10 days sober down.
It’s funny, I open this app half a dozen or more times a day at the moment. I’m not checking the counter but to see everyone’s stories. Portable AA!
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91 days.
My friends boyfriend treated me and my OH to Champions League tickets last night. I took painkillers and managed it all, though was freezing and needed to take a load more painkillers when home.
We drew 1-1 with Ajax, but won 4-1 on aggregate, so we go to the semi finals. Nice to see a new team in the last stages in Ajax though.
Nice to be there and Tom Grennan was there as well doing something singy. He walked right past in front of me… In sunglasses 
at eight o clock pm on the freezing cold night… 
Cool.
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You saw Ajax live! TBH I never saw the ladies play. An omission. They’re doing a lot better than the guys this year too.
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This happens in my town too and it is annoying. I didn’t pay money to hear two old friends catch up. In my drinking days I was the chatty girl at a Vetiver show in Portland. I regret that.
Today would have been much more distressing to me if I had a shoe in my mouth. I’m going to cut my dosage in half to see how I feel but I am honestly a little floored that these are marketed as a mood lifting vitamin with that high of a dosage. Yikes.
Happy day to you Menno! 
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That is a different visual. 
I had undies (my British pants) on and a pair of legging but laced and tied my shoes before I put on my scrub bottoms. It would have been a cooler story if I was just in pants (British style) and my (wait for it…) trainers. Did I get the shoes right? 
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Yes! Trainers! I have childish thoughts though every time an American says pants.
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Good morning everyone! Checking in on day 118, creeping up to 4 months! Never thought it was possible and now I genuinely don’t want to live any other way. I’m looking forward to each day.
I hope everyone has the most amazing day!
and 
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This whole translation and language business is just hilarious
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Maybe that is the supposed mood lifting effect: You just don’t care if you wear pants or leggins or anything at all!
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They were pretty good. A bit handsy and I’m surprised about no more yellow cards for Ajax, but they represented well. Look forward to an increase of more talent and teams in the champions League overall as it’s looking like the same four again: Chelsea, Barcelona, PSG and Lyon.
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Checking in for Day 27. Feeling a bit more settled after most of a night’s sleep. This will lift before long. Thank you @JazzyS and @acromouse and everyone for your kind words. This is not easy, feeling great then hitting a wall. I have been through this before around 30 days.
Going to take it easy and hydrate for a few hours, then off to the salon. I haven’t been since I got sober. Got some new clothes. I will have the look soon enough 
Enjoy your sober day
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Today’s going to be a big rant. Apologies in advance, but I have to get it out.
I relapsed last night. Didn’t intend on doing so but I met up with a friend and we ended up drinking together. Oh, and we had unprotected sex, so now I’ve got to spend the next month in sheer terror that I’m pregnant.
I’ve called myself every name under the sun, I don’t know how I could be so stupid. I was blackout drunk and woke up a few hours later, changed into some of his clothes and left, so I have to go back either way. Classy.
Just really fucking angry, scared and tired. What a moron.
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Cant you go get the morning after pill??
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Nowhere around me has it, so I’ve called my GP.
Desperately waiting for a prescription/appointment.
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Ok if not then try sexual health clinics, you will be able to get one somewhere, and maybe get checked out too…dont beat yourself up Indi it happens but its important now to make sure you deal with this properly xx
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I’m glad you mentioned this. So, my brother does this thing where he says in a really high and mighty voice “How dya fancy spending some time with your niece and nephew tomorrow?” It’s his way of saying “Can you do us a favour? We’re a bit stuck and need someone to watch the kids for a few hours”.
It really fucking irritates everyone. It’s so Machiavellian and I hate it. Because if I say “no”, it suggests I don’t want to spend time with them but he’s worded it in a way that he’s doing me a favour when in actual fact, I’m doing one for him. He hasn’t done it in a while now but he also does it with our parents and we all see straight through it. I’ve started taking a leaf out of my dads book now and just started saying “Not tomorrow thanks” and so has my mother. We’ve all said about it in the past - “If you need a babysitter just say that - don’t try to frame it in a way that suggests either you’re doing me a favour or I’m an arsehole”
It’s unbelievably irritating.
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Day 83 AF
Be well all.
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I’m not smiling at your post because there isn’t much to smile about. But I do feel for you. I did so much stupid stuff myself when I was younger and under the influence. F*cking lucky I don’t have a womb and never caught HIV I am. Sigh. Please be safe girl. You’re doing so well by coming here and fighting to live your life better. Please learn from this. Big hugs.
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EllaOne - next day delivery of the pill. I seem to remember it works within the first 72 hours but you’d know better than me.
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Seconding what @Starlight14 and @Mno have said. Do everything in your power to get into a clinic (are there any walk in clinics?) before the holiday weekend when it will be much more difficult. Also, you have the knowledge and experience to know that this is dangerous business but more importantly the power to turn this around today and make this a lapse and not a full on relapse. We’re here for you, keep checking in for support.
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