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Sober from alcohol. And other stuff.
Love you all.
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With my heavy drinking history, i swtched up a lot to stay sober.
2 years ago i think during winter one year ( i actually posted about it here) i walked into a bar down the street from a londry mat i was doing londry at, because, i simply had to use the bathroom. The bar was closed but the door opened and i asked to use the bathroom. The guy was hesitant but he said yes.
The 3min i was in that bar, which i have never been before, my anxiety and adrenaline were sky high.
While i was there, i didnt drink anything and i didnt buy anything. I used the bathroom, said thx, almost bought a soda but didnt, and i left. Everytime i am in that area , that bar is fried in my mind
Im going to tag you in the post if i find it to show you how loopy it got me. I wont change anything i wrote except saying āeditā and tagging your name and how many years after , the edit that happened just today
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Thank you 
I foresee quite a lot of early nights in the days / weeks ahead. I feel like I could sleep for days right now. Thank you for your kind message 
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Day 06
Work is still challenging but I feel better today, much watch says my stress levels have fallen a little too. Another early night ahead 
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Checking in
Last nights sleep was very good, my workday was also ok, leaving aside the fact that our AC is broken since 2 days, and Iām currently working in an office with 35C. Never gets boring! 
I went to the gym this afternoon, and experienced some cravings on my drive home. I rode out the wave, and told my cravings to fuck off, and went straight home! 
Off to bed now, as I have to get up at 5:30 am tomorrow, I have an event, for a change! 
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Day 388 AF
Still plugging away and taking it ODAAT. Work has been a lot this week as I am covering for a coworker who is on PTO. Have a personal counseling session tomorrow where I am looking forward to checking in on things with my mom. I still am struggling with how our session went last week. Think I am more struggling with the fact that she is acting like everything is fineā¦she even asked us to dinner and based on her āwe need to do things we donāt want to for familyā comment I said yes even though I donāt want to go tomorrow night. I also donāt agree with that statement at all. I donāt think any of us should do things we donāt want to. Ughā¦sometimes I just want to stay in my bubble. Anyways enough venting from me. I hope everyone is having a great day. Really looking forward to the weekend.
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Day 167.
On holiday, sober 
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Good for you. I love when that happens :). I will also sleep sober tonight
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Good morning my wonderful friends. I just wish to once again thank everyone for their kind words and thoughts in the difficult time.
Funeral is delayed until 18th August as priest availability is extremely low next week due to a Catholic Priest retreat/meeting.
Would have preferred sooner but out of our control.
Hope everyone is doing ok, love you guys.
Thank you again.
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@Clearhorizon Well done on your 1 week! Glad to hear that things are starting to get better and the urges are lessening 
@EthanHunt WHOOP WHOOP 2 weeks is great work. What you are feeling is normal but also something to keep an eye on. Early days we are exhausted as our bodies are detoxing and fighting cravings. Be gentle with yourself. Glad you have found some hobbies - maybe they have a thread here so you can join others with similar interest. For example, Legos, Knitting, Reading, Gardening etc. I found this space to be my source of motivation and reason to keep pushing forward. Stay connected friend and keep working your journey!
@49er YEAH to sober living and benefiting from all its gifts. Glad to see you connecting with the kids and enjoying life!
@Finn Double 5ās! Way to go friend. Keep up the great work 
Oh I am so glad that you will be outta there soon. Hang in there friend - now only 4 days left.
@s_unrelax YIPPEE! Double digits for the win! Great to see your days adding up. 
@Madds Hot dang! This is amazing 1 month free - you go on with your bad self
@Butterflymoonwoman 2 months binge free is remarkable and celebration worthy 
I see how hard you are working on this recovery and its amazing! Congrats to you my friend. Keep showing up for yourself So glad that you did get a sponsor. I am very happy for you!
atta girl! Now that is how we do it Another day sober for the win
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
1324 days free of alcohol and weed
1739 days free of cigarettes
WOW- the day has been a blur. So grateful to be sitting down. I did manage some sleep last night but it was not the best. Think total of 6 hours if you piece it all together. Way more than my usual so iāll take it.
