Checking in during the late afternoon on day
704 no alcohol
213 no form of marijuana
334 nic free
I want life to be easier
I need to accept life on life’s terms
That’s what came to me during the last online aa meeting
im just going to get to online meetings
Day 78
Feeling normal. How weird is that?
Not drinking today.
-Solar
Thank you for this advice, the more the merrier I say! I am doing some reading especially on acceptance which is helpful
Much love
Day 12 sober. A good day. Palm Sunday. Present, calm, prayerful
Day 15 sober.
Gym, family, friends, good food… some chores… sunshine.
A good day! Ready for Monday tomorrow
Checking in on day 128
I drove home from vacation today. I’ve got that Sunday Sadness in anticipation of another difficult week. I’ve been thinking of alcohol a lot, cringing often, craving it emotionally (rarely). I sometimes miss the days when i was enough of a mess that i didnt care what happened to me. But mostly I’m grateful to be far away from those days and from my last drink. I hope everyone is having an okay day.
Thinking of you today 
Checking in on day 628.
Thinking of you Trey @TS66
Checking in on day 14: Two weeks baby!!! I did something today I should have done a while ago. I poured all the alcohol in my house down the sink. At first it felt really good, but by the end I’d be lying if I said I didn’t get a little sad. No cravings, just reminiscing on good times I used to be able to have before it became a problem. I also spoke at AA today for the first time 
Feeling very grateful for a productive, refreshing, sober weekend 
Checking in on day 108. Had a good day off from work today. Was up early to take the dogs out. Drank my weight in coffee while reading before anyone else got up. Bit of tidying, took my younger daughter to swimming lessons then got groceries and spent some time out in the sunshine. Made some beef patties & grilled up burgers for dinner . Back in my sweats and will probably do some more reading to finish the night off with. Hope everyone has had a good sober day and I’ll see you all here tomorrow. Stay safe and sober everyone
@sarahbear Congrats on your 40 days! So grateful you realized the cravings are fleeting and do pass. Our minds try to romanticize our addiction and therefore make us feel remorse for being sober. BUT we know that we are better off without it. Grateful that you laid another sober head on the pillow. That is a WIN! Keep up the amazing work.
@marit Appreciate you 
The meditation did help SO lovely to see Flynn. Glad he is doing well. Glad you are doing so well and feeling so great in your sobriety!
@sober26 Thanks friend. Did sleep – not so restful but it’s a start. Don’t focus on having hit the milestone before but rather that you are doing it now and you are focused / determined in your recovery. So excited to be celebrating 1 week with you tomorrow!
@soberoskar How are you feeling since you wrote this post? The initial withdrawal is first step and then we do tend to deal with PAWS syndrome that can come and go for up to 2 years. Sorry you are dealing with it but do know that it will pass. I see Rob also gave you same advice – I learned about it through this forum as well and was grateful for someone pointing it out as I thought I was going crazy having withdrawals so far into my sobriety LOL
@cr84 Sorry that you are sick! Hope you get some rest and fluids and feel better soon
@climbin Congrats on your new job. It takes time to adjust to new work / dynamics and systems. I am sure you will do great
I did find that myself when I tried to go back and take some Electric engineering courses over a decade after I graduated. I found it hard to focus and find the motivation to keep at it. You are doing awesome by just getting back into school and working on your course!
Grief is funny that way. Be proud of yourself for working through this trauma and for doing so sober. Proud of you!
@madds Sorry for the cravings and thoughts. They do get intense at times. Hope the upcoming week is calmer than you anticipate. 128 days and going strong 
@justkaitlin YEAH to 2 weeks! WOW – that is an awesome move- proud of you for pouring out that alcohol. Congrats on getting to the meetings and speaking up today. The support will be great in your journey. Don’t let the addiction fill your head with happy feelings about drinking – those are lies. You are much better for staying sober and working on your recovery!
Checking in on Sunday night
844 days free of alcohol and weed
1259 days free of cigarettes
Woke up not feeling hot so I did get an extra ½ hour in. Then just laid in bed watching tv as I was not feeling great enough or strong enough to do much else. I finally did make it to the gym for a swim and was able to do a mini 2 mile walk. Now back to allowing myself to veg out.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
Day 7 when I wake up.
