160 days sober. Good night.
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Day 89 sober
Going good, almost fully recovered from being sick 
Just did gym, not much to report
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Iām trying to decide whether or not to go to a high school reunion happy hour that starts in about 40 minutes. I have the perfect excuse since Iāve been sick and am still recovering. Maybe Iāll go by and say hello and leave after about half an hour? I havenāt stayed close to my friends from high school so I donāt feel Iāll have a lot to talk to them about. And of course some people will probably be drinking. All the more reason to leave early. I havenāt done much else today. I slept until almost 11:00 like you can only do when you are sick. I gave my daughter a bath and went to the pharmacy. Itās a beautiful fall day here today. Hope you all have a sober and happy day.
Edit: I went to the reunion and had to leave after an hour because I was coughing and couldnāt talk. It was good to see people but it was too much for me.
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Day 7
Busy day today. I thought a lot about my life choices while continuing my activities. Activities devoted to my daughters.
Tonight, I attended a play with my wife in a peaceful mood. And it feels good to relax like this. The message is āNobodyĀ“s free until everyoneĀ“s free.ā
The old woman on the ground floor, the beggar near the supermarket, the prostitute on the sidewalk across the street, the intellectual who is losing his memoryā¦ They all have their own lives to live and be interested in, and being able to understand them is a beautiful way to live.
With an accordionist and simple lighting, the audience was enthusiastic.
Have a good, sober evening, everyone! 
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Keep up the good work
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Great job on a week! Many more peaceful days ahead. 
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Checking in 75 days THC free and 39 days MO free. Late check in. I worked the morning shift and been chillin at the house.. watched a movie and busted out the ole guitar for a bit. I had pawn my amp to pay a phone bill and finally got it back! Iām never doing that again! It felt good to jam a little. Had some fun leftovers for dinner and doing some meal prepping for the week. Itās been a good day 
. Tired and going to make some chamomile tea, eat a sweet snack and another movie before bed. Morning shift again tomorrow and then the concert tomorrow night!!!
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I donāt think the craziness was less when I was using. my life has been a rollercoaster since I was born. But Iāve gotten pretty good at working through things. And my life is a lot better than when I was a kidā¦
Sometimes it just gets heavyā¦ 
Life is worth it for my kids. I canāt give up.
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Today was mentally DRAINING.
I woke up early to take my dog to a low cost clinic to get a growth checked out. When I got there, there was a line wrapped around the building. 
So, of course, I got stressed and anxious. The thought of possibly being there all day and the probability of Betty not being seen (the clinic was only open from 9am - 1pm), I felt like I needed another plan. I ended up taking her to this Urgent Vet Care place 30 mins. away just to get some sort of temporary treatment until her primary vet appt. on the 13th (another low cost clinic which is why the appt. is so far away).
While Iām dealing with all of this, my ex came out of the woodwork (AGAIN) and was texting/calling me nonstop. Iāve been ignoring him for MONTHS (I think almost a year at this point). He will text/call then go radio silent but then randomly appear again. I thought it had finally got to a place where it had stopped because the last time I heard from him was in June. Well, today, I had enough. I lost my 
and he got a version of me that very few people have seen. To keep it tame for this group, I finally responded and advised him to stop contacting me. Although I didnāt word it like that. 
For some reason, all this triggered me. As I was driving back home with Betty, I just thought to myself, āGod, I need a drink.ā
But, donāt worry, the thought quickly passed and Iām still sober.
When I got home, I had to lie down and sit with my thoughts. And think about why, after all this time without any type of craving or temptation, would my mind go there today?
I thought about:
ā¢The general worry I have about my dog. Sheās fine for now but I wonāt truly know until her primary vet sees her.
ā¢The one year anniversary of my nephewās death.
ā¢The current issues that people from my community are facing. This has been giving me MAJOR anxiety. It also just makes me angry and sad. 
ā¢Having to deal with some health issues. Although it has gotten better, the bills are now stressing me out because my new insurance is trash. 
ā¢The ex situation. 
Which I believe he has finally got the message to skedaddle.
ā¢My normal Saturday routine being thrown off a bit. It probably contributed to my anxiety and negative thought patterns throughout the day.
It took a lot of brain power for me to calm down and accept that I can only control so much. So itās better to, you know, take it ODAAT. 
While I still feel a little anxious, Iām feeling about 80% better. I took a nap, did some of Bettyās laundry, did my laundry, ate, and watched some tv.
Betty also did something cute today. 
After the Urgent Vet, I had to stop by the pet store to pick up a cone. I never take Betty with me anywhere mainly because sheās hard to control on a leash. I have to use a prong collar which I donāt like doing but itās a way to keep her 65lbs. muscular build from dragging me along the sidewalk. 
Anyways, I take her with me to the pet store because I didnāt want her waiting in the hot car. I didnāt know how she would react to the pet store, again, I never take her anywhere plus sheās a rescue. Well, her original family must have taken her to the pet store a lot because Betty was SO well behaved. We picked out and fitted her cone, pick out some snacks (anchovies), and she sat politely for the cashier. 
