Day 72 sober
Going great!! Had some friends over yesterday 
Today I got an important task done for work in time before the deadline, then just did gym. Gonna do a SMART Recovery meeting shortly, cleanup my place, etc 
My girlfriend got a new job, yay!!! She also has a follow-up interview with Chanel I believe
Seven Years is awesome! Congrats and keep on trekking along ā¦ .
@just_laura Oh man Iām sorry love. I had that for a few nights where I was so exhausted to stay awake and too exhausted to sleep. Hope you were able to get some sleep. Things being bad for a while ā is this the schedule at work? Is it your dad? Possibly the nation? Grateful you will not drink over it but do take care of yourself girl. Sending you love, calmness and hugs! Here if you need to chat
@mno WOW ā that is a beautiful capture ā I can almost hear and feel the sea! No need to apologize about not having a camera ā your pics are beautiful and will be linked to some beautiful memories 
@scorpn Big hugs to you my friend. 
I do wish that you were able to go home and feel that support and protection. That you were taken care of and given back some of what you put in every day. Your numbers are amazing. Grateful that you are able to find a healthy outlet in writing. We are here for you. Sending love and strength 
Much love to the both of you ā grateful you are staying positive. Sending more positive and loving vibes your way! Hope you get the results soon 
@lucalds YIPPE on 3 weeks! Keep up the amazing work. Glad the coffee came to the rescue today
@soberwalker 7??? WOWZERS Girl - I am so very happy to be here celebrating this with you today! Way to go Claudia 
What a wonderful way to celebrate your milestoneā¦ hope you were able to take some pics to share 
May blessings friend ā many more milestones to celebrate 
OOH ā how lovely ā thank you for sharing the pictures with us! YEAH I would not be able to stand on that glass plate LOL ā my hands are already sweating just looking at that depth
Made me laugh ā they know who is going to play with em so early in the morning 
wishing you the best of luck with your applications
@bomdhil Sorry about the blood pressure ā do some meditations and deep breathing. Possibly some yoga and a hot dark chocolate cocoa. Day 6 is amazing my friend ā 1 week tomorrow Allergies are a bit easier today. No anit-histamines as I have some trouble with them and most create worst side effects. Just gotta push on through.
@1in8billion Great to see you posting friend. SO very sorry about the rejection. It was not meant to be. Donāt loose hope ā you will find the right fit for you.
@von100 YEAH to 70 days! You are doing the hard things each and every day and you are gaining sober muscles! SO very happy and proud.
@cr84 Closing in on 1 month girl. SO happy for you. Hope the DND held up today and you were able to rest and get some normalcy back for yourself. Allergies are better today You are most welcome ā together we make this community the amazing place that it is
@marit Nothing crazy about it. Your pets are your family and it makes sense that you would take care of them. Grateful that you do love and care for them the way you do. So sorry to hear about your furball. Hope all goes smoothly with the surgery and she is on her way to recovery soon
@jms19 Boredom is a killer for sure ā it sucks us in and keeps us in the cycle. I had to switch up my life and even started deep cleaning to keep myself occupied. If you canāt leave the house then find ways to keep yourself busy indoors. Fill your time with whatever ā so many threads here for hobbies to give you some great ideas. This space was a great way for me to stay connected and distracted when I felt bored. You are not alone ā glad you are fighting for your sobriety ā glad to see you making the appointment and working on getting out of the destructive cycle. We got your back
@jesile How did you like the air fryer? I absolutely love ours. Have a toaster over / fryer combo and a stand alone air fryer. Definitely a game changer
@sticky WOOHOO double 5ās is amazing ā so good to see you checking in and doing so well! ODAAT
@butterflymoonwoman 1313 is awesome ā love the number! Sorry about the overnight. Grateful that it is not on the weekend ā way to look at the bright side. Sending you love and strength One moment at a time! Iām sorry that you are struggling my friend. Do hope that the gratitude helps. Hope the appointment goes well tomorrow. Think it is a good idea to get the blood work done. May also ask them to check hormone levels and the thyroid as well.