Still in the midst of some withdrawals but it is what it is.
Have a good night my sober friends.
Hello everyone. Happy Sunday.
I had a few drinks last night, I am back to day 1 today. That sucks.
I have decided to go back to AA meetings. I will be looking to go to a group near home tomorrow. I wasnt totally sure if I wanted to come back but it feels right to do it. Alcohol is the biggest obstacle in my life at this point and makes me jump in my heart of joy to imagine a life without it.
When I think about a life without drinking I meanly think about other people, something like “when I see my brother again we will have some beers”, and its really strange to see this absurdity, I just want to hug my brother and hang with him, its my alcoholic mind telling me this. I am tired of seeing life thru alcohol. Its non sense. Its such a powerful drug. I have to get help otherwise it would be too difficult to achieve it.
This is me going full honest.
Its a perfect time in my life to do it.
Its time.
Have a good day everyone. Odaat.
Hope you enjoy your four days off and have a good time with your folks on Tuesday! I’m sure you feel the same way like the best part is right now before you know it it’s going to be the morning of going back to work. But at the same time these days for me I almost like working I just occasionally need some days off to rest mentally and physically. I’ll probably be ready to get back to my routine sooner than four days but we’ll see
Day 28: Slept pretty well last night. Had breakfast with my daughter and then watched the master’s. Felt a little down today, issues with my son bothering me. Doing my best to let the situation work itself out. I can only control what i can control.
Had a good 45 minute therapy ride on my Peloton, that always helps. Feeling better heading to bed.
One day at a time.
This is a great mindset to go into AA with; you want to stop drinking but you cant on your own. AA has gotten me to a fairly easy 41 days because I was ready to fully give up, give in, and do exactly what they said. If I had fully given in the first time, I would have more like 80 days right now, so I encourage you not to make the same mistake wishing you the best at your meeting
Checking in Sunday night, im pretty tired but it was a good day so I dont mind too much. I had some cravings when I got home probably because it was sunny (weird alcoholic mind things?!) Called my sponsor and texted some other AA gals, then had to just put on pajamas and not leave the house again. Read a good book and meditated, then zoned out with a little TV.
Have a great start to a sober week everyone 
Thank you Sarah!. This means a lot, I trully mean it. And congratulations for going to groups and for working on your sobriety.
I used to go a few years ago, 8 to be exactly. AA saved my life while I was going thru a dark period. Then I moved to another country and try to find another group that I liked but I couldn’t find it and because I was doing okey I stopped looking. Eventually I started to have a couple beers and you know, alcohol came back, not as it was during the dark days thanks god but something happened inside me from those early AA days, as I got to understand this alcoholic desease and thru all this years I have being paying lots of attention to me and others behavior related to alcohol. Is like a genie out of the bottle, I cant put it back again.
Now I can see this desease clearly and what it does to us humans and our society and even knowing this I couldnt manage to stay away only by myself. Alcoholism has so many layers that even withouy drinking I can feel the effects. One thing is not to drink and another is to be sober. I know that. This is my time to sober up. To be fully honest with myself.
I have read must AA books, the main ones. And everything, and I mean everything has happened to me as an alcoholic. Its crazy how it leads to same roads. Here or there, geographic escape doesnt work. You pick up one beer and just wait to see how its progression begins. The only thing that works its no to drink. And doing it alone is too difficult, and in secret it is even more.
It is a desease and it is killing me inside slowly. I have to stopped now before it gets worse or something really bad happen. I should never forget again that I am sick. Never.
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Had a very nice meet yesterday with @SoberWalker and @Lola. Love my TS peeps and meets. Thanks Lola for showing us around your town and making me feel right at home with the big crowds there 
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Today it’s back to work. That’s fine. A normal work week ahead. One day at a time. And tonight my writing class. Looking forward to that. Going to make today as good a day as I can and I expect the same from you all. Sober and clean or nothing would come of it. Love from yesterday’s Haarlem.
I am sorry for your lost. May she rest in peace and the best for you during this hard times.
