Checking in daily to maintain focus #64

Yes but the sooner it is taken the more the chance of it working…there is also the option of having a coil fitted, do not delay Indi @Lile01

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I feel you.
My brother usually goes “So, what are you guys up to insert selected date any plans,are you at home?”

I always say, well it depends on what you want :laughing:

I absolutely love those kids, but a few hours with their parents close by are more than enough.
They turn the house upside down when they’re here. We live in a big two floor house a little off grid. My brother and his family lives in a two room apartment in the middle of the city. Not even a balcony. So I get it, but as I said we’re to old :blush:

Glad you’re family found a way around you’re brothers techniques so you can choose for yourself without feeling bad.

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Hey all, checking in on day 1383. I hope everybody has a good one!

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Your doing well, 3 days is brilliant congratulations :sparkler:

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Day 134. Much love everyone have a good day

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~5y 9m AF

6 years ago, I picked up a low back injury. Keeps me in bed for days, pulls my body crooked. 4 years trying to figure out what it is and do something about it.

YEARS of pushing and advocating for myself because in this healthcare system you have to. Mind you, all this time the injury keeps flaring up and I come back less from it each time. I felt I couldn’t live my life for fear of triggering it…going out, being on my feet or sitting for extended times etc.

Eventually find its apparently a recurrence of a spinal cord condition I had surgery for when I was 7 or 8.

Got a spinal shortening and fusion 2 yrs ago. Never got my agility/athleticism back, but at least no flare-ups sidelining me and making things worse. 2 years in I finally felt I had gotten past it.

3 weeks ago, it came back. Spent 2 weeks healing. Then this past Monday, again. And my Mom just got here for a visit and I’m like this.
And now I’m back to the fear. That I still can’t live my life or go enjoy things without worry or threat. And now a new concern, that apparently I got a fusion for nothing. The mental impact of this issue for me is just as much mental as it is physical, maybe more.

I said it in another thread, but it just feels like a ghost that’s come back for me and will haunt me as long as I live.

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I ain’t got shit in the way of advice on this man. That sounds frustrating , hard and scary all at once. Wishing you the best. For whatever it’s worth you handle this stuff like an absolute boss.

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Your words mean a lot, sir. Thanks.

Upside is that this time still physically hurts, just a lot less since I was given oral steroids to make it less angry this time.

My Mom and I are due to go to baseball on Saturday, my very short-term goal is to be able to still do that.

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Checking in on day 260. :v::heart:

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You can order Ellaone from UKmeds and they’ll deliver it on Saturday. Apparently it works for up to 5 days after having unprotected sex.

A few years back I got mine from a Boots pharmacy. Do you have any nearby? It’s free and they make you take it on the spot.

I would also reconsider classing that person as a ‘friend.’ Friends don’t have sex with you when you’re blackout drunk.

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Day 4 i can not seem to control my anger. I got some mad at work yesterday over the dumbest stuff that had left early and called in today. I am supposed to be a foreman and train guys but i keep loosing my cool. I hope i can get a grip soon

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39 days AF
:sparkling_heart:

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No coffee for the wee fish, ok?

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Checking in on day

323 no alcohol
254 no vapes or ciggs
125 no thc

Thought to myself at the londry mat how i ust to be crazy for the thc vape pens. A song i was listening to broght me to the past
I will always be addicted snd there is no such thing as moderation for the thc vape pen for me
If i ever get one, disasters will happen and also thc makes me sad because it brings me to a dark place in my past. I spent so much time and hard physical pain to get it in the past.

My question to myself
Do i like the thc pen
I guess i really do
I like it so much that i will go through hell to get it and use it. But if i can cut thc out, it feels better. Everything feels better when i dont pick up

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Haha just meeee :grin::sparkling_heart:

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I have a Boots in the next town over, I’ll look tomorrow (I don’t drive, unfortunately, or I would have gone now).
I’ve been told that EllaOne will counter some of my medication, so have been advised to get Levonelle, which none of the pharmacies in my town have :frowning:

It was a silly (huge) mistake, we were both intoxicated and shouldn’t have started anything. One hell of a wake up call. I feel utterly stupid for letting him talk me into drinking, but I’m the one who put the bottle to my mouth.

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Afternoon check in. All is good over here just another day and I’m pluggin away. Looking forward to the weekend and Easter dinner on Sunday. Hoping you all have a chill day :v:

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I’m sorry :disappointed: We are all guilty of making bad choices especially me! All you can do is learn from and not put yourself in the same situation. It’s a shitty situation but not the end. Hoping you get some help with a med.

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@CHASE.E.U I understand, I was very emotional after I’d quit, tears I could handle, sort of but I got so angry, like boiling with anger.
All the emotions we numb through our DOC seem to come flooding back without advanced warning. I’ve gotten snappy & snarky with people in work (everything & everyone just pissed me off and they weren’t even doing anything) anyway I just said “look, I’m having a shitty day, if I’m bitchy please don’t take it personal but I will try control it”. Nobody in work knows about my alcoholism or sobriety and I’m normally a chilled person. You’re going through a lot, don’t be too hard on yourself or others.
(I’m 90 days sober & recently there’s a few times I felt anger, I either take deep breaths & try hard not to say anything or I just walk away)

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I’m sitting here in the hair salon with a head full of pink foils like some sort of Medusa, and I’ve been asked not once, not twice, but three times if I want wine! No, no and no! I don’t crave it. I’m making it out of the hair salon sober!

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