I felt very solid in the meeting today. I got to hear and learn everything thwt we have, and the challenges going forward and the choices ahead. I feel confident we are making the best decision for my sister and her sweet son, and hopefully this will be resolved soon. I am so very grateful to our team of DA’s and the lead detective on my sisters case who have poured their blood sweat and tears into this. I am so grateful for my bestfriend who came, and who was able to see what I see and hear what they had to say, so she could understand as I do. I spoke to my mother and father after, barring any evidence I could not disclose or witness testimony I needed to keep private, and appreciate their deep trust in me to guide our family through this. Im grateful for my sister and her life, and the strength and love she has left in my heart.
I will say a prayer tonight and hopefully not fight too much with the bed. I know this is not over yet, I just ask Lord for not another earthshattering disappointment and some closure to the trial. Some finality in the decision making process so we can move forward. While there is no real closure when you lose someone like this, I would like to close this chapter and have a concrete understanding of what justice my sister will legally recieve.
I love you Britt, my Helio Basinoo, forever and always. Xoxo.
Stay sober and sane my friends and thanks for being by me in such a difficult time xo.
@Rockstar24777 how’s it going putting more self care into your days? I’ve been working on getting back to yoga, playing my piano, reading (frustratingly though i finished my book), and journaling more. I’m hopeful that all this will help diffuse some of the stress from work. Is your situation looking up at all?
Checking in on day 116. Exhausted and worried about tomorrow. Goodnight yall.
487 days
Start of nightshift, got to work and everyone is out so no one for me to relieve just yet until they get back from wherever they’re at. Just chilling for now while I can.
First day of really wintery weather. Not cold but windy and raining.
Got to the gym this morning and did a little extra, then home for a nap before it was school run and off to work.
@Noshame I meant to congratulate you yesterday Well done on 201 days THC free Proud of your progress, man
@JazzyS Yeah, it’s creepy, but it’s also made me curious who pays the water/electricity down there It’s directly below my apartment and the guy who uses it lives 2 floors above, across the building. Idk what a couple switches in my fusebox control, so the electric company said to turn them all off and test them 1×1 and keep the useless ones off. Someone might be pissed, but not as pissed as me if I find out I’ve been paying that for the past 7 years And if that is the case, time to talk to the water company.
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So my daughter’s been sick since Friday. Mostly nose stuff, but her temp was 99.6°. Then normal Sat/Sun, and even tho I told my ex to take it easy with her, they went out walking in the rain Whatever. He’s exhausting all around. Yesterday morning she wanted to take her temp before school bc she felt feverish. The thermometer said 37° (idk how it changed to Celsius, so had to convert to know that’s normal ) She told me she felt worse at school and saw the nurse. Her temp was 99.7° and the nurse said “You’re fine, go back to class.” Didn’t call or nothing Does that sound normal? Her last school sent her home for .3° higher and didn’t let her return for 48 hours! Idk, maybe I’m seeing it worse bc I already despise this school Anyway, her ear’s stuffy now and I hope it doesn’t get infected again Hoping sleep heals.
We had dinner, followed by games at my folks for my bro’s birthday (which was yesterday). He actually cooked and it was good Didn’t know he could Anyway. Long day. Hitting the hay. Have a great 24!
Morning check in (possibly the only check in but I could change my mind)
Day 58 1/2
I have a lot to do but don’t feel like doing any of it. I want to just stay in bed and be lazy. The weather’s good. I can hear the birds, finally. I saw a cute one the other day but camera zoom couldn’t catch it. I’m thinking of buying a bicycle. I used to ride everywhere on my bike a million years ago. I’ll try to make the day as productive as I can. ODAAT.
Had a good night. Now let’s work. I’m going to make today as good as I can and expect the same of all of you friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love.
@Soli Do! A bike gives so much (healthy) freedom. Have a good day friend.
Good morning.
Trying some mindfulness podcasts due to some anxiety creepiest in. Its actually not sobriety related but something else i have coming up. Im finding it useful but takes a little practice. Ill pursue it a little more and see how it goes.
I place a lot of value on happiness and a calm outlook so I’m going to put some work into it.
Day 251 dry
Im currently working full time and trying to do an MA, but i am just not enjoying it…so i may leave it. I have a tendency to take too much on…and then overwhelm myself…so i need to jusr find a good pace
Other than odd days where i feel like a drink,or situation i find stressful, im generally ok…
I worked from home today so I could take Cori to the vet for her ultrasound. All of this is costing an arm and a leg but at least we have some answers now. She most likely had pancreatitis but everything looks good other than that. And the antibiotics are working. Her liver ALT level has come down to about a half of what it was. So she will be on a longer course of antibiotics and then have another follow up in 2 weeks.
A lot of work time today was spent waiting for IT to install a program and the installation kept failing. Work is a little slow right now but there is some stuff I can start working on tomorrow.
Hello friends. I’m back. The last time I posted here was back in October and I never should have left. I was doing so good then. I’m not proud to say but I’m checking in today on day 3. I wish I could have checked in sooner (days 1 and 2) but I was in the hospital going through the scariest withdrawals/detox. I’m very grateful to be home resting now. I’m very thankful to be alive. I’m feeling safe and have a good support system and plan in place moving forward. I’m also excited to be a part of this community here again as you were all so incredibly helpful last time. Thank you for taking me back
It’s good to see you. And congrats on day 3. It’s one day at a time for all of us, and it’s strength in numbers. Glad to have you back with us. Let’s do this!
Checking in. 22 AF, 6 weed free. My first night in my new apartment went well, I slept really well except I had to once change a t-shirt because I’m still going through weed withdrawals and detox, so I sweat a during night. But that will pass. Today’s again a sunny and warm day, so I’m planning to do two nature walks today. Nothing else to report at the moment. Now I’m drinking coffee and read threads in here. Have a great 24 everyone!
Night was ok, morning meeting was good. Want to work further on my design. Had a very good session yesterday with the support of a ChatAI. The movers will be here in a few, so a bit of excitement here. Though I won’t have too much to do with that. Some Yoga in the afternoon, and a parents evening later.
Hey good morning all.
Day 45 (cant believe it)
Feeling tired but ok. Think its because the clocks went forward. I never noticed it befoe as i was permanently tired for 30+ years i just never knew it.
Another work day, finish at half 3 and so looking forward to getting out with Alfie for an hour.
I have a book to read today, big panda and tiny dragon so thats something to relax with later.
Hope you all have a good day today.
Photo is from yesterday afternoons walk.
Early check in on Day 97.
Slept well but I’m awake before my alarm. Going to get up and caffeinate. Another day at work today and another lunch of making calls. Hope everyone has a great day today . Stay safe and sober everyone
Well done on 201 days THC free 
Proud of your progress, man 
It’s directly below my apartment and the guy who uses it lives 2 floors above, across the building. Idk what a couple switches in my fusebox control, so the electric company said to turn them all off and test them 1×1 and keep the useless ones off. Someone might be pissed, but not as pissed as me if I find out I’ve been paying that for the past 7 years 
And if that is the case, time to talk to the water company.
Whatever. He’s exhausting all around. Yesterday morning she wanted to take her temp before school bc she felt feverish. The thermometer said 37° 
(idk how it changed to Celsius, so had to convert to know that’s normal 
Hoping sleep heals.
Didn’t know he could 
