Afternoon check-in day 65. Finishing up the last 2 mins of cardinals @ saints. Got some leg quaters outside on the grill. Its currently 87 degrees outside (wonderful temp in louisiana for this time) while also finishing up steelers @ jets. Both home teams lost opening game. Anyway, hope everyone is enjoying this lovely sunday
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Sunday Afternoon check in. Got a little over a month on this streak, and sober September is solidly intact.
Taking a few minutes in the eye of the hurricane right now. Got some friends coming over for a BBQ in 25 mins. Meal prep is done, and my daughter should be up from her nap soon.
Iām stressed about my lack of reset and unwind time today/this weekend/month/year.
I used to unwind with drinking. Glad Iām not doing that anymore, and Iām facing my challenges more thoroughly these days, even if Iām still a long way from a sustainable solution.
Take care of yourself.
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Howdy sober people! Iām a little late with this, 3 months late actually. My 5 year came and went and flew by. I never thought I would be able to pull this off for a year let alone 5 years. I feel a little fancy haha.
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The Happier app is awesome for meditation as well.
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Iām getting a little trip-anxiety about my business trip coming up this week. I always stress about to bring, what to wear, am I going to look okay, etc. and I am leaving super early in Tuesday morning. Iāll have to leave my house at around 4:30 a.m. It helps to get out my feelings here in this thread. And I will have to present at a meeting with the client on Wednesday. Iām sure it will all go fine. Today I went to a womenās meeting that was pretty good. Maybe I can do an online meeting from my hotel room on the trip. Hope everyone has a good day/evening.
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Monday morning check-in.
Finished up work on Friday so no work for a few months. Surgery on Thursday so a few quiet days to keep the blood pressure low.
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Good luck with your surgery, Seb. Weāll be thinking of you on Thursday!
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Evening check in on Day 11. Had a moment where I almost went to grab some sort of alcohol, like wine or coolers or something. I didnāt but man itās like I could taste it in my mouth. Dad is quite sick and went into the hospital today. Hoping to get some sort of results as we have yet to get a diagnosis yet. Been a bit of a stressful time. Tired in all ways. Anyways hereās to one more day.
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Love this!! Go on with your fancy self and againā¦so very happy for your 5 year milestone..
Keep up the amazing work 
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Much love friend. Glad you have some days to relax and prepare yourself for the surgery. We will be right with you friend 
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Oh man Iām so sorry to hear about your dad and that you still donāt have a diagnosis. Sending love and healing energy.
Way to not give into the urges. Stay strong friend
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Checking in.
Havenāt maintained any abstinence from pot for the last three weeks. Iāve been hanging out with a lot of old friends and Iām not sure I feel comfortable being completely sober around them.
I managed to stay AF despite one of the friend groups continuing to put away the alcohol liqke they still wanna pretend theyāre in college. The other group has one friend who is also AF so I feel safe there.
Struggling with the thought of needing to distance myself from my pot smoking friends until I can get clean from THC. Already feel like I need friends going through this divorce and I sorta feel like beggars canāt be choosers I guess.
Still 80 days free from porn but I do notice that more cravings pop up when Iām bring impulsive with food or thc.
To get back into the swing of things, Iām starting tomorrow morning with a short yoga session and gonna try to get back to the gym. My body does feel rested and my spirit feels like it needs the confidence boost I get from doing the difficult things. I want to get back to journaling and tracking my food intake. Hopeful that this will boost my accountability and get me back to a more mindful place.
Peace out, sober scouts!
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Checking in, one week since starting the journey of detaching from my addiction and bad habit.
The more space I get from the day I hit bottomā¦the more angry I get. The more hurt I am. The shock has worn off in a senseā¦
And now Iām bracing for the wave of emotions to hit me. I can feel it coming and I know I canāt escape it, Iām trying to prepare the best I can for this overwhelm. And try my hardest not to drown in negativity.
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Checking in because its 1670 days AF. Today would normally be a drowning in alcohol day because its my birthday. I would typically treat this day as an excuse to absolutely destroy myself with as much alcohol as possible. BUT today I honestly and wholeheartedly didnāt even think about drinking once! Went out for lunch and the table next to us were drinking and it didnāt even phase me!!! Just over 4.5 year alcohol free and I can truly say I am pleased with my recovery to this point and will continue to do what I need to stay solid on my feet. It truly is odaat. Some days, weeks months go by easy and some days, hours and seconds seem to be impossible. Recovery is a wicked crazy wild ride of ups and downs but today on my 45th birthday im on the up side!!
