Much love to you my beautiful friend. You indeed are a warrior and i know you have been through it but now you are healing and growing and flourishing. You are living the life you were meant to live and I am so very proud of you. Grateful that you are loving who you are today - You are a beautiful woman inside and out!
@mossy welcome back Mossy - great layout of a plan. This is the best way to move forward. Day 1 is wonderful - keep putting in the work
Love this! Sorry for the hard day you dealt with yesterday - be proud of yourself for getting through it and finding the brighter side today - much love my friend
My thoughts ā For me ārestā does not mean that you lay in bed or the couch and āvegā out - it is a way to calm your mind and your body. You can rest by doing light stretching - something calming like coloring or knitting (for some this is calming and others it is madness lol). Something that will allow you to regroup your cells and regain energy so you are not living on the verge of being burnt out. We get burnt out by over extending ourselves and hurriedly going through daily tasks with added stress and anxiety. So the main goal is to breathe and find a stillness within. Some times the stillness does come from laying in bed or just melting into the couch - nothing wrong with that. We have be programmed to think that if we are not on the go then we are lazy or not being āproductiveā - self care is productive and takes more effort than most think.
OOH that is marvelous to read - YES - I too won the day - what a fantastic feeling
I totally understand that fear. For myself no AF wines have been able to give me the sensation of wine. When I tried to quit drinking years ago I would constantly buy alcohol free wines and because they all sucked so bad I always found my way back to drinking. I was always chasing the taste. When I finally stopped trying to replace it is when I was able to finally get sober. I will drink AF 0.0 beers but they donāt have the same effect as wine. My friend bought a AF wine for Christmas thinking I would like it and it really made me feel uneasy. I did not even try it. We will not be going back
@Christophe That must have been a very scary afternoon Grateful she is ok and grateful you were sober and clear headed to be present
Checking in on Friday afternoon
Getting ready for work. Not much going on - got in a swim and some minor errands / jobs done. It is really a warm day today but super windy. Seriously - where is winter??? I am not complaining too much but at the time find it kinda concerning.
Be well - wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Happy Friday beautiful souls. I hope everyone is safe and sober. Checking in on Day 141. It has been a good couple days all things considered. I honestly havenāt said much because I am speechless TBH. But I am maintaining and sober. Grateful to have my home feeling like home again. Just taking a slow self-care day to digest. Light and love all
Iām struggling really really bad today.. Iām terrified to ask anyone in my life for help bc they think Iām better. If I tell anyone theyāll realize Iām not ok I donāt want ppl to believe that Iām not doing as well as it seemsā¦itās getting bad again
These awakenings in the system seem to start with a spark in my back yard. I get to be on the front lines of history. I wish it were not at the expense of human lives. I struggle to understand what I have the power to change.
We live in a system that thrives on us being numb to our feelings and driven to consume to escape them. To consume alcohol and pills, to bliss out in a fantasy land of media, to chase the wealth and power endlessly, to eat and smoke until we need some other product or procedure to fix the harm weāve done to ourselves. Until we care more about selfishly avoiding our own discomfort than we do about our neighborās humanity. All of us isolated and relying on our crutches to prop us up from our spiritual bankruptcy.
To me, being present to help others wake up from their nightmare and see the lies theyāve swallowed is one of the best things I can do for my community. To be conscious and sober so that I can protect my loved ones and my neighbors. Iām ready if Iām called to action, but I am afraid of what that means.
Bushfires still raging out of control. Thousands of homes destroyed and people still unaccounted for. Nearest fire to me is 70 km and our home still has ashes covering some sections even indoors. My thoughts are certainly with all those affected and those brave souls helping fight these horrendous fires.
Hey friend, talk to us We can help! I totally understand about being nervous to tell those close to u. I have felt this very same thing. If u feel comfortable, feel free to elaborate here Recovery has its highs and lows. Its normal for things to fluctuate. I find (when Im really not doing well), that getting back to the basics of my recovery, helps tremendously.
I want to reduce screen timeā¦ My day at work was ok, Iāve signed up for the excursion in March I mentioned yesterday, the registration is paid. A colleague of mine has done the route in the past, and she says itās beautiful!
I hope everyone has a relaxed day/evening. Off to bed soon!
Sounds like ur experiencing some pretty intense emotion . Do u know what event had caused you to feel this urge to SH? Do u have anything around u that is potentially harmful for u? If so, remove that item immediately. You dont need it friend.
What i find helps alot for anxiety, is grounding/mindfullness techniques.
Find a comfortable spot
Take a few deep breaths
Relax ur body and anywhere thats tenseā¦ your shoulders, ur jaw, etc
Focus on slowing down
Name 5 things that u can see around u
Name 4 things u can feel (ur feet on the floor, ur back on the chair, etc)
Name 3 things u can hear (birds, talking, vehicles moving, the tv etc)
Name 2 things u can smell (candle, coffee, food, etc)
Name 1 thing u can taste (gum, food, juice, coffee etc)
When naming these things, really focus ur thoughts and attention on each thing. It helps ground u n bring u back into the present
Day 786. Unfortunately didnāt make it to my appointment yesterday, the medcab that picks me up forgot to schedule me for pick up so I rescheduled for this Monday. Not a big deal, I was contemplating riding my electric unicycle so bad, I fought back and forth with myself for a good hour before I decided it probably wouldnāt be the best idea. It wasnt bad out but idk I guess I just didnāt feel it. Today im doing pretty good, happy and looking forward to this week coming up. Itās my gf bday and sheās on vacation, canāt wait
Thank u for the tips. As far as reason for sh urges not sure nothings really going on but I started to struggle right after the holidays and itās been getting progressively worse everyday since
Oh noā¦ so uv been dealing with these urges for some time Im sorry ur struggling friend. I hope that some deep breathing and some grounding exercises helps Would some distraction help also? A nice walk? Or some self care? Maybe a nice shower, a nap, or a nice meal. Whatever u do tho, do not engage in SH. Uv come such a long way!! Remember ur reasons for quitting this behaviour. U deserve to treat urself with loving kindness and gentleness.
Hello everyone. Todayās day, nine and iām checking in on this friday. No desire to drink. But a desire to keep my clarity. When a person is stuck in a drinking stage depression becomes normal. But when a person puts it away all of a sudden the depression starts to fade. Light starts with a glow and continues to grow. Stay with it Julia
Much love to you my beautiful friend. You indeed are a warrior and i know you have been through it but now you are healing and growing and flourishing. You are living the life you were meant to live and I am so very proud of you. Grateful that you are loving who you are today - You are a beautiful woman inside and out! 
We can help! I totally understand about being nervous to tell those close to u. I have felt this very same thing. If u feel comfortable, feel free to elaborate here 
My day at work was ok, Iāve signed up for the excursion in March I mentioned yesterday, the registration is paid. A colleague of mine has done the route in the past, and she says itās beautiful!
. Do u know what event had caused you to feel this urge to SH? Do u have anything around u that is potentially harmful for u? If so, remove that item immediately. You dont need it friend.
Would some distraction help also? A nice walk? Or some self care? Maybe a nice shower, a nap, or a nice meal. Whatever u do tho, do not engage in SH. Uv come such a long way!! Remember ur reasons for quitting this behaviour. U deserve to treat urself with loving kindness and gentleness.