Checking in day 2031.
Had a few days sick with flu.
Being immunocompromised means its pretty rough.
Trying to rest & recover.
Stay safe and sober peeps 
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Im sooooo happy u have a nice quiet place to live in 
I always felt awful for u when u had to deal with all that noise and trouble before. Hope ur depression and anxiety lift a bit too. Congratulations on day 6
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Im not feeling 100% right now. Its a combination of mental and physical. I woke up sooo tired even tho i slept well last night. I got my son on the bus and then i forced myself to go to the gym. It was leg day of course and i did the best i could. Had to run home afterwards to accept a delivery and then back out again to the mall to pick up something for my son for Easter. Im finally home now and doing some cleaning. I havent eaten yet today and its 1pm. This medication im on reduces my appetite significantly and so im having to force myself to eat half the time. Will eat shortly tho as i know my body needs fuel.
Im mentally in a funk bcuz my husband called me while i was at the gym and there was this guy grunting amd groaning lifting weights next to me. My husband asked what the noise was and i told him that it was someone next to me working out. But that triggered me alot. It ruined my whole workout and put me in a mental funk. I was worried about what he was thinking as I didnt want him to think that i was cheating on him or something. I believe this worry and whatnot stems from my past relationship. My ex used to think I was constantly cheating on him (which i wasnt), questioning me about where i was at and what i was doing etc. My husband doesnt question my whereabouts or what im doing but that question he asked me today, threw me for a loop. I didnt realize how much my past abusive relationship effected me. I thought i was over all that as its been like 15 years. But certain things still trigger me. Anyway thanks for letting me vent it out.
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Thank you 
sometimes the quiet almost puts me in a trance because I’m not used to it! I’m so grateful and have a new appreciation for my environment.
I know that feels to have something happen (even something small) and it can change/throw off my entire mood. Also, I can relate to things in the past still creeping up. Sometimes I think about things that happened decades ago and it can still feel like it just happened. I think that is an element of PTSD. Great job making it to the gym even though you were tired 
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Thank you for your kind words… Hopefully you are in double digits today…
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Congrats on 60 days, Trey! I can’t remember if you go to meetings. Will you be getting a token anywhere?
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Checking in! 
I’m kicking off my Easter short break of 5 days!
I have some plans made already, me being quite anti social, having plans to me meet with 3 different persons on 3 different occasions is not too bad! Working hard on socializing more! 
Did a short workout after work, and now I’m just about to go to bed. 
The day wasn’t that bad! Today I’m hitting 5 months AF and smoke free!
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Let me know what you think!!
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@tailee17 day 15 here. thank you for all the support. It’s really uplifting when you are struggling so much at the beginning. you and @JazzyS make me smile and fight so many times
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No. I am going to a grief support group tomorrow. Last time, i was the only one who showed up.
To be honest, my sobriety isn’t nearly as difficult as dealing with my wife’s death. I’m not taking it for granted, but the idea of drinking is so far down the list its not funny.
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Checking in on day 631.
@JazzyS I’m glad your hair turned out good 
I made it to work but have been napping all evening. Seriously thinking I have to go back to part time work. I’m not sure I can afford it, but I don’t think my health can afford me not to 
@Leveller congratulations on 60 days and @Hidden congratulations on 30 days:partying_face:
@MrMoustache I hope your sleep is better tonight 
Sending hugs @Mischa84 
you are doing an amazing job and are an amazing sober mama 
3 young boys is a lot to handle every day, especially without support at home. We got you here though, come and vent whenever you need.
Nearly to the long Easter weekend…my 15 year old still wants to do an Easter egg hunt 
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Thankyou, well done on your 631 
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Checking in on day 111.
Today was a very frustrating day at work . Came home fed the family and stayed sober for another day. Don’t have much else to say right now. Going to try to make the most of the few hours I have before bed. Hope you have all had a good sober day.
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Checking in. It was a long day in court. There were 15 statements read by victims describing the impact, and a lot of legal back and forth. It was very long but we had a very big turn out for my sister, we had to be moved to a larger court room and I think there were about 60 people there if not more. Our family and my sisters friends were so well represented, my sisters face and story is all over the news. I am exhausted, but I am proud. Hubby and I are on our way home, to get the kids from their grandparents tomorrow. I appreciate being sober through this and hope everyone on here is doing well life is not always easy, but we can do this. Xo.
