I used to give out alcohol too… yep, I literally used to hand my parents and brother poison as a X-mas gift on an anual basis! Not anymore of course. When I gave the 2 bottles to my colleagues, one said “well, just keep it at home, in case you need a give away or if you want to cook with alcohol”. I said “NO, I cannot have alcohol in my house, dangerous combination!!”. She looked at me a bit confused! 
Understandable if you don’t have an addiction issue!
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258 days sober
I had an anxious off day. It started with a terrible night’s sleep then woke up anxious and with a terrible headache. I ended up canceling a meeting for this afternoon just out of being way too tired and out of it. I ended up taking a paracetamol hoping to get rid of the headache but it didn’t help much. Just one of those off days. I’m glad I stayed in and took it easy.
I’m laying down early and hoping to just have a good sleep.
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There’s a big number of online smart meetings worldwide. You can join any you’d like. I never have. My go to group recently has been Buddhist recovery (there’s Dharma and Refuge Recovery, over here there’s an in person Dharma meet once a week I have attended for a while. No idea how you look at Buddhism, but the meetings are very pragmatic, non-dogmatic and non-judgemental. Made me feel right at home. And there’s tons of online meetings as well.
And screw society’s attitude towards drinking ( I know that ain’t easy). We do this for us. 
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Day 399. Im doing good, excited for my girls to come tomorrow so we can open presents. Work is ehhh, coworkers tagged me in a secret santa thing for work on our rovers. I politely just responded plz nobody worry about me, i would like to not participate and left the chat…idk why this bugs me but i seen someone who said they are sober for 2 years drinking a twisted tea on facebook. Their post had 100s of liked and congratulations. All i can think to myself is and how r u sober? Idk why it bugs me, maybe bc it sets a false sense of what sobriety is for others? I really try not to judge bc lets face it everyones sobering up or being in recovery looks different. But idk, for some reason i really want to iust comment and say you realize alcohol is a drug right? Lol. Idk. Thats the whole check your ego and dont take others invetory i need to work on. Much love
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Congratulations Julia! - it’s the happiest feeling to be free. Not just alcohol, but all the crap that comes with it. It holds us back in myriad ways. We don’t see it when we’re in it. Glad I stepped off the effing wheel. Like you, sobriety made it possible for me to get a better education and job skills. And buy my own home. And be able to retire and travel. It has done so much for me. 
I remember my first apartment on my own after getting sober and working for a while. I was living with people I didn’t particularly want to live with… and later that incredible feeling when I swung the front door open to my very own beige rental for the first time. To me it was a palace because I was free. A cat, a table, a sofa, food in the fridge, an old tv and a tiny live Christmas tree from the grocery store with lights on it. I was so happy. It was more than enough. And it only got better from there ! Thank you for sharing your joy with us. 
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Congratulations on your 110 days and your new place
So very happy for you 
. Keep shining bright my friend
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Day 8 or 9 i think. Last sunday i think i felt sick and didnt drink, and monday was a little more intentional.
Feeling resentful. And like i need to read a book.
Im addicted to the most pointless phone game to ever exist. I have responsibilities and keep falling through. Im Not A Reliable Person. Idk what to do with that at 31.
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Good for you Julia that is awesome! 
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@Minatasha your sober time is impressive – great work on 1+ week of sobriety 
The addiction really does take so much from us and leaves us feeling worthless and full of resentful. You should be proud of yourself and how far you have come. You will feel like exhausted and unwell as your body detoxes. It is so worth it friend – keep pushing through and you will get your motivation, strength and zest for life back.
I was addicted to games on my phone for the first two months of sobriety and then I found this community and all the threads here have helped me stay on the sober path. You do what you need to do to lay your head on the bed sober. This is a win!! You have 8 - 9 days of win and that is remarkable!!
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Rock on with your bad self Peter! 
Absolutely amazing job with your 6 years of sobriety!
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Wednesday work afternoon check in.
Life is beautiful, and challenging.
Today I put a note in my calendar for next November to book a day off work in the week before Christmas 2025 to wrap Christmas presents, run errands, prep for that set of parties close to it, etc.
This year I’ll have to wrap presents after 9PM on a work night because that’s the only time I’m not booked up.
Party on (soberly!)
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Congratulations!!
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Checking in on Day 107, much love TS family! 
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Im struggling today. I see my peer support later today and I’m very grateful for that bc I need someone to talk to. I’m fatigued, im struggling with the idea that I need a job but am absolutely terrified to work again (it’s been years). Im afraid to backslide if I do happen to get a job. There’s so much pressure (from myself) to stay employed, make money, and support myself. I’m afraid that my self harm may increase and I feel like perhaps due to these fears, I’m possibly not ready. However, if I continue to avoid getting a job it will never get easier, I fact the longer I go without being employed, that much harder it will become when I finally get a job. That’s why I keep going in circles with this decision. It’s a vicious cycle and I want to get through this hump. It’s so hard and I’m a little frustrated with myself. Idk what the right decision is.
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Thisnos exactly how I feel 
. Even though its not the biggest deal for most but for me it feels like a huge relief. Im almost scared that its not real. Its something i have been urning for , for a very long while. My own SAFE place. With my own vibe. Im happy Im content and Im sober. THIS is what its about.
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Yasssss 
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Yay, this is so exciting and inspirational! So happy for you!
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Thanks Jazzy! How did you know I am a fan of the Misfits?!
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Huge congrats Petr!!! Six years is awesome!
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