I get it but there isnt much left back home and not many good things left i get my dog and ill be good where ever i go
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Sounds like a plan: get your dog over to where you are now and make what you decided to do there work!
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No get my dog and see what pops up. If they want to help me out alot better here than they have i would consider . But how it stands i will look for another opportunity
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Happy Bday to you!
Bdays are tough. Iād always cave on my bday from my past relapses. Well, I wasnāt focused on long-term sobriety. I was doing it all wrong. Major props to you for staying sober, especially early on. You got this! Stay strong. 
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Have you asked?
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Day 8 
Sing-along with a champ 
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I am not entirely surprised, with it being in 't Gooi 
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Figure if they want me back they can offer i would if i was them i have proven myself and they have said i have a job if i want to stay
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Happy 45th birthday @MrMoustache David! 
Congratulations with youāre 7 months milestone @Noshame 
And you too @Rookie Kirsten for the 2 months! 
ā Day 2269 
Ok, picked up my winter investment by bike: a very expensive winterjacket 
My current one is 9 years old and falling apart. Itās a half a year of drinking money I just calculated. Well a better reason to use my money for then getting waisted 
Thinking about my mom al lot lately. She passed away 19,5 years ago and we left her ashes here at this spot at the picture. She picked out that spot herself. She wanted a spot my dad could visit easily, even when he was getting old and would have become handicapped. But life did his thing after mom died. My died found a new wife within a year and moved away. He never visitās her āgraveā and even doesnāt wantās to see his 2 children anymore. Itās sad. I havenāt seen him for 17 years now
I am now the same age as my mom was when she got cancer. Weird. And I have her looks too. If I see her face it looks like I look in a mirror. I hope I have the chance to grow old and have grandchildren some day. My mom didnāt.
Today? Work.
Have a good day ore night all
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Thank you so much, my friends @tailee17, @Dirk @GOKU2019 @SoberWalker and @Just_Laura ! Means a lot to me. And @GOKU2019, I can understand why bdays can be hard. Luckily Iām spending the whole day alone, not seeing anyone, so thereās no chance for relapsing.
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Day 20
My sleep is lot better and I enjoying my sleep. Also, my health is improving, These days I smoke cigerates I know that also very harm and addictive substance, I need to stop that tooā¦ Here it is 2.30 pm. Let me sleep for some time.
Evening i need to go for prayer. Hope all doing well 
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Happy Birthday!!
Hope you have a lovely day and treat yourself to something nice!
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@MrMoustache A very happy birthday and many happy returns! Hope you get to have some nice self care today.
@SoberWalker Thank you for sharing your story about your mom. I sometimes also look into a mirror and see mine there. Itās a bit uncanny. Enjoy your fabulous jacket 
@zzz Missed your whole week yesterday. Congrats 
@Climbin Hey friend 
Insomnia and the mind circus in the night are really exhausting. I donāt sleep well right now as well. I wake up several times in the night with anxiety or panic. What helps me is to put on a relaxing guided meditation from Insight Timer. Maybe this can help you through the night too.
@Lastry Congratulations on making it through the worst of your illness without reaching for your DOC. That is a huge step. Iām glad to hear you are getting better. Hugs and care 
@Philipwithonel Way to go with recognizing your feelings of frustration and deciding to work on it. Thatās where all the work starts. Well done
@Dirk Good job on the house cleaning challenge 
@JP123 Thanks for sharing this wonderful experience with your sister with us. Sounds like you had some really quality time there.
@Rookie Great job on two months! Congratulations 
@Noshame Congrats on 7 months. You are rocking it!
379 sugar
243 UPF
117 gluten
117 dairy
53 mindful eating
One day at a time is my current approach to my health situation. My partner is being a great help, doing all the errands, providing emotional support, etc. I hope I can make it today into the city to get the much needed compression garments fitted.
Otherwise Iāll be taking it easy and trying to get some light stuff done.
Todayās picture are some intersting stone formation from my last geologically inspired hike.
Peace and love for life always 
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Thanks! 
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Thank my friend! I bougth a pizza and potato chips to celebrate a little bit. But at this age Iām not really interest of that anymore, Im happy to stay alone in my aparrment.
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You are never too old to celebrate your birthday, even if you do so on your own. It is the day you came into this world and you are worth celebrating. 
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Day 1447,
Started to read āDrop the rockā, about step 6 & 7. Interesting to see it resembles what is currently going on in my life and what Iām experiencing. Although I donāt know if interesting is the right word. It feels like insanity is all around me . Having a hard timeā¦it hurtsā¦
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Thank you, youāre absolutely right!
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Checking in 
Quick morning check-in while Iām sipping on my first coffee! 
My mamo and blood test result were all fine, the doc called me this morning.
Then Iāve just come out of the other doctors appointment, finally no MRI was made. The doc checked my should and diagnosed a āadhesive capsulitisā, not sure if this is the correct translation. Basically itās a stiff shoulder. Iāll have to do 20 sessions of rehab, one infiltration and in January am MRI. He said itās a long process, but Iāve been with this for 12 months nowā¦ it took 10 months to get attended by our social securityā¦ whatās a few months more or less! 
Today itās day 20 of no self destructive behavior! I still canāt believe that after +25 years, Iāve been eating normal the past 3 weeks (no binging and purging) and Iām totally fine with it. There were certainly times that I did not see any glimpse of light at the end of my ED tunnel, it was just a part of my daily existence.
In addition to that no drinking and smoking, itās early days, but I havenāt been this optimistic about the future in a long time. 
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