Very, very pertinent and truthful, as always Jasty. I always appreciate your honesty and wisdom.
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Day 270.
Ended up cancelling todayâs leave from work⌠So I can carry it into nexts years leave
Now I am kind off off till 2nd April and I think spring is arriving
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Thank you James!
This is the last relapse of many. Time to get me back.
I hope youâre well!
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@just_laura Oh man that sucks âIâm sorry your body is going through all of this â hope you were able to rest and are feeling better today 
Sorry friend â that can be super draining. Hope you are able to sort through the thoughts with ease and have a better day today.
@catmancam thanks friend â I appreciate your sweet words and am sorry that you can relate. Glad you were able to air things out and come out feeling good! Oh big hugs to you dear friend. You are so special and loved â hoping that these sessions will help you safely come out of your shell 
@s_unrelax great work on getting through your 1st sober day / night. 
keep at it friend â the beginning can be hard and trying but it does pay off. Stick with us here for support, distractions and a place to vent. Keep pushing forward!
@juli1 WOW indeed that is real cool! Way to go Jules 
@chevy55 Grateful that you are doing well friend. Totally understand limiting social media. Glad that your sleep is going well. Keep doing well my friend!
So true my friend â its a intense journey but so very worth it. Keep doing what you are doing love â you are doing amazingly well!
@charlie_c Double digits is frickin awesome! Hope you regain your energy friend ⌠keep at it
@twizzlers YEAH girl â way to go with day 1! You are doing amazingly well my friend â keep connected and keep pushing forward with a positive attitude
@k_s 90 days aka 3 months and going strong! Grateful for all the benefits of sobriety â keep up the amazing work!
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So very true â we need to feel it inside and do it for ourselves. You are kicking ass with day 3! Keep pushing forward. I found that if I had enough drinks on hand like La Croix or Kombucha then I didnât crave the need to drink on the sunny days like I normally would. If the urge did come up I would change up the activity so that my mind didnât focus on the not drinking part. The moderation demon is a bitch but if you are aware of it â then you can conquer it. Here for you my friend â keep fighting the good fight
Absolutely love this girl! So happy to read this and so very proud! We def are doing this damn thing! Lets keep doing it together
@Caitilynn1510 way to go with 9 days friend. I am relieved to hear that you wonât have to do surgery but I am so sorry that you arenât getting any answers or relief. I do hope the PT helps. I totally understand the frustration of being in pain and dealing with symptoms with no answers and a lot of guesswork. Keep on the sober path as alcohol only makes thinkgs worse.
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon⌠Momâs check up went well. Itâs been a mad house today - aunt, uncle and brother were over and just feel over stimulated. I really have a hard time holding a conversation while dealing with the pain. I am doing my best to not show it on my face but that doesnât always work out.
Did make some sugar free bran muffins for mom which ended up being packed away for my aunt LOL so will have to make some more. Glad it doesnât take much time.
Free of any urges and gratefully not taking any meds to have to deal with any side effects.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening. Sending you all so much love
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Im in the middle of 2nd day, yesterday didnât sleep , I donât know what will happen today anyway dont give up, this will not last longer, hope every day getting better.
We are here with you
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I do understand the being close to death and how stupid we are when we drink. Iâm type 2 DM, decently compliant with food, stupid with alcohol. Moderation shouldnât even be considered for myself bc one day my pancreas works and then one day it doesnât. Its like playing russian roulette and I do it time and time again. 9/10 times Im ok, but that 10thâŚstaying strong
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Youâve got this, friend. Sending strength your way 
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Congrats on doing so well this go around and getting your support worker back, it sounds like that in person support is really helpful. Stay vigilant! It always helped me to check in here in the early days and to lend a supportive word to another, itâs good to see you doing the same.
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Checking in day 79 AF
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Struggling a bit the last day and a half with headaches but am feeling better at the moment. Wild wild weather shifts are the bane of my existence! And a new migraine medication has been making me nauseous. I think things are calming down weather wise so I am trying to keep hope for relief, I just hate calling out of work. In the meantime I missed my 900 day milestone but am grateful! Itâs great to see people supporting each other here and a good read on this thread helps me feel pretty connected most of the time. I needed that today and some chats with people I care about. Itâs the best medicine of all.
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Day 276. I had the perfect opportunity to lose my temper last night at work. I didnât.
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Day 19. Fuzzy head, tired body. I did not pick up a drink today. Makes it a good day, 
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Checking in. Today was slightly better, I feel a bit more balanced. I worked a lot, went for a run and took an evening walk. Looking forward to my therapy session tomorrow. I might go to the cinema tomorrow afternoon too, but not sure yet. Now Iâm just going to read and have an early night.
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Day 886 AF
Day 8 caffeine free
Hey, gang.
Iâve been craving like crazy. Iâm guessing itâs due to eliminating the caffeine. I had a vivid drinking dream. I was hanging out and drinking with a bunch of old friends. I felt buzzed in the dream. It was a trip.
I went for a walk yesterday after work and decided to stop by at a Mexican spot on my way back for fish tacos. Fuck it. They were 1.19 per taco. I had to. This was the last place I got drunk at. Well, it was a different restaurant back then. The new owners decided to keep the same bar set up. I had some flashbacks of being drunk that night. It was a fucked up night overall. These memories keep me from relapsing. It took a lot of fucked up moments to keep me sober. It sucks because it didnât have to get to that point. Now Iâm living with regrets. Itâs hard to move on and forget.
Anyways, my ear and cyst pain are getting better. My kids and wife are good and healthy.
Working and staying busy. Living day by day.
Have a great sober day everyone!
Take care.
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Checking In 24 Days.
Got to some SA meettings this week and finally caught up with my sponsor. Learning some more about surrender and turning my will over to God. Just got to keep going one day at a time.
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Day 148.
Today was a good day.I have ceased fighting battles that are just a waste of time.Id rather be happy than always be right.Just for Today
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Checking in
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Today has been exhausting yet beautiful. My son stayed home this morning from school as we has to send something off to the lab for him - to figure out why hes getting sick. The snow here is nonstop and it took much longer to walk to the lab than usual. It certainly was a good workout⌠pushing my 85lb child in his wheelchair with medical equipment thru deep snow that hasnt been plowed yet.
We got home and then we had lunch and went to his school for an event since he seemed to be feeling better. His school was doing a fundaiser to raise money for kids experiencing cancer. They raised $41,000 for an organization that supports kids with cancer and my son and another student who had cancer were centre stage as they got their hair colored for the event. Other kids shaved their heads or cut their hair in support of kids who have cancer. It was really an emotional event for me. To see the support and the friendships that my son has built, made me tear up, ill be honest. A friend of his in his class told us that he was shaving is head for my son. I thought that was so special. We managed to get my son some books from the book fare also. So thats good. Im beyond beat and honestly i feel like I am now getting sick (I have a sore throat). But all n all today was amazing! Grateful to be clean today to experience these events with my son 
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@jimz yeah 80 days James! Such a lovely post and so very true. Keep up the amazing work
@forrestkump great work on your sober time and good job on keeping your temper in check â I know those are triumphant days for me.
@goku2019 WOW 8 days is great work with no caffeine. So sorry the urges are strong these days â you have 886 days of strength to punch back with. Lean on us if you need to vent or for anything. Glad that your pain is easing up â hope you continue to feel relief.
@butterflymoonwoman this was such a beautiful post. So glad to read of the support your son ha at school. Much love dear friend â I do hope you are not getting ill â hope you are able to rest and take care of yourself 
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