@christophe Write away friend. this is a safe space for all to let out the good, the rough and the yuck. Sorry about your 15 year old ā that age is hard and kids can be mean. Hope it passes soon. Grateful you are managing your emotions and staying the coarse. ODAAT
@seb You went through the long haul in waiting for this surgery and all the uncertainty. Now you are on the road to recovery. Here you just take it slow and steady with the ones who love you and you will be back to doing ALL the things you love. Glad you are enjoying pasta making time ā may want to share via pics with us on the foodie thread Hang tough my friend ā you are not alone and this time is gonna fly by.
Check in on Thursday evening
1002 days free of alcohol and weed
1417 days free of cigarettes
Was a good day overall. Took it slow and easy as I had a lot of crazy people / drivers to deal with and insane traffic back ups. Did not let that destroy my peace. Got a lot of work done.
Happy to learn that my tat guy gave me the ok to go swimming - will be going tomorrow Very excited LOL.
Glad I had a chance to catch up here - hope you are all well ā¦ wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day /evening - sending you all so much love
Hi guys
Just checking in to celebrate my 5th years sober 
This community has been of great support all along, from my first multiple attempts (50 days, 198 days, and relapse and relapses) to day 1830 today.
Stick around when it gets hard there is always some resources here.
Even if Iām less active these days I am truly grateful and thankful 
WOW - that is amazing! Keep up the amazing work Congrats on your 5 years of sobriety
2295
My last morning on the island already. Catching the ferry back to the mainland later. Asking myself could I live in a place like this, a small island with only 1200 islanders living here. I donāt think so. But who knows.
For now itās time to pack my stuff and go. Taking a couple of days and more bike, train and boat rides to go home. Sober and clean. Love from Vlieland.
Omg! Jazz! 
I missed your 1000 milestone 
but Iām so happy to be here alongside you you! Youāre such an inspiration! 
Welcome to the quadruple digits club
@SoberWalker Congratulations on 7 years Claudia! 
Youāve been an inspiration to me from day 1 
Thank you for sharing your journey with us 
Never that, so Iām grateful there I get that itās a shitty world out there, but unless itās outside my front door, no reason to let it affect me 
946
So grateful for all of you and your unwavering support 
Itās given me more strength than you know I do feel better today. If thereās one thing I know about sleep, it has to happen eventually, and lack of played a major role. It allowed me to distance myself from this new calamity in my life and accept the things I cannot change.
Thereās the obvious weight from my father being hospitalized. Everydayās been touch and go. He seemed better Sunday. My bro said he was groggy Monday. He was in normal, high spirits when we arrived Tuesday, but quickly declined throughout the visit. Right before work yesterday, I found out theyād discovered his gallbladder was infected and heād need surgery and my mom said he was completely out of it, wanting to go home. Today we found out they decided to drain the infection instead and also whatever was distending his abdomen. He slept most of our time there, but several doctors assured us he was doing much better. His white blood cell count dropped to Ā½ of what it was 12hrs before, so the antibiotics are working. Itās the not knowing that was plaguing me, but Iāve been treating it as such today. Not getting upset now, over an outcome I donāt know Gotta take it as it comes, one day at a time (love how that applies across the board).
But then thereās this 
Long story short, I found out my daughter and at least 2 friends have been meeting guys on Snapchat and are receiving packages from them. Some were sent to my neighbors apt # in my daughterās name (their daughter is involved too). Thereās at least 5 different guys. They donāt know who they are or what they look like, but they know everything about these 11yo girls! Full names, faces, and addresses 
More and more details have been uncovered everyday since Monday, but I donāt have the fucking energy for this shit rn! Like, I canāt even 
My daughter doesnāt even have Snapchat on her phone, but I discovered my momās phone (which she uses solely as a telephone and knows less about technology than anyone Iāve ever met) does and itās basically been my daughterās 2nd phone for God knows how long! Iāve repeatedly told her not to let her use it, but idfk why she doesnāt listen. I havenāt even told her about this bc she doesnāt need anymore on her plate. Itās fucked. FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED!!! I guess the neighbors have some kind of plan, but I havenāt talked to them today. I donāt know what to fucking do. Like, I just canāt 
48 Day Late Evening Check-in ~
Weird weather, weird day. I did get a few things accomplished, so thatās good. Iāve had an odd feeling all day. Super anxious. I have a serious phone call to make tomorrow. I need to make aome changes here. Until then, must sleep.
