Waking up at the beach day 4! Hangover free! Woke up at 6am which is actually sleeping in for me. Took the fur babies for a walk and got to taken in the stars. Had drink last night walking the dogs would have been a horrible task to deal with.
Watching the sunrise and drinking coffee. Later feet on sand bundled up of course.
One moment, one day at a time. Head to pillow sober tonight!
1 year 4 months AF 
Slow, sober Fridays and weekends are wonderful. Plenty of time for hobbies, pets, cooking, walks. Beginning of sobriety it was hard for me to stop and enjoy the slow pace. With time my mind has become calmer, I donāt get bored like I used to. Iāve found my way back to old hobbies and also tried new ones.
So if you are in beginning of your sobriety feeling bored this Friday and questioning is my life going to be this dreadful from now on, the answer is no. Give it time. You wonāt regret it. 
Day 96.
Slept like a rock last night. After 3 night of terrible, sporadic bouts of sleep and waking, it was almost a desperate plea for rest. Today, I have a data entry project to keep me preoccupied for a few hours, then I plan on delving into this collage piece Iāve been brainstorming.
Simplicity today. Hubs and I spent some time cleaning out the den last night, so it feels so much more comfortable in there now. I plan on using it as a work station this afternoon. Looking forward to sitting in a nice, beautiful, clean space. Light a candle. Make some tea. Turn on some Billie Holiday. 
The massive cleanout project has slowed, but is still trickling forward. It has been a season of renewal. Fresh air and clean surfaces. Less. 
Day 1440
Morning and happy Friday!! I am feeling beyond exhuasted today. My mind was ready for my workout this morning, but my body wasnt. I DID get to the gym and pushed my hardest on leg day. Skipped cardio bcuz I was just spent. Im grateful I went bcuz exercise helps me tremendously in so many ways.
I grabbed a protein smoothie on the way home and now Im home relaxing. My son has a half day of school today so we will spend the afternoon playing board games, basketball etc.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Day 7
A fragile day. I donāt know, a feeling of uncertainty, a loss of focus. Anyway, itās over now.
Dinner is ready. The children are busy with their activities and will be home soon. Iām done and my book is waiting for me.
Have a good day/evening.
Checking in 186 days THC free and one day MO free. Iām going on a date tomorrow. Iām excited and nervous. We were going to go tonight but he works all day and I have to be up early in the AM so tomorrow is better for both of us. Heās picking me up and weāre going to dinner and a movie. I havenāt gone out on a date with a guy in 35 years so yea! Iām going into this with no expectations. Just dinner and a movie. Iām sure itās going to be fun. Iām going to celebrate recovery tonight to get my 6 month chip! No work today so Iām taking it easy.
Sadly itās not free here and while it will safe me anxiety, my wallet will cry
Iām so happy for you, congratulations and your an example to follow! Your journey inspires me! 
Checking in
Last night I slept really well, and my day went accordinglyā¦ I was well rested and in a good mood. After work I did a good workout, at least for my standards (20 min Tabata and 30-min punch bag workout) Iāve made some changes to my diet 2 weeks ago, and as someone with an ED for 25+ years, I only go on the scale once a week, so I donāt obsess with numbers. Today it marked 2KG less, not much, but I think itās the max I can expect in a healthy way! So all over Iām feeling quite ok for the day! More to come! 
Congratulations on 1 week! Im sorry ur feeling a bit uncertain and lost. This too shall pass tho. Hopefully ur day tmrw will be better 
Wow!!! Im so HAPPY for u!!! That takes sooo much dedication, work, and consistency. Im proud of u!!
Checking in Day 12
Today I felt a great weight off of my shoulders. I went to therapy and through my work there I decided to sit down and have a really open conversation with my partner. She knew about my previous struggles with things like Alcohol and weed but I talked openly about my addiction for the first time. We had talked about PMO before but this was the first time I said the words āIām an addictā.
She was understanding and supportive, asked me questions about it and we had a really open conversation which blew me away. It feels to me that shame is such a big part of my addiction and I feel like I had been holding back from talking about my struggles because I was ashamed and I feared rejection. Luckily I have a very supportive partner who keeps on surprising me at every turn. I am grateful for the chance to be open and honest. I grateful for my partner. Iām also grateful for my sobriety. Just under two weeks of no PMO and I feel like a new person.
There is more work to do but tonight I feel proud of who I am and the journey I am on.
Iām so upsetā¦just found out that my insurance wonāt cover the treatment that I need so badly.
I donāt understand why this is happeningā¦.ik struggling so bad
Im so sorry. We dont have medical insurance so a lot of times I should have gone to a doctor, I just dont. Being able to afford Healthcare shouldnāt have to be such a luxury.
@Emyj Thanks you! But if Iām honest, Iām not a hard liquor person and schnapps is way too sweet for me, so it wasnāt as hard to say no. Now if it was a glass of wine that they offered, that would have been tough, lol. But itās still a win 
Checking in at the end of day 12. Today was a little tough. I had a lot more cravings today. I went to a smart meeting and listened to some sobriety materials which helped. I think my emotions are keeping in and this time I want to feel them, work through them and turn to other healthier means in dealing with them.
So glad I stayed sober.
Everyone have a good night/day.
2422
Iām going to have as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all do the same. Sober and clean of course, or nothing would come of it. Funny how I didnāt notice these daffodils at all before yesterday, while they grow outside my local grocery. Much love.
@Jules000 & @Emyj Medical insurance should be there for all. Infuriating and saddening it is.
@Jeanine So glad too you stayed sober! Recovery is work, sometimes a lot of it, but itās a work of love and so worth it! Keep going lady. 
23 days, I woke up feeling a lot better today than I have for the last week. A little bit of sunshine in the depressive state Iāve been. I did a great workout, got so much done before work, and then had a nice relaxing evening. Ready to get some real sleep with no alarm set tomorrow! Spending a Friday night reading, taking a warm bath, having a clean house, knowing Im going to wake up feeling refreshed tomorrow, is the way to do it 
Checking in, 271 days sober. Feela good.
Saturday morning, gonna rest a bit. Hope you all have a relaxing weekend!
Checking in on day 2638.
Hello everyone!
DAY 148 AF
DAY 116 smoke-free
Iām not worried about my future because I know I am taking the right actions and will see the desired results one day. For now, the challenge is simply to be present in the moment, let go of outcomes, and see the bigger picture. Life has been throwing me another challenge to see if I can win over my ego and the discomfort it causes when it comes to my progress.
Itās not always easy, and thereās a lot to process in terms of being able to trust and fully believe that I am doing the right things and that this is the right course of events. What other choice do I have? Iāve played different scripts many times before, always ending up with the same finale. Iām tired of repeating cycles without seeing something different and new.
Itās good that I donāt have anything to show off or something particular to achieve. Iām finding peace in creating without any specific outcome and remaining willing to keep surrendering every day, one more day, one day at a time. Fears and doubts are just figments of my imagination. I have achieved so much in terms of self-confidence and freedom from validation. Itās worth continuing this journey, surrounded by simplicity and quietness, instead of the chaos my mind still somehow craves independently from my true needs. Oh well, I am an addict after allā¦
Today I am grateful for:
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
āYour best days are ahead of you. The movie starts when the guy gets sober and puts his life back together; it doesnāt end there.ā
