Thank u so much james for the support. I appreciate it! How are you doing? How was ur day?
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Thank u my friend 
Once my son is in bed ill have a nice shower and get some good rest tonight. How are you doing? Hope all is well for u!
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Thatās a great plan friend. 
I am doing well enough considering the situation - grateful that my addict brain has not tried to fix anything.
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So, the same thing happened to me that happened to my daughter. Felt good for a day or two and then BAM 
Fever again 
I maybe left the couch for an hour total all day. Wtf?! I havenāt been this sick since Nov 2020 with covid. I didnāt have much medicine left so I just toughed it out. Finally feeling like it broke. Hopefully I sleep it off and feel better tomorrow like my daughter did 
At least itās still the slow season at work so Iām not missing anything. I feel bad itās been such a boring couple weeks with my daughter 
Ah well. Itās been a snowstorm since yesterday anyway. Ugh, crappiness all around. Hope you guys are doing better
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Hoping you get some rest and feel even better tomorrow.
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Had a bad night. Experience work day was fine but something else came up at work that made me doubt a whole lot of stuff. Both personal and workwise. Not doubting my sobriety though. Never again. Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love.
@Button83 Seems to me like a situation you need your wits about you Julia. Not one where being under the influence would do you any good. You can deal with this. Sober. Have a good night lady.
@Just_Laura Be better soon friend.
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@Lotusflower thank you 
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@Mindofsobermike Iām so glad you found your way back š©µ
@Lile01 they look awesome 
@tailee17 congrats on 3 weeks 
@s_unrelax welcome congrats on day 1
@Sabrina80 good to read from you and that youāre doing well š©µ
@Lighter sorry about the nightmares and anxiety I do hope they pass 
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@Wakikki I am so sorry you are burdoned by such guilt, I hope you can learn to forgive yourself š©µ
@JazzyS thank you, it was quite an unexpected session with what I ended up talking about, but it felt good to air it out 
I really do hope you get relief from your pain asap, I can relate and know how miserable being in intense pain for an extended amount of time can be š©µ
@maxwell itās so backwards how they price things and even worse that the advertisement comes into your home uninvited! Sorry about the nightmare it caused congrats on your continued sobriety
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@Jenny1972 congrats on 90 day AF 6 months nicotine free and I really hope the specialist can help you find peace from the ED š©µ
@Button83 Iām sorry about your sister I hope she gets the help she needs. Congrats on your 30 days though
@Butterflymoonwoman Iām sorry for your overwhelming day and that your son is sick again I hope his fever clears asap and you can take him to get his wheelchair š©µ
@Just_Laura gah! That sucks 
Feel better soon š©µ
@Mno Iām sorry about the situation and the doubt it has caused, sounds unsettling Iām with you on the ānever againā train though š©µ
1317 days no alcohol.
782 days no cocaine.
297 days no vape.
42 days no binge-eating.
Caught up here yesterday morning.
TW: brief mention of sexual violence and impact.
Went to therapy. Didnāt discuss what we usually do, but a lot of talking was done about why I think I am the way I am, why I transitioned, why I developed my eating disorder, why I can only bath/shower or do any cleaning when I have some kind of deadline, and why everything just seems to get worse and worse. Itās all been me trying to protect myself from experiencing sexual violence again, by making myself and my emvironment so discusting that no one would want to come near me. I seriously need to sort my life out, and she wants me to try before I next see her on the 16th April. So I am going to start making reward charts again, because they worked for a while last Summer.
Had the Zoom call with the professional declutterer, she was lovely and very understanding. I now have an idea what to expect. This time next week the first 3hr session will have been completed. I need to do my cleaning over the weekend even though so told me not to, thereās no way Iām letting her see the true extent of the way I live!
Nothing in my calendar today for a change, will try do design a reward chart so I have something to work with.
I also should have another tube of cream for my back to collect, so may have to drive to my hometown and back again.
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Congratulations on your 90 days of sobriety Jenny.
6 months off the cigs.
I donāt know the struggles of an eating disorder, but Iāve read enough on here that itās a real son of a bitch! Youāre sober now. Not smoking. Youāre on your way to great things.
Keep up the great work.
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Congratulations on your 30 days button.
What you wrote about sounds like a dumpster fire. And youāre handing it sober. Thatās pretty cool. Youāre kicking ass. Hopefully tomorrow it will be better. And you can be proud you didnāt give in. Great job checking in. Thatās how itās done here.