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@Catmama23 Grateful for the quiet apartment 
Glad you are here with us and tomorrow is 1 week! Sorry for your depression and anxiety – sending you hugs my friend. ODAAT
@littlemissl Sorry you have been sick friend. sending healing vibes – hope you feel better soon 
@butterflymoonwoman The triggers do just jump up at you out of the blue. I’m sorry that the situation got to you today. Sorry friend. Hope you are feeling better since you posted Hope you did get some fuel. Hard on your body to workout without it.
Way to go friend! You are absolutely crushing it 
@bomdhil Congrats on your 15 days friend. Glad to see you doing well and sharing your support
@dilettante Glad you napped friend. Part time may be best for now until you can get your energy back Sending you strength and love my friend. Hope whatever you decide works out for you
@canadiangirl Way to go with your triple 1’s! Sorry for the hard day. A huge feat to get your head on a sober pillow tonight. Proud of you! ODAAT
@mira_d so happy to hear of it being a good day in court. Much love to you friend
Checking in on Wednesday evening
847 days free of alcohol and weed
1262 days free of cigarettes
Been a long day. Got a few things done but not nearly all that I needed. It ok! I’m sober and I got through the day with a positive attitude.
Ready for sleep - hoping to be in bed soon. Just want to finish this episode of Your Honor - season1 was sooo good - this season seems like it was just put together for the viewers but not for the story. LOL
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening -sending you all so much love
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Day 31: Thank you to everyone who congratulated me on 30 days, means a lot.
Day 31 was a typical day bootcamp, work, AA meeting, more work and then my Peloton workout.
Feeling the drain of not getting wnough sleep so trying to get to bed earlier. I don’t know why every time my head hits the pillow my brain switches into party mode!
One more night! 
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Committed to either post or journal in this App everyday through the end of May, and then somehow completely spaced it yesterday. So here I am two days later and figuring out I already missed a day. Dang ADHD!
S’ok! Don’t sweat the small stuff, right? I’m still clean and sober and that’s what matters.
Good, although boring days the past few days. Just not a lot going on at work right now. Also, I’m trying to find a different job and that always takes the wind out of my sails. Just keep learning more and more about myself through therapy and self reflection. And the more I learn and figure out the more I seem to take it more easy on myself. I’ve expected so much out of myself forever now and always made sure (subconsciously) that I figured out a way to self-sabotage. That was all just part from f the cycle. Now that I see that I am getting better of identifying when it happens. Once identified I am getting better at breaking the cycle. I’m finding it takes a lot of dedication and practice, and major patience with myself when I miss something, just forget altogether, or don’t pay proper attention due to not working as hard on my recovery as I should.
What I’m finding to be so very true is that recovery is more than just staying clean, it’s recovering your past. Getting better, figuring stuff out, breaking cycles, things like that. It’s all part of sobriety. And I kinda dig it!
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Some hard days at work. For the first time it made me wonder if I’m in the right place there. Then again I still had some really good meetups and talks there too. Four days off starting tomorrow. Will make it through today as well. My night was OK, even though I woke up lots and dreamed a lot too. I feel more rested than yesterday anyway.
Let’s have as good a day as we all can friends. And let’s make today sober and clean or nothing will come of it. We’re in this together. Love.
@Butterflymoonwoman Sorry for the triggering stuff happening. I had something similar happen with an email from a manager, triggered a lot of negative memories and emotions for me. We’re dealing with stuff. We’re working on it. And we’re making progress. One day at a time. Big hugs friend
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Great photo mno. Its the same guy as before only without his turban! 
Enjoy your 4 days mini break away from work
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@Mischa84 Here’s some breaths of fresh air and some love for you.
You are a wonderful, wonderful mother …. …. with three little boys!
Your reaction to all the situation is normal. I’m sorry that you can’t have more time to yourself and more time to get out and go for a run for the 30 minutes or 45 minutes that it takes.
I wish that could be put into the household calendar.
In not too many years the boys can go running with you.
Glad you know that drinking really isn’t the answer. It’s really not and I’m sorry you don’t have the family support around.
ODAAT.
Proud of you for all YOUR accomplishments and love the togetherness that you have with the boys.
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