@TrueSpiritRyuu
Congratulations on 49 days!!!
They serve Korean noodles at the gym at Disney? That is a cool gym!!!
Checking in. 90 days! I have a serenity prayer coin on my keychain and I love it. Happy to be making positive changes, and accepting what I canāt change too. My relationship with alcohol and other elements in life too has changed a lot the past few years. Itās taken me a long time to decide that even semi moderate drinking is worse for me than zero. Iām happy to be totally sober now and I want to continue on this path. Sober today and I hope many tomorrows.
Yāall Iām literally shaking and in fight or flight over the stupidest thing. But Iām soooo proud of myself. Iāve been white hot pissed over this situation for weeks. I took control today.
I was referred an NFL player which I typically refuse to work with (no offense if any are here)
The referring person was really pushy and I said yes because Iām a damn people pleaser. NFL players (again no offense) are a ton of work, typically not business people, take an exorbitant amount of time, and it usually does not go anywhere. Itās just not good business for me. Normally Iām so good about turning down bad business, but she was so demanding and pushy and I backed down. Iāve been angry at myself ever since. This morning, I very tactfully fired them both. He was lovely about it, but I could tell he was a little bummed. I set him up with great resources though, so heāll be ok. Iām terrified of her response. Why? Because I want someone I donāt like to like me!!! WTAF is my problem
Day 35.35
Trying to get back in the swing of things.
Captured this one for @C_8!!
@Hopeful777
Happy 35th day today sober twin!!!
We are doing this together!!!
Everyone have a great day today!!!
Your numbers are piling back up quickly! Good job
Day 29. Almost 1 month! I survived the weekend and almost caved on friday. Mood has been somewhat down lately. Hopefully the new week gets rid of that.
One more day to a full month!!!
Great job!!!
@Fargesia_murielae
Puzzles are great. I am trying to work one that has all black pieces. Super hard since the pieces are large normal, small normal, and curved pieces. Crazy.
@Girlinterrupted
I think you are dealing with a case of setting new boundaries. I used to let people run all over me when I was drunk since I had a super low self esteem. I think it also came from the guilt I felt from drinking and a kind of self punishment of myself (in a weird way). Now that I am rediscovering myself, Iāve started pushing back and resetting boundaries that are better for me. I donāt go crazy, but no longer feel compelled to give in all of the time.
It is not easy, but it is surprising how well people adjust to it. In fact, people try to see how far they can push you before you push back. If it comes early on they realize they cannot push you around.
As far as people liking me. I want people to respect me even if they donāt like me. I can set boundaries and present them, but if someone wants to not like me for them, that is their problem and not mine.
I had 3 full emdr treatments but its my home that triggers the shit out of me, just filled up the bullet holes a month ago and iām reaching out to get a good gz-psy but in the landscapes of healthcare they just dont seem to see the urge that im in couz it just gets better day by day but im still fleeing after certain times. Last time i holded on 3 weeks @ home but last 10 were a hell to go thrue.
Thnx for thinking with me claudia , it does help me feeling not alone and supporter.
Be well sister
YAY Mr. K. Congratulations and THANK YOU
Day 6 sober. My last relapse was after 5 days. I passed that line today. I feel inspired and powerful
@Girlinterrupted you are lovable , very lovable and I understand you have problems to accept that. I have the same problem. Our very core is immensely lovable and important. I am in the way to accept that and I pray you realize it
Day 44 and 12. One more day soberā¦
Congrats on 200 days of sobriety.
Blessings and sobriety!
my core was rotten now itās a spiritual furnace that burns into the hearts and minds of others.
Just fuck em off. You cant make someone like you if they just want to use you for something that you wont do- Her response is going to be absolute dog shit but thatās a reflection of her personality, not your work ethic. Youāre better off.
thatās because you are.
Youāve got this, congrats @aircircle 500 days of sobriety and @Blueroom for 90 days.
Blessings and sobriety yāall!