Good morning all. Feeling fine today, slept well but that dosnt mean i want to go to work but I will. 25 days to go then a week off, not that Im counting .
@Mno really happy that you are enjoying your time off. Island life for you? Is there a basketball court? 
@WCan its great that you are at 5 years. I like seeing you previous tally too. It gives me hope
@JazzyS 1002 days! Just keep swimming 
just keep swimming 
. .
Hope you all battle through today.
Checking in with 144 days sober. Have a addiction free 24 hours all! Every day more sober is doing good for us, no matter what the number is!
Thank you very much!
And also you @JazzyS and @Just_Laura 
As the father to an almost-11 yo girl I can empathise and imagine the pain and heartache this is causing you. This is one nettle youāre just going to have to grasp before the situation gets any worseā¦ sending strength!
667 sugar
531 UPF
Got a virtual ride through SF this morning 
Groceries and other errands in a moment, yoga and game night later.
Peace and love always 
Good morning everyone!
DAY 22
Painting the home is finally over and I have slept a bit longer this morning to allow myself some extra rest. I feel good; last night I listened to a podcast where someone explained better how praying is different from begging for help.
Meditating or praying in the present moment, knowing that despite the hardship, it is indeed perfect as it is in accordance with the divine plan, allows a higher power to develop the situation until its complete resolution and take us to the next level.
However, begging by complaining that something shouldnāt be as it is and commanding a change for the better somehow reinforces a concept of āwrongā, that a higher power is expressing life wrong, which is impossible. Only the human mind, in fear, understands something as right or wrong; the universe in its perfection only moves in the right direction and this is where faith comes into play. I find this very helpful. Let go and let God.
Today I am grateful:
1. To have a mobile phone
2. To have an internet connection
3. To have a laptop
Have great 24 sober hours ahead!
Day 13
Hello everyone,
After reading your testimonials, in which you sincerely share your experiences of suffering and recovery, I have been thinking about something that I would like to share. I hope it will inspire something positive.
Suffering, and the awareness of oneās limitations, has an involuntary aspect that cannot be ignored. In this state of mind, it is often unrealistic to believe that one can immediately find the strength to āsurpass oneselfā and resist everything.
But suffering does not necessarily mean giving up. It can also be a revelation: I was living in an illusion, and that is no longer enough for me. I know that I will always have limitations. Yet I want to push them back, I want to keep fighting.
There is no definitive end, only moments of lucidity and opportunities for criticism. My will is limited: by my body, by my means, by my family and those around me. But there is still a flame inside me. It is thanks to this desire to do well that I can begin to evolve, step by step.
When you have been tested, drained, you donāt rush headlong into hope. You move forward with lucid effort, sometimes even heroic effort (letās not be afraid to say it!).
What drives me today is learning to live with my despair, to transform it, and sometimes even to be grateful for it. Like those who practice gratitude on a daily basis (and they are quite right to do so!).
Oh man thatās fucking scary and hard. I would sit down and watch a few programmes and films with her that explain and depict and dramatise directly whatās happening to her and her friends, and that this is not her fault. Itās a sad and sorry manipulative dangerous scenario.
It will possibly be taken better subliminally (in a medium that is youthful and she can relate to) than from your mouth. I would however make it clear that you are going to sit down and watch them together because you want her to have the full information about how unfair and fucked up online grooming is, and that so many young women unfortunately get caught by very manipulative tactics, so sheās done nothing wrong.
I canāt think off the top of my head of specific films but I just did a Google search and it pointed towards some appropriate YT series and also some specific episodes of CATFISH that involves girls and Snapchat and what you have described.
I mean, it will probably hit her like a tonne of bricks that the story sounds the sameā¦ Especially if you manage to watch a few of them with different people and same shit storyā¦
Good luck 
what a crock of shit you donāt need right now with Pops being unwell.
All the best mate 
@JazzyS day 7. Itās hot dark chocolate good for blood pressure? I will love to take that medicine!!!
I believe, instagram made change recently that will let others know where you are in real time default settings now. Definitely scary how some apps work and the updates made that make changes like that without the user really knowing.
That is truly scary about your daughter. @Just_Laura
