I slept OK. Now for a long workday. Let’s do this. I’m off tomorrow. That helps. Let’s all make today as good a day as we possibly can. We’re in this together. Sober and clean of course or nothing would come of it. Much love from my place.
@ES1004 Having your wife involved can be helpful. Are there any guests you can tell? Keep us in your back pocket as well, we’re here to help. You won’t cancel and I sort of understand that, but: what’s one cancelled party and some pissed off friends maybe, weighed off against a possible life of sobriety instead of the life of an addict? Take good care friend.
Looking back at the weekend away last February that was my rock bottom I can’t believe the life I was living, I was anxious, depressed, battling with myself and alcohol every single day.
But now, life is still hard sometimes of course but my relationships have improved, my mental health is sooooo much better, work is easier and I have so much confidence, determination and pride in myself.
If you are just starting your sober journey please keep going, I promise you that you can live without alcohol, it’s so much more peaceful xxxx
The days are getting longer and the light has already changed; everything feels lighter outside, and so do I. Nature is my trusted ally in this phase, and I am trying to appreciate its contribution daily. These days won’t come back, and I will always remember this transitional phase when I chose sobriety and decided to trust the process. The mind likes control and planning, simply because that makes us feel secure when we think we know what is going to happen.
But there is something very powerful in not knowing and in learning to trust that life has a plan and is here to take care of us, not to get us. When I was drinking and using drugs, it was only a matter of time before the next bottom would hit and create chaos; I was just used to this crazy way of living, always in fight-or-flight mode. Now it’s a matter of getting used to having peace in my life. It does require courage, but I can do this just for today.
Adrenaline and survival mode are other forms of addiction. Today is another day in which life will take care of me, because I decide to take care of myself too.
Today I am grateful for:
• a morning workout
• some meditation
• fresh air
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
“Believe you can and you’re halfway there.” — Theodore Roosevelt
Still fighting off lingering lurgy. Managed a kick ass bicep, triceps, back and shoulders workout yesterday in the gym with the big lifters in the big lifters area. Love my people, they got mad passion and drive I always use to think that part of the gym would never be for me, it always seemed too intimidating and loud and scary… But that’s nonsense, it’s for everyone. There’s a life lesson there probs. Gym rats are dam good people, just like furry rats are excellent animals. Maybe it’s because it’s way past the shitty XommercialMas period but the jobs adverts are picking up a little, so I have a few irons in the fire to work on, been keeping me super busy as a lot of the applications are straying into new territory for me which needs new behavioural input and work on stuff. Always good to keep shape shifting and moving those lats. I should have four or five decent job applications in by the end of next week at this rate. Each application takes days FYI to do properly so it’s a slog. I’m just glad I’m feeling better. For the fuzzy and warm feelings I got my cats as emotional support animals and the last season of Queer Eye as ultimate self care viewng. The other half is away until the weekend so I’m going to treat myself well until then. Be good to you.
Today is day 8 (back from relapse) it’s hard to find motivation to look after myself. Just trying to get teenagers up for college and school is a struggle!
I am glad that you’re here posting! It’s one day at a time and sometimes one minute at a time! You’re succeeding! Be proud of yourself and keep on going!
I beat my longest ever sober streak yesterday with a consecutive 37 days. I beat the usual dry January + a half assed attempted go at prolonging it. Small wins.
This time it’s for good! Feeling good about it too.
Finally nights are over for now. 15 of 16 days worked 14 on nights. Took today and tomorrow off for hopefully a 4 day weekend to rest and get back to gym. Uncertain yet, but may even take some more time next week. I seem to have an abundance of vacation and banked time.
Wife left for trip back to BC this morning, son off to girlfriends for week, so have house to self. Up at 4:30am to see them off, and have plans to do some deeper cleaning, gym, have a massage booked for tomorrow and looking to get a haircut also.
Day 51!!! Back down to freezing cold not much on the agenda for today. Work is slow so I am going to be applying for more jobs. Going to pick up cat medicine after then coming home to do some chores made beef stew yesterday so will have that for dinner tonight ~ always better the next day
I hope all are having a great start to your morning / day!!!
xxxx
Love my people, they got mad passion and drive 
I always use to think that part of the gym would never be for me, it always seemed too intimidating and loud and scary… But that’s nonsense, it’s for everyone. There’s a life lesson there probs. Gym rats are dam good people, just like furry rats are excellent animals. Maybe it’s because it’s way past the shitty XommercialMas period but the jobs adverts are picking up a little, so I have a few irons in the fire to work on, been keeping me super busy as a lot of the applications are straying into new territory for me which needs new behavioural input and work on stuff. Always good to keep shape shifting and moving those lats. I should have four or five decent job applications in by the end of next week at this rate. Each application takes days FYI to do properly so it’s a slog. I’m just glad I’m feeling better. For the fuzzy and warm feelings I got my cats as emotional support animals and the last season of Queer Eye as ultimate self care viewng. The other half is away until the weekend so I’m going to treat myself well until then. Be good to you. 
not much on the agenda for today. Work is slow so I am going to be applying for more jobs. Going to pick up cat medicine after then coming home to do some chores 
made beef stew yesterday so will have that for dinner tonight ~ always better the next day 