Checking in daily to maintain focus #77

[Dilettante]

Checking in on day 712.
Congratulations @Mischa84 on 2 years that is awesome and I look forward to joining you there soon

I’ve not checked in for a bit. I’ve started counselling and geeeeeeeeeeeeez louise…it’s bringing up a lot of stuff. I’ve only done two sessions but it has my head in a swirly mess. Lots of wacky dreams and daytime flashbacks and using dreams and nightmares and big emotions and feelings hopefully it will all be worth it and will help me to come to terms with my past, allowing me to keep building a better future.
Sending love to everyone here

[Dazercat]

Dang. I missed your 2 years by 6 days
Congratulations Mischa

[JazzyS]

YEAH! 7 month milestone is amazing – Woke up singing eh? I totally love that! Enjoy your horror film - just watched 28 years later. Thought it was decent enough.

[SolarEclipse]

Congrats on the number 7 Madds! You are doing amazing things.

[SolarEclipse]

Day 77
Good day all. I am so glad I picked sobriety this past week.
Get connected , stay connected.
-Solar

[CanadianGirl]

Checking in on day 192.
My heads a little messy these days so just trying to keep myself busy and focused on staying sober. Mission accomplished today as I’ll be hitting the pillow sober in a little while. Hope you have all had a good weekend. Stay safe and sober everyone

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Day 1239
I stayed home today from work. Kind of took a mental health day which also gave me the opportunity to get A LOT done! I feel better now that everything is complete. I went to Walmart for groceries first thing. Came home to put everything away and then did a full sink of dishes. Did 3 loads of laundry which included the bedding. Bathed my son. And now i just have to make the beds and put my son to sleep. I feel accomplished for sure!

Tomorrow i am DETERMINED to stick to my routine. I know it can be done. I am choosing to not lay around all day. Im excited about tomorrow mornings coffee also! I bought some Hazlenut syrup, some ground espresso, and some oatmilk today to make a copycat drink from Starbucks. So hopefully that turns out.

Grateful to be here. Grateful to be clean and sober and free! Hope everyone has a fantastic evening!

[Butterflymoonwoman]

So glad today was better for you!!! And HUGE congratulations on 7 months! Im really excited for u

[mxelle]

The difficulty in wanting to engage with efforts to be sober from weed makes me also see the urgency in stopping it, and finding a way to stop using. The narratives, the stories that fuel the addiction are hard to access; I don’t f*n know sometimes what is driving me to use weed. There are ones I know I struggle with (I need it. It’s not that bad. It’s therapeutic), but then I think it’s also beyond these because it feels… somewhere else.

Welcoming my 43nd year, the 43rd step in life, was amazing. The day was incredible. I will only tell that at the end of the day, I saw fireflies. They are on a decline , although not extinct yet. I was cycling at night, and saw the lights. At first I wondered if i was delusional and saw things, because we all know the repertoire of physical problems gets larger as we age. Maybe my eyes were shutting down, who knows . But no, I saw a few at the same time, and consistently. I felt such hope .

Today I know I need to get into a mode to switch gears. The first step is to clean and organize my room, which I’m procrastinating by writing this post. I think the post is important too. I feel lighter and wanted to share where I am. I have to refocus on two things, and let go or disengage from other areas. Always not easy, but can feel refreshing, which it does.

The ultimate fresh move, would be to stop using weed. I have to find a way to continue the work I’m doing on my fear… Oh yeah, I started climbing! Heights is really difficult for me, it makes me freeze and shut down, but I started climbing and working through the fear. I find this has helped me find more security with myself on a day to day, working through anxiety and fear. I think what I’m seeking, and why I use weed, is to feel safe & grounded.

Alright, this is a long post, might delete later. Thank you for reading my thoughts tonight, post birthday. Thank you for your wishes, I love wishes, but not songs. NO birthday singing.

[sober26]

Day 4 by the time I wake up tomorrow.

Still feeling withdrawals or maybe it’s just that I’m exhausted and about to go to bed.

It was a very busy day today.

Back at my regular day job tomorrow.

I can’t wait to be a few more weeks sober from now and much better.
Day 4 here I come.

[StacyAnn]

Late night check in. Sober. Tired. Early morning tomorrow. Mediation with the ex on Wednesday… Anxiety has been getting the better of me, least I remembered to take my med for it when I got home. Definitely doing better now. Man was I moody.

[Dazercat]

Congrats on the 7 months sober Madds
That’s amazing work right there!

[Kareness]

8.5+ years
I slept until 9:30 this morning, super late for me. I went to my womens’ meeting in the park and am just not feeling it there any more. I was away from it for a month and when I came back it seemed like a lot had changed. It might be time to move on to another meeting. I can’t stand one of the new people and can’t believe that I am being so judgemental of her. Maybe it is a symptom of it being time to move on. That has been my main meeting for years, though, so it’s not easy to leave. We shall see. Too bad you can’t just mute somebody irl lol.

Yesterday I went with my dad to look at cars. That was fun. He ended up getting a new one. And then we went out to lunch with my mom.

Hope everyone has a happy and sober evening/day.

[SarahBear]

Checking into civilization after a few days vacation with my best friend. She brought stuff to make mocktails and we had a great view of Mount Saint Helens from the cabin we rented. Got to see some decent fireworks on the 4th as well. Back to reality now, but feeling refreshed and ready to continue my sobriety program. Feeling blessed to have an experience like that and to remember all of it, not having to worry about who would drive after a couple drinks or getting paranoid.

Wishing all of you the best

[Just_Laura]

872

Feeling better today. More energy. I’m tired now, but that’s how it should be. Gonna rest up for a long and leisurely day at the pool tomorrow Odaat

[TatteredLace]

I’m not sure I’m doing this right. What do I click to add to the thread? I’m new. My name is Audrey and I’m on day 4. I spent 24 hours in the hospital parking lot Thursday night after a relapse, and job loss that meant a lot to me. Ended with mental health crisis unit coming and talking me down. I’m 42 years old and staying at my Mom’s. She is being so supportive, thank God. I’ve been doing almost a meeting every day since the end of November. I can’t seem to get more than three weeks no matter what I do. I’m bound and determined damnit!! Stupid whippits. I just can’t believe the damage I’ve done to my life in one year. It’s astonishing. Support would be much appreciated

[MrFantastik]

Welcome Audrey. Good on you for sticking with it. I was in a constant cycle of relapse before I started posting daily,initially, on here. Sometimes multiple times a day.
You’ve clicked the post button at the end of someone else’s post which has “replied” to their post. If you look just under the last post in the thread there is a blue arrow/post button, use that for your own post to the thread.
Stay around, you’ll get the hang of it quickly

[Raspberry]

@Madds congrats on 7 months! ODAAT

[MrFantastik]

583 days
Family got back today and it was great to see them. Had to head out not long after they got back but home to cook dinner and hang out. Wifey is back at work tomorrow and its still school holidays so it’ll just be me and the kids tomorrow. Will try get a workout in and find something fun to do with them.
I still have about a week left on annual leave so wont be back to work till next Monday.

[TeaCosy]

@Butterflymoonwoman

I bought some Hazlenut syrup, some ground espresso, and some oatmilk today to make a copycat drink from Starbucks.

Oh, I’ll have one of those please oh I’d really like a nice coffee now!