Thanks Andre, I know I need to chill about it all. But I wanted to be accountable for the thoughts I was having. Feeling better after getting it off my chest.
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Thanks Jazzy!
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Iām just a cool gal like you 
thanks, another sober day with a few cravings.
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@cr84 WHOOHOO!!! Way to go Cass! Congrats on your 2 months 
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How did the day go for you? I am sorry for the rut that you were in and hopefully you were able to get out of that negative spiral. For me I go over board with comedy to help me out of my dark ugh thinking. It sometimes takes longer than I would like but it does help. Glad you have a therapy session lined up for next month. We are here to listen in the meantime 
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Nightshift was ok last night. Had a quiet day today. Got home, dropped the kids at school, played some Nintendo then had a nap.
This afternoon Iāve been trying to organise some alternative sites for a training course im running. The site I had planned, an unused university campus may stop external groups from training there. So now im scrambling for some alternative industrial sites that may work.
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Glad I played ball last night, even when it was a bit much, with just enough men showing up for a game, so no substitutions. Ran a bit out of steam towards the end and had to get home in the rain. Itās still raining now. Well, thatās what rain gear is for right. Letās work.
Iām off tomorrow yay. Thatās tomorrow. Iām going to make today as good as I possible can and hope you will all do the same. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Pic is a great memory from six years ago today, Guadalupe State Park in the Texas Hill Country. Much love.
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- I spent about ten hours yesterday on the laptop going cross eyed and losing the plot.
. I still have so much to do prep wise. These interviews are no joke. Anyway, some exercise is needed first to juicy Lucy the limbs up ready. Have a good 24 
letās go.
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Iāll take them every so often sober, instead of every single day drinking. This too shall pass 
@CR84 Congrats on 60 days Cass!
@Jonachav123 Iāve been feeling the same way for a while now. Like, everyday life is becoming repetitively mundane 
Which somehow makes it feel even more overwhelming 
Iām sure some therapy will help. I had a similar idea todayā¦
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So yeah. A rut. Iāve been feeling it for a while. Just going thru the motions. Iām sure itās directly related to everything happening in my life in the past months. Like, my brainās been at max capacity too long without a decent break 
Anyway, nothing changes if nothing changes. So last night I decided I should probably follow my own advice every once in a while and hit up a meeting. Even tho I hardly slept, I forced myself to go this morning or Iād have to wait til Thursday (the only other one I can easily attend each week). I explained how Iāve felt stuck lately and not sure how to move forward and the room replied. I didnāt really explain much of my history or that my desire to drink has all but vanished, so majority suggested I go to as many meetings as possible, so not to relapse. But a couple answers did stand out and make me feel better. Itās a start 
I know thereās more to life than this (even tho it doesnāt feel like it rn), bc Iāve already seen it. Just need to keep learning and working again 
Odaat
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Congrats on day 47! Iāve been meaning to watch Wayward - any good?
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Hello everyone!
DAY 54 - check in
Like many here, I am also experiencing difficulties in sleeping recently and I wake up often during the night. Also, my dreams are very intense and full of meaning, and extremely interesting to a degree I canāt fail to notice. I should definitely start again to write them down, but I think I have learned by now to summarize them quickly enough to understand the meaning.
I did some work yesterday contacting new galleries here in Europe, and a few of them have already replied saying they will discuss the proposal with their team, which is really cool. I know itās just a matter of time, and I have already dropped all expectations from my previous arrangement with the gallery I worked with this year, saying to myself not to wait for them and just keep moving forward at my own pace.
I also want to go back to some social life as soon as possible in a city. I am not scared of it because I will immediately check in with local AA and NA meetings to both stay sober and meet people. I have a plan that is slowly cooking in my mind, and I am taking the right actions with ease, without having to push anything in particular.
I like Italy, but just for vacation, I prefer North Europe when it comes to living a life and working. I have been here now for about two years and had the opportunity to heal some old childhood wounds, especially with my father, that are making me much stronger. ODAAT. Things will move accordingly to the divine plan. I just need to be connected.
I use this platform more like an online journal, 
but it is helping very much. Thanks to everyone. Itās very sweet to read all your entries; I could not be more grateful.
Today I am grateful for:
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Dreams
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My bed
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My bedroom
Wishing everyone a great sober 24 hours!
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84 days and I can already tell today isnāt going to be great. I have a lot of insecurities about my body image since putting on a load of weight these last couple years and thatās definitely affected my relationship and my self esteem. When it seeps into my dreams like it did last night, I wake up and just canāt shake the awful feeling of betrayal, disgust and itās unbearable.
I just hope it goes away soon bc Iām feeling so gross and awful right now.
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On morning day 16
Once again, my brain is seeking to regain a feeling of easy satisfaction. This is linked to procrastination and a lack of motivation to take concrete action towards my goals.
I am faced with old patterns of behavior that cause me to procrastinate and fill my time with activities that do not help me move towards my goals. I need to replace the habit of entertaining myself with a healthy activity.
I understand what I need to do to create a solid foundation for my goals. By establishing healthy lifestyle habits, such as a balanced diet, regular exercise, and good sleep, I can help my body and mind be more resilient and better prepared to face the challenges of the day.
Iām working on that this week.
Have a good one, all of you. 
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Good morning everyone. Day 52 and feeling A-ok today.
I had such a perfect day yesterday. I had no plans and at the very last minute I decided to go on a hike with Alfie so I took a sandwich and a flask and away we went. It felt so good getting back out into the hills and forest. (Just decide we are going again today)
@Ofmiceandroach Sorry your feeling so shitty at the moment. I can relate to what you are saying as my wife is having a hard time too. She has started going to the gym and I am preparing healthy meals. It is hard at times and sometimes you feel like your not getting anywhere. Hope you find a way.
Wayward is worth a watch 
A couple of pics from our walk yesterday.
I hope you all find a way today
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Four months today, and the dogs go to the groomers so will look and smell delightful later today.
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Congrats on your sober days! So good you are here.
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699 sugar
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Rain, rain, rain. Groceries, errands, a new fascinating little project, and rowing exercise later.
Peace and love always 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1955. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in on day 65.
I did not give in to my cravings last night after I came home from work!
@Butterflymoonwoman @JazzyS @Just_Laura Thank you guys for you support! Means a lot! I hope today will go better. So far so good. I stayed busy this morning/mid day before work.
I hope I can keep this positive feeling throughout my shift later today. Thatās a challenge because I donāt like my job
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Hi all. 107 days sober and first time here. Itās been a tough few months and I am feeling anxious about whatās to come but trying to take it one day at a time.
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