Sending healing vibes @DanielaJ 
Same here: Food to comfort myself. Be kind to yourself, having a cold sucks. Maybe a scented candle can distract the urges. For me it sometimes helps.
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All of those days are great!
But heres the thing. You drank three beers. It doesnt sound like you paid any consequences for the three beers which is great, but I feel like your minimizing it because you didnt drink whiskey.
The last time I drank 2 beers and I didnt pay any immediate consequences I drank again, and again, and I stayed relapsed for 10 years. paying consequenses for most of that ten years. Still paying and I havent had a drink in quite some time.
When I drink Im 1000 times more likely to do drugs. so all of those days will be goneā¦
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Quick check on on day 953. First day back at work today. It was good to be back and I really enjoyed working with our inpatients again, even though I was quite nervous about going back. My line manager was really supportive, which made me feel a lot better. A few days off now until my next shift, so hereās hoping I managed to pace okay. I had a lovely welcome home and cuddles from my kitty cat at the end of a long day 
Happy birthday @Kareness I hope you had a lovely meal out 
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Day 1480
Today has actually been an emotional day for me. I went to my sons school this morning to assist in the wheelchair growth assessment (my son is growing so fast), and shortly after i arrived, they had a practice lockdown. The police showed up and started the lockdown. Everyone in the class had to get up close to the wall and stay quiet for 20min. The police came and shook the door to mimic someone trying to break in. It was actually really scary! I dont ever remember having these when I was in elementary school. I could feel the emotion in my chest (like when it tightens up) and had to sort of pull myself out of it so I didnt start tearing up. Not sure what that was about but it was intense.
My son got his wheelchair looked at. Some adjustments were made and we discovered he needs a new bearing in the front left wheel. East fix but it wont be repaired until maybe next week when the tech can come out to his school with the part. Thankfully that saved me $115 as they didnt have to come to the home to do this.
I went to the gym afterwards. Did some cardio. Then went home to clean and pick my son up from the bus. I feel done for the day. Looking forward to a nice pasta dish for supper, a shower, and cuddles with my son. Hope everyone is doing well today!
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Day #42 check in.
Going strong. Trying to get some yard work done though rain showers keep coming out of no where. 
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Feeling low tonight. Having lots of sh urges and my mind is trying to reason that itād be ok to cut as long as itās not extremely dangerous but sometimes I canāt control how dangerous my actions end up being and Iām afraid even if I try to make them superficial they might still end up risking my life bc thatās how it ended up last time. Idk what to do Iām just feeling down 
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That sounds super intense! I didnāt have to do a lockdown until my senior year, and that was in 2007!
I had to be quiet, but I wasnāt. I chitty chatted with my friends and teacher. We were pretty cynical and nihilistic. But we also knew it was a drill.
I canāt imagine how terrifying it would be for small children to have to become desensitized to that. How horrible! Fire drills, sure; but lockdowns? Thatās so scary. I love that you were able to show him that itās okay to feel fear in a scary environment, but there are times when its best to react later when itās safe.
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226 days THC free and 12 days MO free. So, I donāt think thereās going to be a third date. He stopped calling me as much and kept getting my name wrong and I guess I hurt his feelings when I called him out on it..I havenāt heard from him since and Iām just going to let it go ā¦bye bye have a nice life. My name isnāt Jetta and I corrected him twice and he kept calling me Jetta. I even kind of made a joke about not being made by Volkswagen but he called me Jetta again! I had noticed that I was the only one initiating phone calls, the last couple of weeks and he didnāt really give me a reason why so whatever. I hadnāt seen him in 6 weeks anyway and I donāt want a text buddy
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Iām sorry. What?
Girl, you dodged a bullet.
How does he get to be offended when he doesnāt even know your name 
after two dates!
Iām sorry that it hasnāt worked out. Thatās disappointing. But I canāt feel relieved for you.
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Yea I was thinking the same thing after reading it lol. No worries, Iām good. I can see the red flag a mile away now lol.
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Just seeing your post now Chrissy, Hang in there
In the past when I hit the āslumpā I sort of panicked a bit. Sunshine and rainbows were suddenly gone, and invasive thoughts about drinking slipped into my mind. The enormity of never drinking again hit me like brick wall. This time around I donāt think I ever fully had a pink cloud moment, I knew what was coming. I do feel flat a lot of the time, but Iām approaching sobriety differently. We need to allow ourselves to go through this process so we can re-learn how to deal with negative feelings in a healthy way.
How are you feeling today Chrissy? x
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@Binx Feeling a bit better today thanks! This whole week I have been really in a funk. Today was a better day though. I took the dogs for a walk after work, and the fresh air helped my mood quite a lot. Today is day 60 for me - this is the longest I have ever gone, so itās like learning how to live all over again, dealing with feelings I used to just drown out. Thanks for checking in! Have a great night!
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Please hang in there and take very good care of yourself.
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2678 days sober. In my head thatās 7 years and 4 months yesterday.
I woke up in the middle of the night with some headache. Weird. I am glad I can rule out a hangover.
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Day 23 Have a nice day!
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Guten Morgen. Glaube fĆ¼r die Langzeittherapie, falls sie genehmigt wird, Kauf ich mir fĆ¼r den Tag so ein Klapphandy ohne Internet, das Smartphone wird nur noch am Abend genutzt
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Hello everyone!
DAY 189 AF
DAY 156 smoke-free
Early mornings and routines have been my best allies in staying sober. Writing here every morning, regardless of whether I felt like it or not, as the first thing has helped me immensely to set the intention to stay focused and committed to sobriety in the moment and in the day, aware that this forum was all the support I could get for now. And so far, so good.
One thing that I have learned this time around is to shape my day around sobriety rather than try to make sobriety fit into my day. Therefore, all the recovery-oriented activities come first and are the things I will not skip, like time out in nature (unless itās raining), physical activity, meditation, writing in my journal, and connecting to whatever form of higher power might be there for me, to know that I donāt have to do this all by myself, even when it looks like I am doing it all alone. ā¦Itās not true; help is always a choice away!
Itās foggy these days, and the moisture makes painting take double the time for drying and slows the process quite a bit. I will have to wait about one more week before the sun is out again and I can let the work dry properly before treating it. Itās okayā¦
Today I am grateful for:
- foggy hills
- foggy waters
- a nice walk in this spring foggy landscape
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
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Morning Check in
Had to get Up my A** Out of Bed now, Put on some music, breakfastā¦
Morning Sports and a wheight Gainer Shake, Vitamines
Buy some food later.
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Had a good day yesterday, took care of some work related stuff (even though itās my holidays), took care of my feet (should go and get a pedicure, and I will), rented a bike for my trip thatās coming up in two days, sat in the sun for a bit, went out eating with an old friend.
Sunny but cold now, it should warm up later. Would like to ride my bike a bit. Wait till it warms up I think. In the meanwhile Iām going to have as good a day as I possibly can, which will be sober and clean for one thing. And I hope you will all do the same. Much love from my hood.
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@MrFantastik Hope we are not stealing to much of your summer sun 
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Saw my first butterfly this season! Made me very happy. Having a bit of a challenging time emotionally. It will pass, using as much support I can. Going to spend some time in the sun today.
Peace and love always 
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