I’m so sorry about your nephew. We know all too well that no one can make you stop but yourself. Big virtual hugs to you 
I send healing love your way
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So sorry to read this Steve. My heart goes out to your sister and you and all your family. So tragic. It’s so hard, I cannot imagine a mom’s pain in this. I hope she can find support somewhere to help her through this. There is absolutely nothing she could have done. That doesn’t help now that it’s so raw. Maybe she can find an Al-Anon group somewhere and just sit and listen. Or cry. I don’t know. It’s just so awful. And so far this year there have been 3 different people at my meetings sharing about deaths of their loved ones. Young loved ones, because of this disease. Al-Anon can be a great support. Maybe down the road sometime. Now may not be the best time to throw that out there.
I’m so sorry.
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Doing good bro nice to see you here so often 
I got rid of Facebook so on here all the time lol.
Day 16 today! 4 days to 20. New sleep tablets are giving me a very nice deep sleep without the hangover feeling. Definitely what I’ve needed!
Have a great day everyone
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@lile01 Oh the pains are no fun – sending you comforting energy. Hope it passes soon for you.
@merryshoes 600 days! Whoohoo! Great work friend.
@maestro think I missed your 17 months of sobriety celebration – keep them days stacking up Marty! very inspirational.
@butterflymoonwoman I get those days of extreme tiredness and really can’t explain where it comes from. Sometimes it could just be everything else just catching up to you and finally having a moment to breathe. I hope you do continue to take it easy and rest up. Hope you have some energy for self care and then more rest 
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Just doing a quick check in for tonight. I was able to speak to my friend who i havent spoken to in a couple days. Shes doing okay thankfully and at a shelter for tonight. Shes hitch hiking back home so that she can get the proper supports and help she needs to live a happy, sober life. Im grateful shes alive. I was soo worried. I had a good chat with her and thru everything shes been thru, shes quite positive!
My evening has been better. I am just about to put my son to bed and then will relax with hubby after having a nice shower. Hoping tmrw is better energy-wise. Have a great night everyone!
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Day 899 AF
Day 21 caffeine free
How’s it going, gang?
Did laundry this morning and then went for a walk. Took the fam to watch the Godzilla x Kong movie in the afternoon. I’m about to go on a skateboard cruise in a bit.
Nothing else is new. Living the sober life.
Hope y’all have a great day! Take care. ODAAT
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@Mischa84 Yes, my paternal grandmother was born in Poland. They came to Buffalo when she was a baby, but she definitely still spoke the language, and cooked the food 
Since there’s so many members who share my heritage, and another reason I love this place so much, here’s a little more of my family history 
(if anyone cares) My paternal grandfather was born and raised in Sweden. He came to Buffalo when he was 18, but he died before I was born. My mother’s side has been in America for a few generations, but originally her father was Irish and Swedish, and her mother was Dutch and English. I love being able to hear about those places here. Hoping I can travel over there one day
@acromouse The American Dyngus Day honestly revolves around food and drinking. Pierogies, sausage, golumpkis, and kapusta. We always used to drink krupnik, but we’re all sober now, so not anymore. There’s alway polka music playing, and we have the water tradition too. Girls wack boys with pussy willows, and they get us back with squirt guns. In the bars, once the night gets crazy, the floors are like ponds 
I never really stayed out for that.
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Much more energy today I had a nice afternoon with my daughter. Then her dad came for her. We decided to share her during her school break. I have to work the next 2 mornings when she’d normally be in school, so I’m picking her up after work Thursday so she can wake up here on her birthday Friday. Then he’ll get her again for their normal weekend, and then they’ll both come back Sunday night til Monday. For the eclipse, and her birthday party. A lot of back and forth, but it makes sense. I need this extra time to finish preparing for it all. Excited, but still can’t wait til it’s over 
I was able to make it to the laundromat in time. As soon as I finished loading my machines, 2 girls came in with probably 10 loads of laundry. I got the last of the multiple load washers, leaving only single loaders. They began loudly making a scene that there weren’t any good machines left, glaring at everyone else. While my laundry washed, I left for a few groceries. On my way out I heard one say “she probably won’t even make it back in time 
” (to free up the washers) I did, with 10 minutes to spare, and they were sitting in their car. Must’ve been in a hurry to do so bc they didn’t close the door on one washer properly so it wasn’t running. The rest of their washers stopped and they didn’t come back in for 15 more minutes 
Was it wrong of me to find joy in their faces when they realized they had to wait even longer?! Idk 
Just proof to me that being negative leads to more negativity. Stay positive ya’ll 
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 36
It have stopped snowing for now. Weather forecast says there’s more to come tonight and all day tomorrow.
My husband is going to the hospital tomorrow afternoon for a new x-ray. I hope the weather is nice to him during that time. We had multiple reports on traffic chaos almost everywhere.
Non of us are worried thought so I’m sure it goes smooth.
Need to shovel a bit more snow today so we can be able to get out with the car. It’s supposed to be sunny and clear today, so it’s great exercise and hopefully a good time out in the sun doing that.
Boys have school health week, which means they’ve got an everyday homework of moving/exercising for at least 15 mins/day.
Yesterday the 12 y/o helped me shovel snow, when he didn’t have more energy to do it I told him he could go back inside. When I came back inside after I was done he had made me some dairy free hot chocolate.
It was so thoughtful and cute.
Wishing you all a nice Wednesday.
