Check in on day 47.
Today is ending in dissapointment. Felt great this morning.
Please allow me to paint you a better picture. Do tell if this is not approriate here!
So I’m a beginner at safety razor shaving. Made the switch because the multi blade gillette stuff didn’t work for me.
It’s only been my third shave with the safety razor so I don’t have the best technique yet.
Looked forward to it all day. Made a whole routine around it. But when I was done shaving I had nicks, razor bumps, irritation. Because of my lack of technique.
But that left me dissapointed.
The old me would have turned to the bottle. To make me feel better.
I hate this feeling. It brought alcohol back on my mind…
Anyway. Thanks for reading this. It does help to vent!
day 114 the alcohol day 74 the weed and the tobacco. You won’t be taking me back today. Well done sober warriors, over used that saying but we truly are a force.
Thank you! And yes thank god I got some alcohol free after shave. I guess I will get better at it. I really like it though! Just gotta keep practicing.
In a way it’s good this is happening now. It’s good it makes you think of alcohol. There is stuff to deal with, you can’t just forget what happened. That’s exactly what we tried to do when we drank, to forget our troubles. We quit because we decided it doesn’t work like that (well I did anyway). We need to face our troubles and demons and learn to deal with them. You thought of alcohol but you decided not to drink. You recognised in the past this would have been a reason to drink. You learned. Well done! you will learn this shaving technique too. By practising. Keep going Jonathan. You’re doing good.
Thank you so much for those inspiring words!
Not everyday is easy… I try to remind myself of all the reasons I quit drinking. Sometimes the alcoholic voice is louder.
Soupspoon is gender neutral just kidding… ik ben een man.
I also struggled with trauma’s… I had around 15 EMDR treatments for multiple trauma’s. Also had EMDR anger protocol because of resentment (woede/wraak protocol).
Getting a good psychologist is a pain in the ass. You must have a click with that person, otherwise it doesn’t work good. Sometimes I thought… I’m not gonna tell that to you, bitch. I had 4 psychologists before I had a good one.
You are doing great! I always relapsed when I was triggered by trauma’s. Keep up the good work! One day at a time!
Keep fighting Beth. You’ve come so far and I think you’ll agree sober is better. We’re all pulling for you! Your determination and strength inspires me to keep going.
Day 166
Rough night with my youngest daughter so I got very little sleep. So then I decided to sleep in and just go in late to work. I’m thankful my job allows me to do that. But I’m frustrated to be having to do it. I’m already ready for Tues to get here. Trying not to let a bad situation, that’s mostly over with, ruin the rest of my day. At least I’m sober. Now to work on my addictive eating habits… Ugh. Soldier on warriors!
You’re proud and rightly so Beth! Yes of course you’re scared. You’re a pleaser. I know how it works and feels as I am one too. You will face this and pass this test and be even prouder. You will pass because you are sober and you are learning to deal with this stuff in a healthy way. Even if it’s scary like hell.
Like you are learning that this time your sobriety is not a ‘try’ or an ‘attempt’ anymore. This is it. This is the one. You are learning that ‘normal’ is NOT drinking. Sober is normal. You gave addiction a lot of power over you but now you are taking the power back. By sharing here. By talking about it openly. By facing the conflicts and troubles and turmoil. By not hiding anymore. It’s a damned hard road to follow but there is no alternative. The only alternative is death, if not physical than spiritual and mental for sure. That’s how I see it anyway. Thanks so much for sharing your journey. Hugs.
just kidding… ik ben een man.
At least I’m sober. Now to work on my addictive eating habits… Ugh. Soldier on warriors!