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Checking in day 42. No major concerns my resolve is holding well and the promises I made are still in place. I couldnāt add alcohol to the mix at the minute, Iām just too busy.. everyday seems lite thereās multiple things to do at once and although theyāre usually quite positive things such as getting some jobs done around to he house, family visiting or bringing my kids somewhere or other it feels like a never ending list. I just need to keep plugging away and all will come good.
Thankful that exhaustion both physical & mental along with the guilt, shame and all the other horrible things that come with binge drinking are not another ball I have to juggle right now.
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- Morning came early today! Off to early dawn spin class, which is only possible due to two days of rest after aching like a biatch and moaning lots. Iām blaming Fridays kettlebell class.
. On my third day with no NIC losenges at all! We are off to see The Roses tonight at the cinema, I love Olivia Colman 
Be good, be bad, be sexy ugly. 
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Huge congrats on 800 Days.
Sounds like you had a great day with your kids too
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@Ray_M_C_Laren I know I say it every year, but it still amazes me 
You were 10 days sober on the day I was born! Clearly that paperās gotten alot of use, but obviously it got the job done. It works if you work it 
@Moriah It does take consistent practice, but itās helped me immensely. Especially for falling asleep, when my mind tends to wander the most. Live in that moment, girl 
@Butterflymoonwoman Yeah, the poor kid 
We got him a card and all pitched in money. They have a prosthetic planned, so I hope all goes smoothly and heals quickly 
@john_connor1337 Congrats on 60 days! 
Iām with Dana on your progress. You came back differently this time, truly showing your efforts 
@CR84 So, I thought the same thing. Like, his irresponsible parents let him drive it or somethingā¦but maybe not 
Apparently in NY you have to be 18 to rent a truck, but only 16 to rent a trailer. For $14.95! That blew my mind 
Yet, if youāre under 25 and want to rent a car, you get hit with outrageous surcharges 
I think U-haul needs to rethink their requirements after this one.
@Leveller I always learn new stuff here 
Never heard of Lilt, but I see it was rebranded the day before I got sober (weird 
). We have Fanta here (which I assume is what it was), but Iāve never seen that flavor. I rarely drink pop, but this one sounds good and might have to look for it 
Great job on that week
@Girlinterrupted Nice to see you checking in with this amazing update 
Huge congrats on 5 years! 
@Zendoe Iāve been there. I broke down the first night, realizing it was finally over. Then felt peace in his absence bc Iād been living in his fantasy world for years, where everything was the way he said it was, no exception. When the reality of that hit me, the anger began (and stayed). All I felt was hatred 24/7 and it was paralyzing. He still had control, but only bc I gave him that position in my mind. I was still drinking tho, so idk how it goes sober. Probably wouldnātāve dragged on so long, since it all but disappeared once I quit (1Ā½ years later 
) Idk what youāve been thru or if any of this rings true, but you can get thru this It will get better
@Kev2 Happy Birthday! Sobriety is the best gift you can give yourself 
And the only thing you really need, bc nothing else matters without it. Glad you enjoyed your day 
@Mischa84 Congrats on 800 days! Iām so sorry to hear about your kitty 
Sending you strength and healing energy
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Day 807. Some bad dreams. Back at work today . I will try and take it easy today and catch up on things. I have alot going on and currently struggling to see the best way forward. It may take a few days to get back into the groove
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The moon is illuminating the trees so bright, I thought a light was on outside! And itās been out during the day almost every day this week, but on the afternoon of the eclipse?! 
Muscle soreness really kicked in around midnight, which makes sense, it being 24hrs after moving tables and chairs and everything else last night 
I didnāt do much today, but kept busy. My daughter had a friend over, so I got time to myself. Dyed my roots, along with some other self care, and got some cleaning done. I forgot it was the Billās home opener and drove her friend home 5 minutes before it started. The traffic was insane! I felt nervous driving bc of everything else thatās happened and couldnāt wait to get home, but it was a ghost town on the way back 
Odd to me. I donāt get football. Boring 
But I guess we won, so people will be happy tomorrow 
I hope to get more into the school schedule after this crazy long weekend. I gave up on tonight, but can nap tomorrow during school if necessary. I do love a guilt free nap Iām tired now, so itās about that time. Odaat 
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