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Yesterday i was my first sober night and this is my 2nd day.
I only slept 2.5 hrs yesterday, and very tiered today. I hope it will be ok soon
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Thank you, Iām trying to live that way 
I love to discover different things,places, food people. And I want to share a little of that spirit with the boys as well.
Life is absolutely and adventure. And as long as I donāt have to handle peopleās drama itās wonderful most of the time.
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 21.
Raining again.
Today Iām going to try and get a doctors appointment for my 13 y/o.
He actually needs an appointment at the neuropsychology unit because of his autism.
But the school nurse canāt send a referral until hos doctor has sent a referral to her so she can send it to the school psychologist, so the school psychologist can send a referral to the neuropsychology. But they donāt have a school psychologist yet, and havenāt for years.
And the local doctorās office wonāt send a referral on their own until theyāve done a medical health check. We shouldāve gotten a time for that weeks ago but we havent.
Here you book all those appointments online. And when you turn 13 those bookings are supposed to de made by yourself and not by your parents anymore. I guess it is because some teens needs to hide some health issues or gynecologist Visits and things like that. I get the concept, still think itās a bit stupid.
Because to book an appointment online you need a digital ID. And to get one of those you need a passport and you need to contact your bank. Not many 13 y/o can do that.
However since Iāve got an autistic boy who canāt book his own appointment, and might never be able to do things like tha. Iāve got an exception which basically means that I need to chase every unit until we actually find something who decides that they want to help.
Sure our welfare system with free healthcare for kids is nice. Until you actually need help and no one is available because thereās a huge staff shortage or no one wants to take responsibility to help because it costs money that they donāt have.
Also need an appointment for my 12 y/o so he can make an asthma check, and renew his school lunch note about gluten free food (he is celiac like me) bit he has a really bad cough the cough I want to check because it sound a lot like my asthma. So the doctorās office wonāt take him, they donāt take in anyone with cold symptoms since the pandemic.
Besides that me and my husband are going to the big city today for some grocery shopping. Iām looking forward to get out of the house and out of the village. Itās been a while, I love it here, I also love the excitement of going to the city. 
Wishing you all a great day.
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50 days AF
Wow thatās realy cool 
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@MrsOdh Sending you strength for your trials with burocracy. Have a nice day in the big city.
@s_unrelax Welcome to this nice place here and congrats on making it through day one! Whatās your plan to stay sober?
@CATMANCAM You are a very brave person! The things you tackle in your life and just keep at it and donāt give up. You really inspire me every day. Thank you
@Mno Wishing you a calm day, with calm feelings and a good nightās sleep this evening.
@Just_Laura Get well soon. Being sick on and off is really disheartening.
@Juli1 Congrats on 50AF 
119 sugar
17 UPF
3 PF
3 overeating/binge
Goals for today: keeping food journal, mindful eating, taking breaks to check in with me, learning to be in my body, surrendering to the present moment.
I know after a few days of being very vigilant about my behaviour I start getting complacent and thatās where the sneaky addictive voice has a chance to wiggle itself in. Today Iām going to stay close to the earth.
More analysis and diagrams in the morning. I might even start modelling some behavioural parts. A walk, Yin Yoga today, and I want to prepare some ideas for spring equinox celebration tomorrow.
Stay in peace, kindness and freedom friends 
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Day 6ā¦ feeling good though didnāt sleep all that well. Just one of those things I guess. Off to the station to start the commute. Have a great day everyone
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Hey,
This is my second day, i had a nice smoothie in the morning after that came to work,
Leave from work after 3 hours. (Lunch from office)
I will eat a nice burger evening and have a 5km walk to see nice peoples 
Night i will plan to come here to speak my sober buddies
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Day 109
Back at work today, had an early start, up at 430am.
Pretty chilled day at work, got stuck doing a bit of admin stuff that I very nearly got badly wrong but caught it in time 
I am inept when put behind a desk haha
After work I was able to make it to the gym for a few rounds. Good times.
Another dayshift tomorrow. Going to be another good one.
Massive congratulations @Juli1 on your 50.
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You found the daily check in thread Sarath, welcome! Good to see you here.
Sorry to hear youāre slept bad. For me my sleep was really bad for weeks when I quit drinking: nightsweats and restless. Taking a melatonin supplement helped me a bit with that. In my country you can buy such product in the supermarket. Maybe they have it where you live too?
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Day one being sober.
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