I’ve been having the most interesting dreams lately. Last night I dreamed about graduating from some sort of school. I’ve dreamed about this same school many times before always the same classroom with the same people. But last night, we finally ended it.
To me, that’s symbolic. I can read it as the end of a cycle that I’m slowly coming to terms with. It’s been almost two years since I left Germany, and I’m gradually letting go of the old version of myself that lasted for so long. That version needed a brutal end for me to truly see how far I’d neglected myself. Now I’m seeing all the benefits of rewriting my story.
It’s not easy. Building a new life requires work, commitment, and a willingness to sit with emotions and stillness, because often nothing seems to happen for long periods. But while we think nothing is happening, we’re actually taking huge steps toward learning to move through life on life’s terms and to collaborate with something greater than ourselves.
Today I’m grateful for:
My morning routine
Not having to cook today (my father is treating us to takeaway fish)
Well, now I know the 3rd worst thing I’ve accidentally gotten in my eye is mouthwash (containing alcohol )! Doesn’t beat shampoo or ear drops (don’t ask), but still. Ouch! Good times before bed
Today was alright. Crap weather made for sleepiness, but found the energy to get thru a crazy busy work shift. Now, just dealing with the after effects of garlic, yet again It’s almost impossible to avoid at work, unless I don’t eat anything, but idk why it seems to be getting worse. More research needed
Things with my dad are actually pretty alright. He’s had different appts every day and has been able to make it out of the house to attend. We spoke with someone who finds advocates to help keep track of everything, which is alot. Slow and steady. So long as he keeps pushing himself More to share, but I need sleep more. Have a great 24!
100 days sober today - can’t wait to leave this shitty job, just waiting for my pre-employment checks to go through and then I can hand my notice in. Patiently waiting
Had the most amazing 24 hours away and now snuggled with my best boys . We have hired Sinners to watch, but watching Companion first. Here’s to a peaceful and soberlicious day. Peace
Checking in 108 days THC free and 23 days MO free. I’m taking it easy today..I decided not to go to my church group and just have a me day. As much as I enjoy going. I’ve been feeling like I do a lot of running around on my days off and don’t have enough me time. That may sound foolish considering that I live alone but it goes back to balance. I enjoy my time alone and I need to refuel myself before I restart my work week. Lately, I’ve been feeling like I go to group moreso because I’ve been giving a couple of the ladies a ride rather than because I want to go. I’ve also been helping one of the ladies go to doctor’s appointments and I can’t always be available for her with my work schedule and all. I guess I’ve just been feeling overwhelmed. I’m grateful to be able to help but I think I need to take a step back.
Checking in day 112. Sixteen weeks. I think I’ll celebrate with a red cabbage slaw with apples for breakfast. I need an energy pick up. Happy Birthday, @mno ! I would love to live where there are whole dedicated bike roads. Your daily posts and photos have kept me sustained. No nonsense or delusions about the embrace of full sobriety.
Good morning all. Checking in on day 77. Still a little rough but much better than yesterday. I spent the whole day sleeping yesterday. Going to take it slow today (even though it’s against my nature) Thank you @JazzyS@Leveller for your sweet support. Light and love all:star:
Checking in with 11 months sober! I’m off today and I have a cold but I’m oh so grateful for another sobriety landmark. Thanks to all of you who showed up, told your stories, and supported me along the way. It’s been a difficult period for me in terms of mental health lately- sometimes I wonder if it will ever not be a difficult mental health time for me- but I wouldn’t have made it this far if I was drinking. Here’s to a straight shot to a year. I hope you’re all having the most beautiful and sober day.
)! Doesn’t beat shampoo or ear drops (don’t ask), but still. Ouch! Good times before bed 
It’s almost impossible to avoid at work, unless I don’t eat anything, but idk why it seems to be getting worse. More research needed 
More to share, but I need sleep more. Have a great 24!