Betty eventually stood up against the register counter for a treat but, with her chicken allergy, she couldnāt have any.
I love this dog. 
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Fucking Dreamlight moonstones.
Are you playing Disney Dreamlight Valley too???
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@JMS19 oh Iām sorry to hear about your toothache. Hope you were able to get that dental appointment. Wishing you relief soon 
@pdebs not sure about the glue loveā¦glad we all are here giving each other support . Three young kids going through their rebellious stages can be a lot for any one. Glad you are venting here. Hope that helped. Hope the day got easier 
. Btwā¦howās the sourdough bread coming along?
@CR84 love the new avatar 
congratulations on your double 4ās!
I totally get that. Glad you did step out of that comfort zone. Glad you will have others to enjoy the fair with. Now that you have opened up this WhatsApp group Iām sure you will have many opportunities to hand out with your pool friends
@JP123 great to see you checking in. A huge congrats on your 1 year of sobriety 
. Thatās an amazing milestoneā¦ keep stacking up the days!! Good luck with smoking. Check out the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) (Part 2)
Thread. . like ads of great tips and support to help you there.
@Redro congratulations on your 2 weeks 
smart plan to focus on your sobriety for now. Our routines, hobbies and even our circle of friends can change in the course of our recovery. Main goal is to protect our sobriety. Keep putting in the effort and stacking up the days
@john_connor1337 yeahā¦look forward to celebrating your 3 months tomorrow. Glad to hear that you are fully recovered.
@Kareness glad you were able to go to the reunion and leave early. Sorry you are still feeling some sickness symptoms. Hope you get some rest and are feeling better soon
@Christophe congrats on your week of sobriety 
. Glad you enjoyed a evening out with your wife.
@spgand28 sorry for the anxious day Sonia. Glad Betty could get some temporary treatment and you have an appointment with the vet in the books. What a sweet girl. Give her hugs from me . Fudgecicles! Hate that your ex is popping up like this from time to time. Thatās not good for your mental health and healing. Glad you said something today. Iād possible, you should block his info so you wonāt get caught off guard and triggered. So grateful you held strong and protected your sobriety. Should be super proud of yourself.
Checking in on Saturday night
1018 days free of alcohol and weed
1433 days free of cigarettes
Productive day. Got in a swim thankfully as I got to the gym super early and had the time to wait for a lane and then wait for the lifeguard break.
Got some errands done and was able to navigate my way through game day traffic. Work was super busy which helped the day go by fast. Ready for bedā¦ hopefully will get some sleep.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ evening. Sending you all so much love
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Checking In.
Had the kiddo in to the ymca and he met up with a friend to play in the morning. Then picked out some cards for my momās and niecesā birthdays.
Ex keeps trying to act like a spouse in reminding me about kiddoās schedule and not to miss this or that. Which I was fully prepared for. So, I attempted to set a boundary. Hopefully she abides it.
Celebrated my momās 70th with the family today. Lots of good stories and laughs around the campfire. Stayed sober obviously but being around my brother did bring up some mild temptation to smoke since he and I used to do it together often.
I have to turn kiddo over to exās custody tomorrow afternoon. Iām a bit nervous about a week in the empty house alone. But I do have the dog and Iāve got my new forge and some projects around the house to keep me busy. Itāll give me some time to be at the gym without other obligations too. Iāll do laundry and meal prep tomorrow afternoon/evening to get ready for the week ahead.
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Day 34 AF
Day 17 nicotine vape free
Day 11 cannabis free
Today got away from me! I was TRIPLE booked with friends!
Itās 11pm here and my partner doesnāt get home until 1am.
Iāve been keeping very busy but these quiet times let thoughts creep in. Iām learning to sit with them. Identify them. Learn some more about my brain.
I went birthday shopping for my mama today and bought her a mug that says, āMom, you were right about everything.ā I figured after 34 years of defying her, this would be an admission sheās been waiting for. (My mama is 2 years sober ).
I will not drink with you today!
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Happy sober bday momma! Love the mug
Way to go with keeping those thoughts at bay ā¦stay strong friend 
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Sweet dreams Jaz ļø ļø ļø
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Day 1, oxycodone free. Not looking forward to the next several days.
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Yesterday was fun, attending a long lecture on the psychology of being surrounded by nature (or the lack of that), together with @Lola 
. Turns out we need more nature. Working on it.
What we donāt need for sure is any alcohol or drugs in our lives. Going to make today as good a day as I possibly can. Sober and clean. And hope you will all do the same. Love from my town.
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Got a grounding screen back 
thank you @Butterflymoonwoman for sending me that one way back when. 
Itās really helpful
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Thank you! If fitness is not your goal you can definitely try yin yoga then, which is a slow motion yoga designed to repair damaged tissues and joints ā¦
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