I feel like I have been running around like crazy today but trying to figure out what I have to show for it 
- iām drawing a blank.
I am glad I made it through last night. My old neighbors at my old house are so amazing. One let me use their water and another gave me a hose to add to my hose as it was not long enough so that I could clean the AC unit (all the cotton bits get stuck in the vents and my tenants have not turned on the water to the outside of the house). Grateful that my brother was with me and helped me get all three things completed under 20 minutes (by help me I say he did all the leg work). I am grateful I remembered to take my garlic spray so we did not get eaten by mosquitoes and bugs while in the back yard. SO very grateful that I was feeling super low and exhausted and really was starting to think that I needed something strong to help me pass out for the evening. Turns out that my brother followed me home as he had work to do in the area and I did not get a chance to make any pit stops. Someone was really looking out for me 
I am grateful that I was so grateful when I parked and felt the urge pass. That would have been a horrible backslide.
Well I am still sober and ready to go home soon. Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love 
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Checking in on day 1108. Super fatigued these last few days but have a week off now so will do a longer check in soon. Sending love and strength to all 
@EthanHunt congratulations on 2 weeks 
@Mno glad you had a fun bike ride. Enjoy the rest of your timeoff
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Good evening friends, happy to be here and share this cool milestoneā¦ Not the first one earned but hopefully the last.
Have a great evening!
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Charlie I am so happy for you and so happy to see this amazing milestone
Keep going strong 
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Nine months 
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Checking in,
Rough start to the day. I did it to myself with shitty sleep habits. Got angry at my son for being difficult. Felt disrespected and didnāt handle it perfectly.
Turned the day around with a couple of long walks, dinner on the grill, and swimming in the river with my son and my dog. Both such great personalities to have around. Iām lucky to have them in my life.
On my way to bed. Want to start off tomorrow on a better foot.
Hereās to your serenity and mine!
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Check-in Day 11 from Rehab - Completely clean.
Morning checking ināthis is the time we get mobile access after breakfast. Itās very rainy here this morning and I felt a bit lazy to get up, but the rehab staff woke me up.
Before breakfast, I had to give a blood sample to test my thyroid. This is the second blood test because the first report showed a small variation, so the doctor advised repeating it.
I am still waiting for the counseling session with the counselor and father. Hopefully, they will call me today or tomorrow.
There is a 3-hour class today. I see some people here who are very lazy to attend classes, but I enjoy them and I am taking it one day at a time. Hope everyone is doing well, and I will update you further in the evening.
@Butterflymoonwoman Glad you saw my list and I hope it will be helpful to you in the future.
@CharlieC 9 months is huge! Just 2 months to go for 1 year. Keep up the good work, my friend!
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Yay!! Congratulations on 9mo. 
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2833 days no alcohol
109 days no caffeine
Didnāt sleep well. Air is not good. Some rain at the end of the night which is good.
Going for a little ride now. Still not sure if I will call/visit the metalworking company as it feels like begging.
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Checking in: day 146
Up early to take the train to the Dutch countryside. A long weekend with my family including a big party on Sunday. I am looking forward to it as I will see some family members I havenāt seen in a long time. I will treat this weekend as a mini holiday. Because of DBT I am not taking any long trips until I am finished next year as I donāt wanna miss any sessions. And when I am finished, a long trip will feel extra special.
So up up and away! No worries about my sobriety because I donāt have any heavy drinkers in my family. I feel good and I hope it stays that way. You never know traveling by public transport 
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Stay safe and sober 
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Coffee in my mug, cat in my lap, writing my morning papers and check in. Feeling good although a bit more sleep would have been nice. A nap later might be on the cards. But letās do some Friday stuff first. Writing club to attend. Groceries to get. Cats to be played and cuddled with.
Going to have as good a day as I possibly can. Sober and clean of course. Hereās hoping you will all join me. Much love from Leyla and me.
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