to pms). It’s early(for me) again, so I’ll probably turn in soon in hopes it isn’t there in the morning. But first…snacks! Goodnight everyone, and thank you again
Congrats Laura! 8 months is incredible and the fact that you’re conscious of how you feel and monitoring it despite not having any urges really affirms your commitment to yourself! Great job!
8 months is an awesome achievement, congratulations! Love your mindset on alcohol. I’m right there with you, there are no good times to reminisce about. Hope the headache is gone in the morning.
Thanks @Mno, there’s only one kittycat, but he’s big enough for two thank you also for the reminder, its an old rule, and i seem to break it every now and then (was at least a partner in crime). Guilty as charged and sorry for that
2496 days. I got (leased) a new car today! It’s an all electric – I am used to a 23 year old low tech gas guzzling SUV. Happy day today. I had Kombucha to celebrate. The salesman was really good and showed me how to do a lot of stuff. I hope I am successful when I first try to charge it!
So I haven’t used this app in at least 3 years and I’ve been clean for 6 years up until two weeks ago i relapsed and im back in treatment. Back on methadone which I really didn’t want to do i had a script for subs but i waited over 24 hours and still got precipitated withdrawals I asked the doctor and they told me it’s because the fentanyl I most likely have to wait 72 to 96 hours before taking subs with the fentanyl and i couldn’t do that bc i work and the reason y i didn’t want to go back on methadone was bc when i got off methadone I had paws for over 6 months and it wasnt just emotional i was still feeling physical pain and had the chills/skin on fire feeling and the gabapentin helped but not really. So i promised my self i would never get back on methadone. But Suboxone isnt going to work this time so ok back on it and really scared but idk i guess its better then using right. I think as I get strong enough and start tapering down then I’ll get on subs and then get off those i heard that is a really good way to do it without gets paws for so long ish but ppl ll anytime in just posting bc im very disappointed I was really hopefully this time was gunna b the time i never relapse again. But shit happens right ugh
Had some ongoing family stuff (don’t we all) which had my anxiety through the roof at various points over the weekend, but had a couple of good gym sessions and a long drive in the car yesterday to try and get me back in a good place.
Anyway, here’s to another sober week on the horizon. I hope you all have a great Monday and a fantastic week.
Morning all, checking in on Day 32. Missed evening check in last night, was reading but too tired to post. These jabs really knocked me out. Think I am OK now, just a little tired and gloomy.
Trying to have a moment of peace before work. Bundled up under the covers (now dressed) and appreciating the very fresh air coming in. My parents live in a very peaceful area, can hear some cars in the distance but mostly birds. We hope to stay in this immediate area when we buy somewhere as this peace is important to us. Whether we can afford that is another question! Funny though how different areas have different feelings/auras. This isn’t the wealthy part of town, but just feels so calm.
Have a good day everyone. I have a feeling my day is going to be made up of setting myself little challenges, “get through the next hour, meeting, phone call” etc. until it is done. Some days are like that!
Holy moly, I wasn’t following this thread few days and I have zylion unreaded posts… I don’t think I can catch up I hope everybodys doing fine.
Kids are having one week free (autumn vacation), I’m so happy (not)… Twins are a bit sick (common cold + eyes infections) so they are more cranky than usuall. And clingy. Me? I’m still on intermittent fasting, almost 3 weeks, I already lost some cm and grams. Still working out with kettlebell. I really enjoy it. And it works! I started with 4kg and now I’m using 8kg, sometimes 6kg. Not much else going on in my life. Still feeling isolated, still feeling claustrophobic. Still sober, 108 days.
Have a good Monday people!
Having my morning coffee after a pretty long night’s sleep with some pretty wild dreams. Feeling OK. Work is a bit less fun atm with some rowdy customers that need to be kept in check. Feeling a bit like a kindergarten teacher / cop. That’s not what I signed up for.
On the other hand I did learn to handle this sort of things since I became sober. In the past it would have caused me a massive amount of stress. Now just a little bit. Anyway. It didn’t make me crave either. It’s just tiring stuff. And today’s a new day. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love. Pic is of a very good memory. Monument Valley Navajo Tribal Park, April 2018.
Slept quite ok. Have to make a decision for the re-integration office. For once in my life I take the time for that. Feels awkward. I have another introduction planned at another office. But they didn’t make a great impression in the process so far. It is also with a woman, for some reason I prefer a man for this process . Now doubting whether I may have such a preference or what’s behind it, damn overthinking. This afternoon I’ll go to the treatment centre for an appointment with my doctor who’s responsible for the meds. Analyzing my headspace, it’s reasonable fine. There is movement, not all day. But there is, a bit curious what the future has in store for me. Hope I find purpose within the next year, and feel some trust in that
Good morning. Day 452. Just picked up some breakfast and an energy drink from the gas station and off to work. Had a fun weekend with a friend of mine but now it’s back to work. Hoping the day goes by quick. I have an issue with letting things go and I’m feeling pretty eh this morning about some things but I hope those thoughts go away as the day goes. Have a great day everyone
I think we all do, as the only way to let things go for us in the past was to use our DOC and forget about it all. Now we don’t do that no more we actually have to finds ways to actively deal with the issues in our lives. Which is a much better and healthier way but takes quite a lot of work to learn. But so worth it! Have a good day Kyle.
Another new thing to experience and learn Rob. Happy to see you moving forward friend. ODAAT and all that. Have a good one.
that’s a great idea
thank you also for the reminder, its an old rule, and i seem to break it every now and then (was at least a partner in crime). Guilty as charged and sorry for that 
Happy day today. I had Kombucha to celebrate. The salesman was really good and showed me how to do a lot of stuff. I hope I am successful when I first try to charge it!
I hope everybodys doing fine.
. Now doubting whether I may have such a preference or what’s behind it, damn overthinking. This afternoon I’ll go to the treatment centre for an appointment with my doctor who’s responsible for the meds. Analyzing my headspace, it’s reasonable fine. There is movement, not all day. But there is, a bit curious what the future has in store for me. Hope I find purpose within the next year, and feel some trust in that 