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Day 20. Back to the (physical) office today. Woke up at 6 already stressed about it. New car didn’t turn up due to some issue or other, spent a lot of the afternoon trying to get answers but none were forthcoming. But I have a bicycle and it isn’t currently raining so, onwards ! Have great days everyone
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Grey skies, rainy weather, it’s OK. I’ve got my homework to do for creative writing class. And home work spring cleaning sort of stuff to do too. So I’ll be occupied. With some rest and relaxation in between. It’s my holidays after all.
No time for drinking or smoking or whatever though. Because that’s in the past and the idea honestly abhors me by now. Never again. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
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Day 284
The soda and ice with a cordial works for me. So that’s good. I don’t really want to have many alcohol free beers if I can help it, but on occasion yes…
Working 8-5today and then on call over night. Bit of a pain but one of those things
Have a fab day folks
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Day 15 
Woke up to am almighty bang - one of the cats had knocked something down - Little Rita
10 mins before that a naghbour posted a letter of mine through and I didn’t wake to it, instead in my dream I had post lol all the post I had been dreaming of
Well I wasn’t planning to get up until 9:30am. But hey What else is a cat supposed to do 
Got to measure my garden today, I know it seems a weird thing but the lay out and other peoples windows I have a fear of going out in the garden. I know it’s not logical and I used to use drink as a way to feel able to go out there.
I know it doesn’t make sense, it’s my garden but It causes alot of memories and triggers.
I guess I can’t avoid it forever - And the only way to get over the anxiety and fear on this one is to just face it I think.
Instead of worrying just step out there and remind myself of the enjoyment I used to get out of being out there.
Anyway not going to make it a bigger thing than it already is. All I have to do is take some measurements.
That’s my goal for today.
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@james83 Hope you’ll have a nice bike ride 
@MrsOdh This snow thing sounds positively surreal with the weather forecast showing over 20C for the weekend and we live in Central Europe. I hope everything goes well with your husbands medical appointment.
@Just_Laura Thanks for explaining your roots and traditions. I really like to hear how people celebrate the seasonal holidays.
@Butterflymoonwoman Glad to hear your friend is doing ok. Hope you’re going to have an easier day tomorrow.
@Whereswaldo That counter climbing every day is looking good 
@Caspio Wow!!! 600 days. Unbelievable 
@Mno Enjoy your quiet and peaceful day. What is your assignment for writing class?
@Mindofsobermike Good luck hunting for the right parts. Do you know any bike mechanics you could ask? These things have gotten so complicated with time, I always have to ask someone at a shop or I’ll get it messed up.
@K_S I Hope your boy’s health is going to improve soon. Sending you strength for your stressful time 
@john_connor1337 How are you holding up?
133 sugar
31 UPF
4 gluten
4 dairy
4 overeating/binge
Had another histamine reaction last night. Histamine intolerance and perimenopause don’t mix well. I’m starting to dread the next few days and nights. If this histamine shit keeps repeating, it’s going to be exhausting. I really don’t need to have a panic episode every night. Especially with travelling.
But worrying in advance won’t help. I’ll try to set up a low histamine diet for today and hope for better sleep. Other then that like with everything: ODAAT
Goals for today: Keeping my food journal, mindful eating, listening to my body’s signals, taking breaks through the day for self checkin.
Today is travel prep day. We need to pack and prepare food for tomorrow. Our train leaves early in the morning and we won’t have much time before.
I want to take a nice walk later in the day, some fresh air will do me good, and definitely yoga in the afternoon.
My lovely sober friends, have a day in peace, kindness and freedom today 
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Trust me, it feels surreal for us too.
It’s beautiful, but I would rather have this amazing view for Christmas. Not in April.
Seems a bit local too, I thought it was the entire country, but talked to my aunt yesterday who live by the coast, a few hours drive from us. They didn’t have snow at all.
Hope you’re getting a nice trip, and not to much trouble with your food allergies. (As you know I’m allergic to everything and the world, but I’m pretty much born with that so it’s not a huge issue for me.)
Didn’t get my Celiac and milk protein diagnosis until a few years ago.
I didn’t believe it first, so I kept on as usual. Which of course made me even more sick.
When I finally started to take it seriously and listen to the doctors it was like an aha moment.
Always had stomach problems, always had severe stomach ache after pretty much every meal all my life. Eventually I sobered up and got it checked. It was such a relief knowing it was something so simple. And eating became pretty nice 
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Beautiful picture.
So curious about your writing class, good luck with your assignment.
Rainy gray days can be cozy, if you don’t have to go out. And if they don’t last too long.
I like them sometimes because then you don’t feel obligated to do garden work or go outside.
Wishing you a wonderful holiday. 
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& @MrsOdh My assignment is to take a small occurrence, something minor that happened in my life and turn it into a story. The idea is to stimulate exploring my fantasies and imagination. Which is good (but hard) for me, as it is one of the things I feel inhibited about. When I’m asked directly to use my imagination and be creative I tend to freeze. Part of my inner child self protection mechanism. Don’t show yourself! It’s not safe! So this will be a good exercise.
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Hope you have a great trip.
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Morning all, checking in on Day 10 (yay, getting into the double figures!) I woke up feeling hungover with that awful moment when you hate yourself for drinking. Nice relief to realise I hadn’t had anything, think the hangover feeling is my residual cold.
I am so overstimulated right now, craving solitude. It was such a wonderful gift my parents did, letting us move in to save for a deposit, but I sometimes feel so overwhelmed with 6 people in one house, and I seem to be the teenager in the set up (my Mum and husband are the parents ) I joke, but really struggling! Hopefully we can be in our own home in a month or two, and then I can be a good daughter again by reverting back to a sociable 40 something daughter!
Thank you all for being here. I know now that this place is part of my plan, and warning signs are when I start to take it for granted.
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