My soberversary from alcohol will be 4 years in Feb, so all is good in that department.
Compared to booze, this is a very minor thing, but it’s crazy. I think I’m addicted to chocolate chips. I buy them and then hide them. Then I will sneak around and eat them when my partner can’t see me. I can eat a whole bag in a day. Of course then I feel gross. What the heck is up with that?? It feels like the same I did with beer. Sneaking and hiding and denying and covering up. I promise myself that I won’t buy it again, but then I do and it’s the same cycle.
Once again, I totally understand that this is not a big problem compared to what other people are dealing with, but it messes up my self esteem (and diet) and general well-being.
If I’m not careful I can become addicted to anything lol. Maybe apply the principals of the steps? I’m powerless over chocolate chips and my life is unmanageable. Come to believe that your higher power can restore you to sanity, then turn it over. I’m proud that you’re reaching out here, I guess my biggest concern for you other than you feeling bad about having to hide your addiction to chocolate chips is what eating that much on a daily basis could do to your health like possible diabetes etc? Anyway I wish you luck and congratulations on aimost 4 years sober!!!
Congrats on your 4 years!! That is so empowering!! I am right behind you in March.
As @Rockstar24777 says, sounds like you substituted a new addictive behavior for the old one. I did the same with sugar, tho I was not hiding, I certainly was ritualizing and seeking it out as a way to soothe myself.
Since you are finding it interfering with life and making you feel bad about yourself, maybe take a look at WHY you are overindulging in it. What need is being met or what emotions are you ‘feeding’ with it or escaping from. All the nooks and crannies of recovery, as opposed to sobriety. The big WHY and finding newer healthier ways to self soothe and feel our emotions.
We can simply go from one addictive behavior to another until we examine and heal our big whys. Lord knows I certainly have lived my life that way.
@Rockstar24777 and @SassyRocks, thank you for your thoughtful replies. You both certainly gave me something to think about. Just switching addictions means the problem still needs to be sorted.
Thank you!