Chugging along with job search, takes me a day to make one application. Sometimes difficult to apply for jobs you know you can and have done, but your inner confidence and self-esteem is work in progress due to alochol bashing. Need to get into the real world now as feeling cocooned at home. See how I cope once at work.
@beaniebun thatās brilliant you stayed sober and that you enjoyed @SoberWalker hope you get sorted soon. Ear problems are not nice. Good luck and best wishes for the CT Scan. @Joy your counters are amazing @Fargesia_murielae you have an exceptional relationship there @Girlinterrupted so good to see you back have thought about you @GVLNative you never rest I know those days are stacking up, can belive tomorrow is 50. It is going fast and I dont dread weekends no more. Have a good week. @anon60334405 loving your pink clouds. I would continue to go to your meetings on your own, look after your own sobriety. If your friend is serious he will make his own way. If he is not serious he could stress you out.
Well Iām glad your back, Iāve relapsed in the short time you were away and the more help the merrier. l To was going to leave but instead decided to invest my experience in helping others in the early stages of recovery. We need each other like peas need carrots.
226 Strong Alcohol Free - Reset to 0 on mindful eating.
Let me preface by stating that I actually havenāt been eating recklessly or too much or even bad, however, a major part of my mindful eating is keeping it 100% plant based and artificial sugars free. I slipped up and ate a carrot cake with non-vegan cream cheese topping and Iāve just been eating alot of vegan unhealthy sugary shit in general in the past 2 weeks which has reeked havoc on my skin (artificial sugar makes me break out insanely). So now my skin looks a mess and Iām unhappy with my behavior. From today on Iāll be mindful about my whole food plant based eating and get back on track.
Wow, you guys are really taking the sting off and making me feel extra special today. I guess thatās why I just could not bring myself to exit completely. Just needed to collect myself a bit I guessā¦
@Dolse71 I am so sorry, but also so impressed and in awe that you bopped right back and here you are! You are so right, peas and carrots. Stay strong
I seriously just got the strongest wiff of tequila and I know damn well there is no alcohol in this house. Positive: it didnāt make me want to drink. It actually made me have this āickā reaction. Keep up the good work friend!
Not doing well. I live in Asia and my folks back in NY are having a hard time. My dad cant even visit my grandmother in the nursing homeā¦ I am hating being so far away from them and my husband is being wellā¦a dickā¦ So I am trying to hold o. Struggling today to be honest. Want to drown it all away. I wonāt. Cause playing that tape forward is just bad. But I admit I am tired
Sliding into day 5.
Just washed my car which was causing me embarrassment, lol. Although the workers here last week broke the handle for the hose I had bought.
Got er done!
Believe me, we are all much too hard on ourselves. I will say that as I get further in recovery, I find I have much more compassion for myself. We are all doing the best we can, where we are at, right now.
Great that the learning curve is set in place !! And remeber that beĆÆng and staying sober is not a sprintā¦ its the marathon of lifeā¦ training, falling and rising is a must! Proud @ ya !!!
this is so true, Iām not thinking about the drink I had Iām thinking its only 3 in 6 months, this is amazing. Also Iām sure if I could have not drunk I would have not drunk, so yes we do our best.
Glad to see you back here and sorry to hear youāre having such a hard time. Iām so sorry you have been treated poorly. You are not worthless or garbage and anyone telling you otherwise is absolutely crazy! You bring so much wisdom and perspective to this forum and I know many of us value your insight and support. I really pray you find some hope to keep living and not to shut down. If thereās anything we can do to help you please share with us as you feel comfortable and let us support you. Sending you big hugs.
I know those days are stacking up, can belive tomorrow is 50. It is going fast and I dont dread weekends no more. Have a good week.
