That’s a dangerous game, that’s your unconscious mind playing tricks on you, and once you send that txt. It becomes even more of a craving and u start obsessing over it untill you get it. But you seriously need to listen to you’re conscious, the one that is telling you no. I’ll end up hating myself, I’m gonna be broke till Friday, I could of did better thing with this money. Drugs have done nothing good for me. Glad you posted this, but definitely do w.e it takes to get out of that unconscious mind, through your hands around like crazy do jumping jacks anything untill you stop thinking about it
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Thanks. I’ve never posted before when I was about to relapse I just kept to myself and let it happen and came back here to reset when I felt “ready” again aka ran out of options. I’m still hanging on tryin not to obsess. Thanks for reaching out 
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I’ll be throwing them on when I get home from work this afternoon. They need broken in sooooo badly!
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DAy 1 and like 10 hours. Feeling ok because well I am at work its when I get home to myself I worry but I think I will be doing a double so that might help
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Congratulations @crystalclear!! Woo hoo!! You’re doing amazing. You’re working really hard at this and it’s paying off. I’m so happy to not only be a part of your journey but the nice friendship we’ve bulit. Hard to believe how much we connect with the distance between us. 
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One week in today. Anxiety is at an all time high. I’m worried about everything so much so that I’m worried about things I can’t even identify. Physically my energy level is increasing, it feels pretty nice. Now if only I can find something positive to fill in the spaces.
Life is a beautiful struggle.
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Day 10…checking in friends😊
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Ask and ye shall receive:
The inner soles say “Live Fast. Land Flat.”
Here’s a clip of Larry Edgar, who’s signature shoes they are:
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@crystalclear that’s a fantastic achievement, congratulations for your 6 months have a great day 
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Checking in Day 50 
thank you @Fargesia_murielae
@GVLNative really can’t believe we have hit 50 days, the sober theme now that is unique, that will be a new one, sounds great, have a good day at work
Gym this morning, need to stay out of the house a bit longer, four classes back to back, but came out feeling good, which has been lacking of late.
Have a good day all. 
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Great numbers!! 
Congratulations 
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Nice!!! So cool!!!
I second @Englishd Deleting all of those contacts would be a super easy step to take today to remain sober. Keep it up!
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The big 5-0 well done you. Stay the course, you deserve it.
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Go you!!! Well done. Keep doing what your doing bc your workin it lady.
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Celebrating day 98. Not craving.
Some big lessons that I’m carrying with me. The biggest lesson is that I really am weak.
Sure. I’ve never given up. I’ve been pretty resilient and tough. I don’t feel weak now, but I am. Pride comes before a fall. So this time, I’m learning to accept more help. I need help; a lot of it. I’m not doing this alone. I’m not relying on my own unsteady willpower. And I think it’s working. This could be the year. And I’m excited for this opportunity. One day at a time. I’m glad to be here.
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what a night, what a day, what a week. and all of a sudden the anger shifts just enough so I feel the longing to get back to the mat and do a little yoga. So thankfull for this practice that will always come back to me no matter how far I shove it of when pain or emotions overtake me.
Thank you all for supporting me today, reading and giving perspective. especially of course the ladies of the 27th feb - march 1st group! I have the courage to breathe throught the pain a bit. 
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